I believe when there's hope.

2010-08-02T19:42:00.000-07:00

HELLO ,
Firstly , here to inform your , i'm not the owner , i'm just here to help this LAZY boy here posting .
WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO POST ? ._.
Gonna crap here a little ,
It's been sucha long time that we've talk/meet/h2h etc etc . Miss you this bestie aye :) .
Ok , shall stop here .
Lastly ,
LAST LONG WITH KAILING :) .

2010-05-10T10:20:00.000-07:00

To all mothers out dere:D
This is definitely a day to commemorate ALL that you have done for us so far.
From...
Suffering/Enjoying.. the pleasure/pain when our 1st cell starts to develope and fuse.
Enduring 9 months of our birth that awaits.
Sacrificing so much for us that we are sometimes unaware of it.
and all the GREAT stuffs u did as a mum, that made us who we are today.
That alone already made u AWESOME:D
But the truth is..
I never had a mum.
Or maybe i did.. but only til 2 yrs old and after,
I'm officially listed as.. MUM-less.

Maybe I had never experienced <3 from a mother.
& could never understand it when you just hear others blabber so much about their mum and how good their mum are...
When deep down, you just had nothing else to say about ur own.
You are afraid that friends will in turn ask you, "How great is your mum?/ U dint celebrate Mother's day with her?"..
All you can do was try to avoid the topic or be as brave and stupid as claim urself as motherless to make a joke out of it to let everyone change topic and forget what they wanted to ask.
LOls. to think abt it now...
..
..
..
WHY SO SENTIMENTAL? :D:D:D:D:D
Just get this FUCKING day on and over with. and every other day will just seem normal-.-

But yesterday, was a day, the 1st year that i actually celebrated mother's day for somebody(:
and that somebody's my GANMA(: <3
Though we dint get to know each other long enough to fully build a loving bond between each other, the least I got out of yesterday was that I indeed wished GANMA to really enjoy this mother's day.
She was damn sweet enough of her to treat me and LOUBO dinner after work. Idk whether telling us not going down orchard cuz she was lazy; an excuse.. but I could feel that she was really enjoying herself throughout the whole dinner and after that(:
Even though she paid like 100 just for the 3 of us having dinner at around bishan prawning area.. She was still happy:D
<3 her TTM(: still wanted treat me for prawning. if i really accept den really BPS already sia-.-
LALA.
KANGKONG.
STINGRAY.
CRAB.
MANTOU.
like that cost 100 liao._. pua sia.
Plus mother's day still need her pay money cuz she wanna treat-.-
That's what makes her a <3-able GANMA:D

2010-04-25T10:31:00.000-07:00

WMMT3DX+

~~~~ P L A Y + L I K E + Y O U R + L I F E + D E P E N D S + O N + IT ~~~~

I have improved, that’s what SOH told me; but still not up to his standard yet. It was nice to hear.. Nice to hear that he can see the improvement in me; whether or not it was just to spite me or if it was truly real, I felt good but still unsatisfied.

Cause deep down I do know, I’m far from being a pro yet; I may be an advanced player, but to truly win everyone, to win my ultimate rival, to win even just soh or kang; it takes more than just those skills I possess now, far more to win them flat down, although LUCK do play a big part too.

I can now do breaking which I failed in the past, I can see myself playing better in today’s 2nd internal FHD match against KANG and DAVIN; but those mistakes I commit, those chances I let lose and how rush and uncalm I was during the came brought down my very own failure. I can’t put the blame on Kelvin too, and He did somewhat play better than our last match competing against ROBERT and SOH; however, we still lost.

The lost wasn’t great, that I’m aware. We lost by 8 points, having mostly drawed in most maps, but that 8 points could have been saved; had I not been rash and play like my common style. Like what I say. LUCK plays a part too.

Having lost on our side and KANG and DAVIN not being able to win us by 28points that KAISHEN set for them, ALL our FHD cars had to be confiscated for a week before we can get them back again. What KAISHEN told me rang in my mind until now. “Go Home Reflect On It.”

I was hot-tempered, I was angry we lost, I wasn’t in the least happy that we drawed though I dint expect ourselves to lose by so little only too. A little contradicting, but those who know what I mean will know. Imagine having me and KELVIN thrashed by 26 plus points for our last match with SOH and ROBERT but now, our defeat was 8 points. Can say improvement by 18 though opponents are different then and now.

AND I thought about all this on the way home, I still do not understand enough by what it mean to PLAYLIKEYOURLIFEDEPENDSONIT. I have not truly found the true meaning behind those string of common words. I’ll train, I’ll be better, I’ll NOW aim; not for the 2^nd or 3^rd , but for the 1^st. To think back how I aced everyone in primary school, was exactly having the exact same thinking, I AM THE 1^ST AND WILL BE. NOW AND FOREVER. That serves as my motto; and it does, starting from today.

MAYBE next week’s internal training/match again, most probably against ENGHOK and CHEEWEH will be a better one. Not MAYBE, but DEFINITELY. Confidence will boost one’s morale and strength, but never over-confidence. It will be match I look forward to, a match that I will work my ass of to be a better WMMT3DX+ driver of FHD.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ END ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

. M@f7A .

With BIRD._.

NEA Court Case END. Heng for them-.-. FHD BROTHERS! (LOLs. I look pregnant-.-)

WHAT IS HEIDI? Must It be JIEBAI den truely proves Brothership?

2010-04-11T09:51:00.000-07:00

Among the whole TEAM, we are one group of brothers.
Among these group of brothers, there is this ONE and ONLY clan of sworn brothers.
And Among these Sworned Brothers, are the 3 i treat as my very own brothers, not afraid to go thru thick and thin with them, not bothered abt money nor other stuffs like game credits.

However today, Is yet another test of brothership i find.
I myself failing at it.
I YEARN so much to be one of the swored brothers, cuz I can see. that 3 of them are really the kind of brothers I might have longed to have for life.
Though I'm still not one of them and probably not yet to be, I dont have the need to have a ceremony over this just to really prove to oneself and others tht we are all swored bothers.
"It's Not By Word That One Says, But By One's Actions That One Proves"

& amongst these three brothers,
S is whom I respect the most, due to be it seniority, Leadership, And team advisor. He is one with brains and never fails to consider all aspects of things before taking action. He is one who "led" us well til today, One who will never ever fail to let me look up to as an OLDER brother of brains.

K is one whom we exchanged out thoughts and views on almost every life issue. Helping one another as we can, in Friendship, Relationship, Family, Brothers, etc. yet K is also somehow the understanding individual who possess the same mindset as me, and always showing care somehow. He is a talking buddy who makes me realise alot of things during my very own life journey, one whom i will always consult in when i need advice. Taking care of me always.

W wont ever have any of our close brothers be hurt or taken advantage of. That is something worth mentioning abt him, our funny yet standing up for righteousness brother. With him around, we feel protected.

but today..
Their personality did change, yet mine changed the MOST.
S and I have thoughts abt K's gf but we sort it all out, not intending to tell K about it; and chose to put all trust on her instead.
I have my own personal thoughts which was shared with K, including those of S; this somehow became a stressful issue for K himself.
On the other hand, just a simple DONUT; can actually bring us all down.
Just a donut i mistook from the fridge; indirectly got the whole family to be mad at K.
Just for THAT donut; K's gf got banned from staying over anymore.
Just 1 $1++ of more donut got K to be damn fruastrated and all angry.
Partly because of this, partly cuz of his gf side of story.

In the end,
He got stressed abt it, angry with me because of one donut; but i cant blame him.
It was my fault afterall.
BUT it really sucks to see one's own brother got so fucked up with evrything.
making myself just as fucked up and indirectly,
S got scolded by me.
A got scolded by me.
Rest of the brothers just got another black face cuz of my own temper.

I never meant to scold S for not returning my fone.
I know that if this happened when i'm not stressed out, I wouldnt have shouted at S.
Moreover, I would NEVER shout at A for it has nothing to do with her.

End to end, i walked off, self-reflecting. Walked off even when i clearly heard W shouting for me.
What the fuck am i doing.
What the fuck is wrong. with me. with everything.
Just a DONUT. and aside for K's gf.
Everything just seemed so screwed.
If anyone was in my shoes,
I could bet my life all of them will wish to turn back time.
Though this might not be anything big to them,
but to me...
THIS MEANS ALOT.
THIS MEANS. The bond for my brothership's not sturdy.
THIS MEANS. Any other minor issues or mistakes can cause us to drift apart again.

SORRY.
& This sorries applies to.
K. for the donut. for the scolding u received just because of it. for HER being banned.
S. for having to endure my shoutings on the fone, for the bad temperedness.
A. for everything u were not involved, but i scolded u too.
W. for walking away
rest of my brothers. for us not being bonded strong together.

Just one wish.
A wish that these 7 brothers, wll never have to fall apart.
A wish that seems so impossible to come real.
A wish that for once will never change.

2010-04-05T10:28:00.000-07:00

Okay, Right now. I feel that if i'm unable to complete this post before 1.45am.

I will regret it. Cuz procrastination seems to be ruling my life over and over again.

Saying to myself and making promises to post almost everyday..

In the end, end up facebooking, replying comments, msning and no time for my own personal thoughts and BLOGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! ):

Macham like eat shit sleep life I'm having all these while. nothing much tht's new..

Hmm Except maybe my HAIR? :D:D:D

This is the GOD-DAMN colour i've been procrastinating cum hesistating cum delaying to do up cuz either pushing the blame on having no time, no money or no guts._. LOLs.

but end up colour's still fine to me. Pretty much like it the way it is now(:

Done REBORNDING @ $30 for whole head.

Done BLEACHING @ $80 for whole head.

But still not the exact colour i requested for as salon had insufficient time to do up (;

Plus ps. I only paid half._. still got hald a payment left for installment finish. LOLs

Yea. Maybe aside from the STRIKING hair colour. Pretty much nothing abt life.

Maxtune Match against MHR. .FHD. lost by 6 points.

But experience is what we all gained from it though.

Taking it as i'm a newbie in the team and my 1st time playing for a match.

The type of feeling having butterflies in ur stomach never goes away.

So MHR match all the way from C1 to Fukuoka Expressway Drawed!

Couldnt have imagined it.

Played for NAGOYA SPEEDRING and FUKUOKA EXPRESSWAY.

Double draw (Y) Quite satisfied already but if we had really trained for the match (which we dint._.), MAYBE results might be way different.

So yea. Conclusion of losing hakone in and out total of 6 points.

.FHD. did put in effort. I can see(:

MHD match was another lost too, though i wasnt down for the match to play.

Much stronger team of slamming? yea.

Bark up and we will WIN them one day(: 100% sure of it.

Lastly, today was a damn great day i had.

SERIOUS!

Missing out on alot of the crappiness of my SEM 1 Clique.

Totally LOVE them to the max.

and btw. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELIZABETH!!!! :D

Butty of the year goes to her (:

Pictures uploading soon? Perhaps bah. (: CHAO~!

p.s. Managed to get this done withing 10 mins. WOW! :D

WHO WANNA HAVE A LUNCH/DINNER DATE WITH ME FOR FRESH & CHEAP FISH&CHIPS(:

sms me xD

*I really dunno what's what now.

I just dont wan u having to be so stressful about having to think who u need to choose or when people were to prompt u, who will u really choose in the end.

Maybe tht's really somehting called LOVING the WRONG PERSON. just maybe

Hi, I love Ba Chor Mee

2010-03-24T13:24:00.000-07:00

Cloud is so lazy to blog.

So he gave me he got me (Lol) to come in here to entertain you guys a little.

Actually, I am Ailin. Lol. Who am I? Hmmm long story but I shall cut it short. I am a friend of Cloud :) Lmao, I got to know him at causeway point arcade? ._. Through Maximum Tune (-__-)

Hmm. I love ba chor mee :) Cloud loves it a lot as well. It's really damn nice you know? I can like eat it everyday and never get sick of it. Omg, I just can't describe how much I love those meatballs (Although Ikea sells better ones which I heard from many people) and the kuaytiao/guotiao (or however you spell it). Omg. Ba chor mee for life.

What else? Lately, Cloud's been playing quite a lot of Maximum Tune as well. (I think) He clocked a timing of 3'29"___ for Fukuoka Expressway. Damn it lor, you're like 0'0"500+ faster than me. Sian. It's okay, I'll work hard.

I don't know what else to entertain you guys already. But if you're too bored, you can read my blog as well. Ciaossss~~

2010-03-20T10:33:00.000-07:00

I WANNA BLOGGGGGG REAL SOON ):

JUST.
LACKING.

TIME.

TO.

DO.

SO.

But u noe me. Full of excuses:D

Anyways! Happy Birthday to SHIRLEY LIM & GWENDOLYN SEAH! :D

p.s I got sth to say! I WILL FOREVER LOVE MY HEIDIs! FHD FTW!

R E V I V E D.

2010-03-01T22:11:00.000-08:00

Okay. So http://clouded-memories-of-nobody.blogspot.com/ has been pronounced DEAD ever since the blog post on 23rd Jan & an apology to the readers of this blog for not posting UNTIL now:D

So W A R N I N G!!

This post is going to be rather long, thus i hope readers can bare with me, it will take HOURS to read and get it done with the whole damn post. xD (Dont Say I Dint Warn You(: )

Or the other alternative which i detest the most._. ----> See that little red box up on the right hand corner? Click on it if u feel u cant tolerate this long post.

p.s I WONT BLAME YOU (:

Within this short 2 month or so.

Let's see..

1. CNY + Valentine's Day ...

-->Did I spend it alone? Or with someone else? *wink. I forgot:D

2. NEW FRIENDS became OLD FRIENDS.

--> Got to know Lady Gaga aka AILIN:D from WMMT3DX, and thru her; Kelly and Andric. Imagine some one who treats u like their bf for a day, and a total 360 change on the other day.

What happened. What caused it. Why the change. ONLY MUCH LATER THEN I FOUND OUT.

3. OLD FRIEND(/s) became NORMAL FRIEND.

--> Half Moon felt neglected tht LGG kept going out with me ever since tht day i confirmed my suspicion. so no choice. LGG chose to keep the 12 yr friendship. Dint blame her. But sad losing a friend whom I find alright going out with.

4. 17th Feb 2010. T H E D A Y

Something tht happened on cny itself. Not going elaborate. But it's something stupid I've done tht almost land me in some mess. Thank GOD, everything's fine now.

5. 2 year Brothership is nothing.

Who would have imagined tht behind ever smiling face, there will always be a knife at hand. Who would have guessed tht behind every word of "YOU are truely my brother..", there would be a word of "GF-S". That made me realise someone whom i really treat as a big brother, actually treats me like some fool.

6. I have the common face._.

[LGG told me i look like her ex-bf, C told me i look like his ex gf.) -.-

7. New HEIDI aka brothers. (: & Stepping into FLY HIGH DRIVING (.FHD.)

Maybe from the churn of events, I lost something dear to me, I gained something esle which I never thought I would. A blessing in disguise?

|====|.FHD.|====| |====|.FHD.|====|

-KAISHEN | KAIXU (Leader)

-SOH | SOH(Advisor) -ENGHOK | EH&KS

-KELVIN |LING* -PEIHAO | SIAO*

-WEIKANG | ARTZ (Vice-Leader) -AARON | AAR*N

-CLOUD |CL<>UD -XUEWEN | story (Founder)

-DAVIN | GUEST -ROGER | JING*

-ANDREW | JUNE* -DASH | DASH!

-CHERVIN | MrLuv -MAGDELINE | mjo7(Girl'sTeam)

|====|AMK|====| |====|CWP|====|

8. XMM's step into the test of NEW brothership.

This gal (not mentioning who ) did really test out how our

2010-01-23T04:42:00.000-08:00

Some things are just not meant to be~
I shouldn't have fallen for u, in the 1st place.
I shouldn't, I couldn't, and thus, i won't.
Just give it up bah.
Cuz i've already done so...

如果有一我要把它丢掉,

你要有心理准备.

2010-01-18T17:27:00.000-08:00

HER.
Soul Mate.
Brothers.
Friends.
Family.

5 categories of people in life any single person on earth would do their best not to disappoint them.
4 categories of people you would not take them for granted except [FAMILY]
3 categories of people anyone would go all lengths just to offer a hand of help if they needed any except [FRIENDS & FAMILY]
2 categories of people that one will take his/her heart out to and pour endless sorrows to the other party and the listener will be willing to share that listening ear.
1 and ONLY category of people that HE will always put himself last and sarcifice any and everything for the HER of HIS life, yet letting her have no knowledge of it.

I had already anticipated.
Tht reaching home late would cast a nagging session on me from you.

I told you, i wouldn't want to return home late so that you could sleep early.
& for that I mean it.
In your heart, in your mind, you might think my words are just words coming from a fairytale storybook; words that ain't real; words that you think I just sprout out of my mouth without it processing thru my brain; words that I casually mentioned?

In short, my words to you dont mean anything.

I told you, i will come home early, but yesterday I failed to do so.
I made it a point tht yesterday would be a stay home day after sch but tings obviously cropped up last min.
I aint those kind who hangs out to have fun all night and not think about my very own family at home waiting patiently for me. I'm NOT.
I'm HUMAN, I'm part of this family and that makes me all the more have FEELINGS and EMOTIONS for my own people.

But do you; do you have to always shoot me down?
I kept quiet all the while for this once and only.
Not because I was all at fault, but because explaining more to you will just make matters worst.
Explaining more to you, you wouldnt take my words into serious considerations.
Explaining more to you, will just make u think I'm still unaware of my "mistake".
Explaining more to you, and you will just love thinking I'm doing this to rebel against you, to rebut you.
Explaining more to you, will never make u think I've my own difficulties in life.
Explaining more to you, YOU WILL NEVER TAKE THAT EFFORT TO LISTEN.
so why can any kind soul tell me, should I take tht breath to start the gruelling conversation, when I clearly know how it's gonna turn out and how it's gonna end?

Even when I'm right, you will shut me up and make me wrong.
cuz the freedom of speech in this world; dont exist in yours.

For that whole night, i uttered no word at all.
You did all the talking, all the nagging, all the scolding.
and when I thought it was over,
early in the morning, you started ur condemnation.

the 1st thing i heard when i awoke.
1."Dont wan go school, den for what waste time and money? might as well go NS! Forever so horrible."
2."Everyday come home so late, 12am ask u come back very difficult? Dont like this house, this family den dont live here luh"
3."No wonder everytime say no money, always come home so late take taxi and pay for their midnight charges, dont ever come and ask me for money anymre."
4."You this age, mix with these type of friends, friends that can go dead drunk, you see yourself what kind of company you're mixing with!"
5."
..
..
..
..
..
it caused a slight crack in my heart, but maybe u werent able to see? cause you are blinded by your own words and thus, everything just seem ever invisible to you. Yet, silence was my reply to you.

If i had the chance to speak out for my own,
I choose to do it so here. Not in your presence that i'll defend myself.

1st reply: I promised myself I'll not pon school just cause of tiredness and being unable to wake up for class. Thus, I rather be late for class today than not go sch.
But do you know about this resolution of mine? Do you? I doubt you do...
2nd reply: I dint come back home early. yes it was my fault, but does that mean I hate coming back and living in this household? Least I did was make a point to come home early, but then again, I doubt you even trust me on this..
3rd reply: I've been always running low on money, not because I spent it all on cab fares. I'm no prince full of endless flow of money. I know how important money is to me. Would you think I will bare to spent all of it just on cabs? Have u ever thought about it? Or maybe, right from the start, you dint even try thinking nor understanding me at all.
4th reply: Have you truely seen who they are? Just because i often return home late? Does that make them bad kids and company whom i mix outside with? They are those!!! WHOM when I'm at my lowest moments, they are forever there for me. Are you? or WERE you ever there when i was sad.
..
If you could look back at every single phase tht you said upon me.
YOU of all people, jumped to conclusions.
But could i ever stop u from doing so?
I cant. and I wont. even. try.

I. Had. Enough

2010-01-17T09:43:00.001-08:00

"HE was wounded for our trangressions, crushed by out iniquities; By his wounds, we are HEALED."

Isaiah 53

2010-01-15T22:53:00.000-08:00

GOSH!

felt that i NEEDED so much to start blogging again.

Why?

Cuz LIFE is just too interesting and now! IDK where to start. LOL.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

2010!

Perhaps some new year resolutions to start off?

~ Driving License soon! (i'm turning 18 yo!!) :D

~ Motorcycle License (cheaper, "cooler"?)

~ 1st self bought motorbike! ( RED-cum-BLACK-cum-WHITE)(thick-wheelers! xD)

[able to just drive HER around and walking long stretch of road will be NEEDLESS!](:

~ Stable job to have my monkey tail to cling on to. = MORE CA$H = Bye to financial worries!

~ PERFECT attendance for school!

[Have been PONNING sch like nobody's business and i have only one thing to say]["I HATE MYSELF FOR THIS SHIT!"].... x and x and x and x and x and x and x and x. FCUK those Xs! ):

~ GPA = 3.2 and above. [Dont ask for much): ]

UT3 coming right up very sooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. = Requiring FULL-LENGTHS of DISCIPLINE! please help meeee!

~ Brothers Forever :x

Above All

~ Confidence, Trust, Self Esteem, Loyalty in a little something called.

LOVE & RELATIONSHIP.

The EVER PERFECT Hairstyle = DREAMY.

=

Went to cut SHORT hair at IKmage.

25 bucks yet i wasnt satisfied..

Oh wells. 2010 new year hairstyle. (Y)

BUT.

Lest there was some nicely taken pics by raynz! (:

Thank her photography skills, but not her. ^^

KUDOS~

2010-01-02T08:25:00.000-08:00

ALRIGHTOOOO!!! Considering it's 2010, Cloud.L is gonna make his 1st post for the NEW YEAR!!(;

...

1st new year "GIFT" ~~~ GOODBYE to LONGGG hair. D:

Went IKmage for haircut. Oh wells.

Hope dying hair can cover for the short hair. 0.0

Went out with Hong,Cass and SH.

Caught Sherlock Holmes (:(:(: not a really bad movie aft all.

Alvin and chipmunks was bad for the ending. Zzzz.

Apparently, commotions keep happening btwn cass and hong. LOL.

Both full time jokers. Hahahs!

had dinner and den arcade home.

Celebrated NEW YEAR countdown at CHURCH.

had work in the morning til night den rush for countdown.

Several meaningful self-recollections told uh. Fruit for thought(:

RECEIVED LOADS of presents for Christmas!

THANKS peeps(;

Went to some pub to celebrate with colleugues.

Had damn much fun.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

SIANNESS!!

School's gonna start soon and UT unprepared.

DIE.

Evrything just dont seem to work out for me alright.

2009-12-17T20:47:00.000-08:00

...
Blog just seem ever so dead. ._.
Dint have time to post! SO here I am now posting for those who reads(:
Nice little poem a friend send me! SUPER CREATIVE! Love it.
Kinda meaningful too uh!

Had this near Kartip MRT station de coffeeshop!
.. HAVEN BEEN FEEDING MY STOMACH WITH GOOD FOOD!
& it was YUMMY ttm!
~~
Succulent freshest of the freshest Stingray toppled sweet yet tingy sambal sauce,
coupled with soft chewy black pepper sotong to complete the main course;
Not to forget the sunny side up and it's juicy egg white blending with plain good old RICE!
~~
LOL. Priced at $6.50
Already kinda reasonable pricing! (Y)(Y)(Y).
I''m so gonna eat there sooooonn!!

Went out with Misa just the other day. (I forgot when) ><
LOL. Met her for dinner at Douby Manhatten Fishmarket.
Ordered the cheapest.! Since it's their signature dish anw.
Walked around and around.
and.
FINALLY.
Decided on MOVIE!
*Shit. Got problem rmbring. >_<
oh yea.

A Perfect Getaway.

Seriously, dont go and watch it. Waste of money.
my 1st time rating bad to any movie i watch so far.
Storyline just sucks ttm. 0.0

Went to celebrate aunt's bday last sat!
JUMBO seafood.
Reminds me of chris birthday. Came here to eat too.
4 bday cakes for her. ._. wth.
LOL.
Oh yea. gonna be broke. Next tues they going weiyanna + ice skating + movie.
=
BANKRUPT!. LOL.
One buffet from weiyanna alread 50 plus-.-'''
Dunno what high class food they serving man.
Hotels also 20 plus nia. LUNCHTIME!
LOL.

~ Who wants to GO WAKEBOARDING?
It's near east coast. LOL.
Far luh. One end of te world to another.
LOL.
But fun seeing all those english peeps trying to falling.
LOL. I'm super sadistic now. LOL.

PRESENTING X-mini speakers!
Got them from IT fair!(:
Was waiting for chermaine so boliao take pic loh.

Went out with her sometime agao.

OK. I admit the elmo and cookie monster's cute.

._.

Cant believe i just said that. Hahahs!

Went out with her twice? At douby.

Cant really rmbr what we did dere.
Think watch movie bah!

~Memory just so short! f***ing STM.

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UPDATES!

Change of JOB.

No longer part of P&R.

Now doing for HairCare Professionals.

This whole week from 15/12/09(tues) -20/12/09(sunday)

Promoter for BEIJING 101 @ Suntec Bookfest! Hall 402 (Y)

come support! LOLs.

Next week at WOODLANDS MRT.

Following week @ Tiong Bahru Plaza!

Work was fun.

Except tht i was the sole guy dere.

Damn aaron place me dere just to acc him for awhile den he zao.

Met some crazy friends dere.

Liz, Michelle, Michelle Lee (mama), Wendy, FENGYU(Wind-rain)[LOL], Elizabeth, WenQi, Andeline.

& so many more whom idk their names. LOL.

Auntie at Cocoa Trees Booth so friendly til she gave me some AWESOME vegetarian western burger!

1st time eating such delicious vegetarian food. (Y)

Took off today cuz too tired. to be continued tml. hahahahs!

Went drinking with Brendan on Tuesday.

Coincidentally saw him working at same hall but for Maybank.

Carrying some huge bag and walk around. LOL.

Liz (new friend cum retail outlet manager) went with us drinking too.

SO Onnnnn de luh.

Pity Michelle couldnt come with us.

Drank til 11 plus den me and liz went off.

STIL GOT WORK NEXT DAY!~~

Drank til face so red. 0.0

But i succeeded not PUKING (Y).

2009-11-16T08:00:00.000-08:00

1st up. DOGGY & Me@Home! (:

Amy & Me@WORK! xD

3rd! SLEEPY gal & Me! (;

KUKU face right?

COOL~ I dint noe how to do this..

5th! Celeste & Me (SIT DRESS-UP)

6th BELOVED RAIN JIE & Me!(: (; (:

JIE(s) + JIEying(s) + AhYING(s) :P

Ms JOKER's WIFE!

TONs of clique photos!!

IN AMY's HOUSE! CHALET PREP!

ZARA mirror! SUPERB!(Y)

Mr. MIDNIGHT imposter! LOLOLs.

UT FINALLY OVER! Shiiittttyyy one );

Communications UT today was easy. Miracly, i dint fall asleep uh.

For the past UTs, almost everyone i slept half way through?

Hmm.

Recent Updates!

Went to GOLDEN LANDMARK! Bought New GUARDIANS pack @ $13.

Watched 2012 w/ magic clique.

1st few time i dint sleep during the movie itself so it means it's worth watching!

DINNERED @ airport w/ amanda!

Queued for POPeyes chicken for like half an hour?

Super packed crowd dere.

Just a simple dinner and bused home(:

*JIE was sick? MUST TAKE CARE moreeee!

TODAY!!

2nd break was interesting?

Something different. LOLs. Met new people, gained new friends?

Went movie with just 3 ppl? Khai, PehYi & Jo.

Alot of people not free?

PehYi wanted watch 2012. but too bad! I watched already. so went to watch another show.

Met Shirley and xp at cwp to help her buy tix. LOLs.

paranormal activity~~

Underage uh! (; tsktsk!

Saw Amanda dere also w/ her clique.

So coincidence ouh. think they watched 2012.

Trained down to northpoint to watch POKER KING(Y)

1st cant find cinema. Like some tourist 1st time coming to Sing for tour. LOLs.

Walked round and round northpoint. 0.0

Bought tix and went eat dinner.

LOL. the fun part comes!

Playing and playing til Peiyi shoved my hand.

& EPIC EVENT of the YEAR!

My half-eaten burger flew right down onto her laptop!

Sauce all over and bread was all over her lappy!

(Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)

NICE ONE. Still laughing away uh.

& no one cared about cleaning the laptop yet. inc the OWNER! Hahahs!

She still chose to take pic 1st b4 cleaning up!?! LOLOOLOLs!

Attained quite alot of injuries today uh.

Scratched, skin peel, torn scar! o.o

Yea. I noe it sounds damn sick. THANKS to someone! w/ freaking long fingernails!

FF uh she! FINGERNAIL FREAKO! (;

Kena jacked when we wanted to sneak the outside drinks into the cinema.

& SHOW'S ON!

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DREAMING OF KOOZR *wink!

Khai feel asleep and just to unlucky to have his photo taken. 0.0

blame the photographers! the two gals.~

Yea. end.

UT2 coming right up SOON!

3 weeks time. Needa bark up real soon!

I need discipline!! seriously!

& some last min photoshoot interview tml at douby gaut.

Amanda told me it's a scam. Hmm.

Gonna check it out!

JIE IS LOVED! :D

Gonna treat her waffle on thurs! (:

2009-11-13T20:29:00.000-08:00

TRUST

TRUST is a very important factor for all relationship.
When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationships.
Lack of trust leads to suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity may result in separation.
A telephone operator once told that one day she received a phone call.
She answered, 'Public Utilities Board.'
There was silence. She repeated, 'PUB.'
There was still no answer.
When she was going to cut off the line, she heard a lady's voice, 'Oh, so this is PUB. Sorry, i got the number from my husband's pocket but i do not know whose number it is.
Without mutual trust, just imagine what will happen to the couple if the telephone operator answered with just 'hello' instead of 'PUB'.

~Trust. Somethings which people have different perceptions of.
Somethings which people abuse. Somethings which causes us hurt time and again.

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NO POINTING FINGERS

A man asked his father-in-law, 'Many people praised you for a successful marriage. Could you please share with me your secret?'
The father-in-law answered in a smile, 'Never criticise your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weakness, she could not find a better husband than you.'
We all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at.
This is the start of war.
We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves.If we forgive others, others will ignore our mistake too.

~ Does it really work out this way? "If we forgive others, others will ignore our mistakes too." isnt it alittle scary if you going to think of incidences like this happening and come to find that, actually it's just isnt all that true.

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CREATING PERFECT RELATIONSHIP?

A person visited the government matchmaker for marriage, SDU, and requested 'i am looking for a spouse. Please help me to find a suitable one.'
The SDU officer said, 'Your requirements, please.
''Oh, good looking, polite, humorous, sporty, knowledgeable, good in singing and dancing. Willing to accompany me the whole day at home during my leisure hour, if i don't go out. Telling me interesting stories when i need companion for conversation and be silent when i want to rest.'
The officer listend carefully and replied, 'I understand you need television.'
There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband, because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife.
Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfect relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off, they wake up and discover that marriage is not a bed of roses.

~Some may claim it's not true. Some totally agree. But all in all, we have gone through it, or we might experience it some time later, or rather maybe even now.. We are in the midst of it, yet unknowingly going through it. & when the time comes and the sweetness gone, will your partner still be as sweet & caring towards you?

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NO OVERPOWERING

Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another, or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouse will change the bad habits after marriage.
Actually, this is not the case.
There is a chinese saying which carries the meaning that
'It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character.'
It is not easy to change.
Thus, having high expectation on chaning the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness.
It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations..

~ At times, we find ourselves expecting way too much from a person we like. But have we ever wonder? That what we expect maybe not be what we want out of our life partners, why EXPECT? When expectations not met will cause one to be disappointed, to have our minds in chaos on whether he/she is the right person in life you will want to spend your time with.
Cant LOVE be just simple and sweet?

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RIGHT SPEECH

There is Chinese saying which carries the meaning that 'A speech will either prosper or ruin a nation.'
Many relationships break off because of wrong speech.
When a couple is too close with each other, we always forget mutual respect and courtesy.
We may say anything without considering if it would hurt the other party.
A friend and her millionaire husband visited their construction site.
A worker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted, 'Hi, Emily! Remember me? We used to date in the secondary school.'
On the way home, her millionaire husband teased her, 'Luckily you married me. Otherwise you will be the wife of a construction worker.'
She answered, 'You should appreciate that you married me. Otherwise, he will be the millionaire and not you.'
Frequenty exchanging these remarks plants the seeds for a bad relationship.

~Does human nature causes us to be the way we are? FORGETTING mutual respect and courtesy? Saying things w/o considering. Keeping secrets from our loved ones but tell someone else? Ending up having conflicts and suspicion arising?
Wont we find that it is slowly tire us out one day..

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PERSONAL PERCEPTION

Different people have different perception.
One man's meat could be another man's posion.
A couple bought a donkey from the market.
On the way home, a boy commented, 'Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey?'
Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey.
He walked besides them.
Later and old man saw it and commented, the husband is the head of family.
How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?
Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey.
Further on the way home, they met an old lady.
She commented, 'How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentlemen.'
The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey.
Then they met a young man.
He commented, 'Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you.'
Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders.
It seems to be the only choice left.
You can never have everyone praise on you, nor will everyone condemn you.
Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future.
Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our consience is clear..

~ If one is going to please everyone in the world of his, then when.. when will have the time to please himself? & having to change to meet everyone's little expectations, wouldn't that make you somehow like a "Hyprocite"?
so a little thought about this. Everyone wants to to change in a way or another yet everyone hates hyprocrites. So what in the world does everyone truely wants?

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BE PATIENT

This is a true story which happened in the States.
A man came out of his home to admire his new truck.
To his puzzlement, his three year old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck.
The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hand into pulp as punishment.
When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital.
Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands.
When the boy woke up from the surgery and saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, 'Daddy, i'm sorry about your truck.'
Then he asked, 'but when are my fingers going to grow back?'
The father went home and committed suicide.
Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge.
Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love.
Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones and hurt feeling often can't.
Too often we fail to recognise the difference between the person and the performance.
We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge.
People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes.
But the actions we take while in rage will haunt us forever.
Pause and ponder. Think before you act. Be patient.
Forgive and forget. Love one and all.
If you judge people, you have no time to love them.

~ How many of us actually felt guilty on the inside, causing reading this article reminds each of us that we have done something similar before.
Somethings which causes us or someone else so much hurt that never be repaired, repaid and changed for the better in a lifetime.
How many of us still continued doing and yet failed to realise that if you put urself in his/her shoes, you wouldnt want to be treated this way...

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Credits to LeongYee! Really found this meaningful..

Let's Just Be Friends QUOTO.

2009-11-09T08:14:00.000-08:00

Rule of thumb, if your target is still cold after several hours of interaction (total interacted hours), investment is only one sided and you are the only one that is making the effort to keep it advancing.

Move on and let her know she is not your only date.

If she is not investing and putting any energy in to you, get the hint and move on. Let go when you're not appreciated. If this situation does occur, try to figure out why. How did she perceive you?. What turned her off?. Learn from mistakes.

The only motivation and reason for not moving on is that there are no more women left on the island and your social circle is really limited.
(Adam had to put up with Eve because she is the only female around).

If the girl blocks the advancement of the relationship with negativity and tells you let’s just be friends, tell her that you already have lots of friends and BYE.

Seriously, how long do you want to hang around a girl who is not that interested in you?

The relationship will never get to where you want to go if you have been labeled into the LJBF zone.

And even if by some miracle the relationship did advance, she would be dictating the where, when and how much. If she wants to cut you off at any time, she can and you have to accept it because that is the implied agreement from the start. You gave her the baton; she is in complete control and will never be satisfied with you.

Picture a DOG leash on your neck.

How can we save ourselves from falling into the ‘Let’s Just Be Friends’ zone?

Cut off from her for a time period and start from scratch. Learn from your previous mistake and come back anew.

Easier said than done.

You are not the first as we have been there, done that.

Remember, a stranger is more intimately attractive than a close friend.

Got this from Eric.z credits to him.

2009-11-08T05:13:00.000-08:00

" Cause a thousand tears wont bring u back to me"~

BLEACH POSTER.0.0.

Kind of being random here.
(Y) but it's nice (:

MR SIT 1st Runner-Up & JIEYING(:

1stly,
thanks to ALL that made the effort to be down last thursday just to give me ur SUPPORT and VOTES!
Srsly, I dint expect myself to get 2nd, much less the 1st or the 3rd too, but thanks to all those who voted.
Especially W47H!
Almost the whole class went down aft UT just to support me. SWEET! (:
and Shirley, thanks for coming down too though it was rush for u and xp. xiexie(:
And those who came down and i saw them like..
Bryan, Aarun, Waihoe and others who were there!
THANKS ALOT!
To W15Q for those who went down. THANKS TOO!
& those people whom i dunno but voted for me. (; MANY THANKS!
Contestants were like all taller than me ._.
I thought i was little chances of winning toobut judges were also glad tht i dressed up? Hmm.
Last ten final candiates and i got 2nd.
What were the chances? ^^ who would have thought of it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRIS!!

W15Q clique outing for bday gal, CHRISTINA SIM.

Guess she's had the best bday ever?

Celebrating her bday like 3 times with total of 4 cakes?

1st at P&R. Leong Kat Qing & Me bought her small Breadtalk pandan cake.

2nd and 3rd bday cake was celebrated at east coast JUMBO seefood?

4th celebration was held @ Seoul Garden at CWP.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRIStina!

~ one yr older le uh! Be mre mature and not SPCA here and dere luh.You noe what i mean can le (;

SPECTACULAR? ~~~~~

~ Hehs.

the 4th & 5th "experiment" huh(:

But thanks alot! I realy love it. It's appretising(:

I"M LOVING IT(:

2009-11-02T09:06:00.000-08:00

A few hours left to UT1 Cog..
yet here I'm blogging, facebooking, stonning.
Last min work and revision's gonna blow my brain?
CLOUD! MUST JIAYOUs!.
& to all out dere who are in the same boat as me now.

STUDY

STUDY.

For the last few hours b4 UT1.

Though ppl say last min work dont count.
Just for a day, I want to believe in it.. (Y)

2009-10-31T02:44:00.000-07:00

0.0. CAMMING with AMY
received this from webmail.
Dint expect myself to get in.
though the 3 of us just went for the fun of it
Since class chose us, why not just try out. FREE DAs up for grabs also uh(;
Just tht glenn dint get it. how disappointing. Only left me and AMY.
Peiyi and Dap PS us luh.... );

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Congratulation!

You have been selected as candidates for Mr & Miss SIT!

First of all there will be a photo shoot on the 2nd of November, Monday, and the 3rd of November, Tuesday.

You can choose either Monday or Tuesday for the photo shoot.

Just report 5pm after school outside CYPHER ROOM (W1 level 2).

We will brief you on the programmes on either days on what you guys going to do on the 5th November 2009.

Please reply to the email whether you will be free on Monday or Tuesday.

Thanks!

Regards,

Abram Quek

Professional and Personal Development

OfficerCypher Club Main Committee (AY09/10)

Diploma in information technology(DIT)

School of Information TechnologyRepublic Polytechic

Email: 9****@myrp.edu.sg

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now, what am i going to wear for the photoshoot?
Gosh. Just so manyyyy thinggggsss in my mindddddd...
Chalet BBQ, Liquor, Ut revision, Magic performance this sat.
._.
just so hetic and now another event added on to this busy hetic schedule.
But den... still fun luh.
with so manyyy things to do,
At least one will never get bored(:

OFFICIALLY MISSING YOU.

2009-10-29T10:32:00.000-07:00

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All I hear is raindrops

Falling on the rooftop

Oh baby tell me why'd you have to go

Cause this pain I feel

It wont go away

And today I'm officially missing you

I thought that from this heartache

I could escape

But I fronted long enough to know

There ain't no way

And today I'm officially missing you

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Oh can't nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do

Hey baby say it stays on my mind

And I, I'm officially...

All I do is lay around

Two ears full of tears

From looking at your face on the wall

Just a week ago you're my baby

Now I don't even know you at all

I don't know you at all

Well I wish that you would call me right now

So that I could get through to you somehow

But I guess it's safe to say baby..

it's safe to say

That I'm officially missing you

Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind

And I

I'm officially..

Well I thought I could just get over you baby

But I see that's something I just can't do

From the way you would hold me

To the sweet things you told me

I just can't find a way

To let go of you

Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
oh it stays on my mind

And I..

I'm officially..

Officially missing you

Yeah yes

All I hear is raindrops oh yeah

And I'm officially missing youuu...

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~gameover.
It ends. was it. GENUINE.?

2009-10-28T09:40:00.000-07:00

(: Having all As and Bs until now.
SERIOUSLY not trying to show off, but glad with my own performance?
Posted almost like same thing as E.Z? Somehow had the thought of snipping this down and post on blog.
(: personal achievement! just tht 0.5 dint leave a very nice spot on pb2.
EVERYBODY JIAYOUS! Kinda feel i will get C for today's lesson. since i was late for 1st meeting.0.0
and another X for communication absent.

Hmm. Went to ZOO just that sunday.
Had fun? but was the only guy dere? Me w/ 3 other girls. 0.0
PeiYi, Bday gal JO, and dap.
KHAI and GLENN PS! 0.0
went to XINWANG for dinner (;

ZOO PICS(:

ME V.S 3 small feet = 1 elephant foot.

Dap, Jo & Pei Yi.

US TRIPLETS (;

SMALL EYES II

GOAT PEE-ing? 0.0

BEFORE.. & AFTER..

Scrumplous? HUNGRY!

DINNER PICS(;

~ Ended. i will miss those food. IWMY too. 030909. );

2009-10-23T08:30:00.000-07:00

Am I.. obliged to..

Do just what is RIGHT..

Or Do just to what I WANT?

What is my aim... NOW..

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2009-10-12T04:09:00.000-07:00

I JUST HATE IT NOW.

Sorry, but i'm just not in a good mood.

Nothing's going well. as it seems~~~

2009-10-11T09:34:00.000-07:00

1st CLASS pic(; W47H.

Intrusion of Privacy.. LOL.

Shock of my life, finding this pic as my wallpaper.
Apparently, classmates were bored? and used my comp's camera.
Take pic of themselves and post of my wallpaper. uh?
just HIRALIOUS!
Credits to Dap, Niki, Ami. (:
*whole class giving me those 眼神 when back from 2nd break.
Totally freaked out for tht moment. xP

W15Q - Picketandrail(:

Louis's wallpaper! was her bday tht day.
Yet she lost her phone in the toilet.
Fortunate tht leong and kat found out instead of someone else.
If not, BYEBYE to Louis fone, esp on her bday.
Put an act to scare her! and used this pic as her wallpaper(;
Went dinner at ICHIBAN SUSHI!
Another lucky thing, they shortcounted us by alot!(;
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOUIS!!
dont be sad le(;

5 CONVOs and CAMming CHRIS

~ Believe in me.

2009-10-03T10:24:00.000-07:00

Working non-stop. Body just feel so shag.
Eyes? Having some contact lense problem.
Apparently left eye doesnt like contacts very much 0.0

Somehow i tot left eye de contacts dropped out.
Was already preparing to work like some one eye zombie.
Zombie turning cyclops? Right eye was like red as well.
Whole work my eyes were like some past stem eye.
Can only see like half? ._.
Mei specially bought one just for me.
thanks for the trouble.

Helped Ganpa with the pub thing.
Deco-ed with lights. Dint take a pic.
he wanted drink for the night.
Bobian, promised leong and kat for dinner.

Went mac eat. and went off to meet XW.
Was hoping SHE was dere. (;
Chat awhile and home sweet home.
Found out sth really stupid.
My left eye....
had both contact lense stuck tgt.
Acuvue and the one mei bought for me. 0.0
See how noob i am in contact lenses.

~1st month.
I dint forget... how to use the words
ILY & IMY.

2009-10-02T10:52:00.000-07:00

Cammed with butty just now.
Just so happens her offline msg came in.

1st day.
Wearing contact lense!
It was tht difficult tht i needed Mei to help me.
Ask her to help me but daily tryouts for contact lense.
3 per pair. ANYONE interested? (: ONE DAY ACUVUE DAILY DISPOSAL contact lenses.
Lucky she was dere to teach me how to put and remove.
realy appreciate her coming down all the way to my workplace just for the contact lense thing.
THANKS uh mei(:

2nd day @ new job.
Came in for work only.
P&R boss asked me to vacuum floor.
0.0 i wasnt even working for him today.
But just did it out of kindness.
Revamped the whole lounge and the new pub set came in.
Pity dint had a picture of it.);
Maybe tml! will take one adn post.

Customers was barely fullhouse yet we were almost hetic.
Srsly short of staffs.
Imagine just 2 person.
doing the job of a cook, a server and a revamp helper plus a cleanup guy.
._. Cooked, served customers, help to shift the furnitures, washed the whole floor.
Again reminding me of days in Fish&Co.
Where i washed the whole kitchen 3 times bigger than this.
Wasnt very moody today due to the crowd and how busy it was.
Still, had alot to be done. Logistics, Events, Equipments, Ambience, Layout, Food menu... etc all to be ironed out.
And we are expected to be tasked with all of it.
Feeling's just like setting up the whole business.
Never had such a feeling before?

Somewhere somehow, I got myself a GOD father?
HE asked me to be his GOD son 0.0
Shocking isnt it? ._. tht's what i felt.
Maybe a thought or two into it some other time.
Have too much on one's mind for the time being.

Xuewen smsed me today.
Somehow or rather.
Being paranoid or not, i'm having this good feeling?
Half of it seems good. the other half just seems so dillusionised.
For the past 2 days, i dint sms her at all.
But just everytime, she always on my mind.
Is this the way my minds telling me..
I MISS HER.

2009-10-01T10:19:00.000-07:00

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Double Haircut yesterday!
Leong and me went to terrence to have him trim.
1st time coming across a salon tht requires bookings.
& the night before i did last min bookings0.0.

1st day @ the new job.
Was quite easy and slackening.
Did stock check and get just simple orientation.
Not bad for the start.
Dinner was like alot?
CURRY stingray, Curry chicken, Blanchan mutton, Fried chicken wing, Taogei, Beancurd and small sausage.
Reminded me of... Homecook food....
Mind's just so blank.
Dinnered with Leong and Denis.

Feeling ever so moody. days w/o HER.

All i did. All i could do.

Was just ask CHINGYI.

If she was doing fine, mre cheerful?

Stopped crying already?

Ask her to help me find a tutor to teach her, lest she cant cope with the subs.

Ask her not to skip meals, so tht gastic wont come knocking on her door.

Ask her to sleep well, orelse falling sick will be unavoidable.

I could only watch by the sideline.

and do nothing..

How my hands are tempted to compose tht sms.

to type the keyboard.

How the mind's just cant stop thinking.

About her safety.

About her mood.

ALL ABOUT HER.

How the body just want to defy what the brain instructs to do.

How every thing isnt going th way i thought it would turn out to be.

2009-09-30T19:27:00.000-07:00

Drowning in the world of music.
The life i'm trying to hang on to / too.

2009-09-29T10:41:00.000-07:00

IDK what's with me today..
I'm somehow me. but the real me seems to be drifting away...
I just feel so shit.. just so shit..

Today went to meet GT.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GENGTAO!
went to Fish&Co to eat.
And she brought like so many friends?
Bill was abt 60 plus. 0.0 money fly again.
But i do owe her a bday present after all.
FOOD was great. Not regretting on the food expenditure.

Left to find HER.
Waited and waited.
Dere was this small gal who really cheered me up. Indirectly.
Watching her skate so freely..
Reminds us of who we all were when we were young.
No troubles, no worries, no sadness.
ALl we ever do is.
EAT.
PLAY.
SLEEP.
Akin to some pig. but tht's the life of us being young. Once.
2 hours dere and i saw CY. She cant do anything too..

Went off. BUGIS. ALONE.
Dint wanna call anyone. but just needed to chill.
Bought like 100 plus worth of clothes?
Wanted to find some specs from the other time.
SOLD out already. ._. total shit. Haiiz.
1 RED POLO TEE.
2 TEE SHIRTS.
1 CARDIGAN/HOODIE.
2 SHORTS.
=
$100bucks.

Lucked out today. so many things happening.
Just need a break from it somehow.

~SOMEHOW. I just cnt feel tht I'm myself now..
It's fearful to see how one isnt oneself.
How I'm not myself at all...
IDK how this is all affecting me.

2009-09-28T21:31:00.000-07:00

Tonned at Leong's hse last Wed.
This whether woke me up can?!?
Strong winds.. Hearing the howling of it, crashing on the window panes.
Somehow the winds resembled the ones i felt in Korea? 0.0
Pity it was raining so had to close those windows and cant even feel the breeze. );

Day before tonned at Chris house.
Me, Leong, Kat, Sq and chris herself.
End up watching HOUSE OF WAX throughout the nite.
All 5 of us crampping into one single size bed. ._.
About 4am cabbed to Boon Keng Mac and bryan was dere too.
Ate some heavy breakfast!! MEGA macspicy set w/ bryan's order of hotcakes!
LOL. all i eat! Muahaha!
Walked all the way back to potong pasir and obviously slept with tht full stomach of mine!
Apparently, tht chris just dont wanna sleep.
Non-stop disturbance from her luh. Shake me, tickle me, slap me, take away blanket, pillow. EVERYTHING!
hetic night tht was.... LOL.

~ Heh. idk when you are gonna read this.. but i'm posting it just after the call we had at noon.

Whatever difficulty u are facing now, you are not alone..

Whatever the outcome may be, you are not facing it oneself..

but with me by your side. I just want u to know THAT and only THAT.

I noe tht this "obstacle" is a big one tht you have to go through.

& it's just a matter of time when this obstacle approaches in yr life, and probably in mine.

Dont have to cry alright. Save those tears okay?

What you dont wan out of it, I dont wan it a thousand times worse.

What you want out of this whole issue, I want it even mre.

So much that the WANT will soon become a NEED.

I will be with you.. All the way. ILY.

~and you know.. You still owe me loads and loads of homemade food.

how can i let you go tht easily? (:

Dont ever tink of running away when u haven yet repaid yr debt uh ^^.

SMILES! (:

2009-09-28T10:12:00.000-07:00

SLEEPING/AWAKE?

For the 1st time.
My body clock wasnt in sync with me, even with fone alarm by my side.
0.0 Was supposed to meet Lillian for her job interview today. PEI her to go P&R.
In the end. 11.20 i was still in bed! xP yet 11.30 was our meeting time. WOO!
Rushed like mad, dint even wanted to style hair.... cabbed down to mandai estate and
still had soyabean she bought for me for breakfast. LOL.
Reached and waited for Jansen while we talked alot also. NP stuffs and the like.
Interview was successful but. somehow just now sth on her side cropped up._.
I was in the job already. COOL! $7 per hr yet still negotiable. With tips and commision.
GREAT PAY! but like everyday needa work. Like be damn Xiong luh.

Went to mac to eat with Lillian before meeting up with HER.
Damn it xP. Lillian got me to treat her 20 piece nugget set ._.
her 1st payroll will be her treat den!! Aiming for IT!! Hees!
Sent her off to mrt den just nice went to the other mac at concourse.
SHE brought CY over. 1st reaction was stunned to see CY's real self and dp. 0.o
teached her alittle and CY went off at 5?

1st time having such a long chat with HER luh.
From 5 til like 9 plus talking all the way.
HER life, My life. Friends, Relationships, Family.
and another 1st time where i felt comfortable talking to someone, tht long too!
^^ and for some UNKNOWN reason, her palms were always wet. Hahas!
Told her quite alot of stuffs, some bad memories and stuffs.
HER side, heard alot from her too. Sad, Happy, Joyous, Funny. (:

Went off cuz she had her fwen to send her back.
Went arcade aft tht. Tuned up my car? LOL.
YEA! I'm gonna save more money for driving license and definitely getting a motorbike!(:

~ Hehs. Stay strong alright? Glad you opened up alot to me today! So damn thankful!
Pity tht FOOD couldnt be in my tummy right now. YUMS^^.
and EOY! Pass that! Dont fail alright? JIAYOUS!!!!!~

NEW YORK! NEW YORK!

F1! Zooooooooooooooommm!.

Went out with clique just the other day!

Wasnt a really well planned trip luh.

Met up at cityhall, having the intentions to go to Singapore Flyer.

Just so nice tht day was the start of F1 race.

JUST...

SO...

GREAT...

tht they cordoned off the path to the singapore flyer.

What the shit man.. Haiiz.

Slacked at starbucks, thinking of what to do next.

Was lazy to suggest and somehow, those girls took tht photo with sunglass on. ._.

Whatever PEI YONG JUN they were saying i look like him

Dont even know who he is. 0.o

Finally settle to go to some steamboat resturant, WEI YAN NA @ novena.

And again, changed to NEW YORK NEW YORk last min cuz convenient.

1st time eating dere. and i thought food was expensive.

Seems like FISH&CO pricing also. Standard.

Ate til like 9 plus.

Rushed down to meet HER.

SHE prepared soemthing for me can? 1 day Just before her actual practical.

Keep asking me throw away._.

LOL. Just took the food from HER and left.

JUST SO TIRED NOW.......

2009-09-23T00:22:00.000-07:00

Found this in Compass Point Lib.

Yet again, been long since i ever came to library to search for books 00.!

hmm.

~ALL YOU NEED TO KNOW ABOUT APPLE TARTS!~

CLOUD's RECIPE FOR APPLE TART - IMPROVED VERSION!! (:

Obviously cant be mine. I will fail making food.

Took it out from some cookery book!

For those chefs out dere! Here's one u should try xD!

~RECIPE here for you already! JIAYOUS! All the best (: &.. you owe me one more homemade bread. Will nvr forget it~

2009-09-21T21:20:00.000-07:00

EGGGGGGGG W/HAM? Plus Mayo! ^^ (Bigger than an SBS bus 0.0)
PRESENTING the.... HOMEMADE APPLETART! xD

12.27 in the afternoon...

Should have woken up early in the morning to meet leong..

overslept until now..-.-

Hmm. Yesterday stayed at home to accompany family members?

Thnking back.. it's been long since i had ever spend a day at home with them..

WORK.

PLAY.

OUTING w/ FRIENDS.

But never a day out with family..

Hmm. this holiday probably makes me experience things like this which i haven been doing,

Which i should? >.<

Maybe sleeping at 5am the day before and me not being able to wake up for work cuz of some other matters prove to be a day where i can actually spend time with them..

Blessing in disguise? who ever thought about tht...

And not to say, i even had dinner with them.

Even i myself cant rmbr when was the last dinner i had with them at home.. KFC 0.0

Just think how long tht is....

Went out to meet HER and XW (: and obviously paid the price of being her genie pig XD.

Even overshot XW busstop where i was supposed to alight? den took another bus back..

Saw HER after she BOOed me ._. nver stop being abnormal huh..

After tht went off for last min tuition at CompassPoint. taught til like 10.30 and bus home.

Oh yea.. Saw this pair of sneakers at some shop in ION complex.

Signboard was cool enough to make me wowed.

DARK PINK standies and lumminated with a BLACK background.

Never seen one b4 0.0.

Sneakers priced at $78 bucks! Just so shit dont have my size. damn..

One in a million sneakers this is uh.... Gonna try and find it someday!

~ Thanking her for the FOOD! (: It just seems like i dont even bear to eat them at all^^.

2009-09-19T10:44:00.000-07:00

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Haven been posting. cuz all work and work til like midnight?

TIRED at last! Wanna have mre sleep :P

~ tonned at leong's hse on wed night.

DID only SOME webcamming XD. not much. and dere are the screen shots!!
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~ thoughts of her never fails to make me laugh^^. ALWAYS so ... abnormal! :P with tht pekceh ... language(:

2009-09-15T21:34:00.001-07:00

Sleepless nights..

However I force myself to sleep, to take a nap..

I just cant fall into tht slumber, no matter how hard i tried.

1am,

2am,

3am,

4am,

5am,

5.55am...

6am,

7am,

Forced asleep from 7 to 9am. ..

2009-09-15T10:10:00.000-07:00

The Outing..

~ I dont know what is happening..
That's how i'm gonna start this..
For once, or should i say..
It's been a long time since.. I am going thru something tht came abt so unexpectedly.
Yet It's been only a short span of time...
but i dint anticipate such things to come about..

For the whole day.. I was worrying. Part of me was anxious, the other part of me patiently waiting..
Until. night time.. when dusk was about to turn to early dawn..
I made the last call.. No1 picks up..
I wonder...
If you were okay..
I wonder...
If you were safe..
I wonder..
If it was ur parents who found out abt us..
I wonder..
If you are sick and just needed rest..
I wonder..
If you were just maybe sleeping through and ur fone was spoiled..
I wonder.. Just too much perhaps?

I couldnt stop thinking about you.. It just probably came too sudden. No word from you.
Until I reached home. and everything was realised.
Thanks for telling me u were okay after that..
Thanks for telling me what u had to say..
For now.. I just feel so useless.

The two tings on my mind right now..
Are the songs you are hearing to..
and.. just what would i do if i lose you.. the thought of tht, brought a tear out from corner of the eye.
the thought of tht, made my heart ache even mre. I realised the pain was real..

All i can think of now is..
I will wait for u.. For just everything to be over..
Whether or not this fairytale of ours is going to end.. Or may it just be the beginning of this wonderful journey tgt, I choose not to be the scripwriter, not to be the author.. but the reader.
A reader which want all the mre nothing but to give any support he can..
A reader whom just want to do all he can to make HER happy.. once again..

2009-09-14T10:28:00.000-07:00

Had badminton game beforehand! ~ Was a GREAT game overall.

Compete with other people too? ._. kena trashed! But it's the FUN that counts(:

planning another badminton session maybe next Tues?

Same batch of people coming to play with us too^^. Can learn mre from those adults!

N yea.. Slept til like 1? Some PIG i am. ._.

Tink she just ended sch. Den bored den smsed me. Just nice i woke up luh.

Bluff her tht i was at her sch dere.. Den kena found out i online..

-.- she smart luh. OFFLINE!! so cheater!

Talked halfway and her mum kept coming in? come and go til i had to go liao.

Met Leong and Kat @Bishan Stadium. and yea BADMINTON!~~

Bryan came along also. Had dinner at MANHATTAN FISH MARKET!!

Took tht photo but was kinda of blurrish. This time no editting. Natural Blur!!^^

Eat le. Went arcade. AGAIN. gotta stop the craze for it.

Went tunning and the new GUNDAM POD game.. 0.0

Went home after tht loh..

~Missing her lots..~

~ Hehs Mei, i dint mean to keep it from you. so please dont need sad okays?

I just maybe dont wan u to feel hurt. Do understand alrights? talk to you soon okays? (: ~

2009-09-13T10:04:00.000-07:00

Leong and Me! [最帥男主角s] XD

Me, Shirley and Xuewen!

Group Photo!(:

Monkey-faced?

11/09/09.

The 1st day..

For visit to singapore flyer?

For a date with Shirley?

For knowing Shirley in person(:

Started off watching M18 movie 0.0. I guess Shirley isnt really very good with M18 movies, so is Xuewen.

on the other hand. Was my fault too. Choose such a movie with leong! GAMER.

Loads of sick and gore stuffs. I even feel paiseh can?

Movie was kinda short and.. yea. dint understand it at all ._. missed like half the movie.

Went off to the singapore flyer next!

It was.. Hilarious! We macham like foreigners 1st time coming to singapore.

Looking for places of interest - Singapore flyer0.0.

Best yet, we still had the intention to snatch a map from the angmohs. ._.

Hahs! Called youshen and he sort of gave me some screwed up directions.

Me and leong just kept asking for the way..

making things worst. They had the F1 fence put up already, Blocking so much access to the flyer!! LOL.

Reached dere and had POPEYES for dinner?

Was kinda tired already. dint sleep the day b4 cuz was preparing some presents.. :X

plus explomo and all. just felt so beat down after all the work; Double Tuition, Explomo, P&C.

Time all like allocated to work, so last min rushed thru those presents.

Last min work arent always nice also.. =

anways. Shirley and Xuewen like shared.. one large mash potato for dinner..

Like some slimming promotors.. eat so little.

Rest of us like ate alot? At least Kat ate and CRAPPED alot?

Her ATTITUDE uh.. really make ppl laugh.. LOLs.

Sat the flyer after that. Thought we had personal cabins to ourselves.

>.<

Nothing will ever be good considering it's a ticket of $10 per pax.

Shared with 1 indian family.

No disturbance was was fine(:

the MOOD was just perfect..

and the perfect time to do our plan.

I went 1st den Leong yee next.

LOLs. Kinda screwed it up. :$ sians..

but everything went on smoothly?

The flight up and down was short. Dont even think was half and hr like they said it was-.-

But it was a fantastic view up dere. It was worth it though! I really dun mind going once mre someday..

After that, waited for bus and went off in train to home.

Leong went back with kat. I pei-ed Xuewen and Shirley home.

End up send them off at busstop only.

Said what i wanna say and i was off. Phew. At least everything's been said(:

Waited for Leong to come back den chat awhile at mac 1st before going home.

ALL IN ALL! It was WORTHWHILE! xD

~~ Though u told me everything was enough, I still find tht i wanna give you mre than just tht(: Just take time to get used to things^^. I'm sure it will be alrights.

ILY.

2009-09-09T09:38:00.001-07:00

Everything's not the same anymre.
"Same Shit, Different Smell".. Probably only now, I agree with celeste's words..
IDK if something that's bothering me now.. is what i think it is..
It seems like it, yet it seems like not..
...
...
...
but for one thing i'm sure.
Confusions.. and things will nvr be the same..

SILENCE..

2009-09-08T09:34:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i wonder; if close friends are trustworthy..

BIG BANG!

2009-08-14T07:13:00.000-07:00

PRESENTING.... HARU HARU by BIGBANG!

Finally had this video up and running!
Totally into this song. hope you guys enjoy it!.
Like 3 in 1? All subtitles!

Remiscience of the past

Personal Thoughts..

2009-08-12T01:36:00.000-07:00

I dont know if I'm doing things right now..
It seems ever so confusing now..
I was very sure about something..
But now kind of doubt it..
What is wrong with me?

i dont know if showing her the convo.. is right or wrong..
Showing her cause her to be sad, to be emo like today.. to be totally not herself.
It really hurts to see her this way.
As in, she's my close friend. BUTTY.
I want to help her. Cause i seriously feel that she and DT are compatible with one another.
And that she really deserves his love.
Likewise It's obvious that DT likes her too. but why somehow.. he deny it when questioned? Why? making my feel so unsure about my assumptions now.
Making me feel like all this while, whatevr I told BUTTY.. was all CRAP.. All shitty talk and no facts.. and today.. she was NOT herself at all.

Making me become damn demoralised also..
I hope this continues to be the way i expect it to be..

Aside from that.. somehow.. everything seems to be interwined with one another..
Mervyn came asking me. "cloud korkor, how come yr mum dont care when you are out so late de.." i stunned on the spot that time. Chris was smart enough to noe. BGF thanks.
And.. somehow, somehwere, Rascal Flets song - What Hurts the Most popped out in my mind.. that song.. HER.. me.. and.. one night. I dreamt of HER even.
What is this man.
Why the random dream of HER?
What is GOD having panned for me in my life journey?
Recollecting all my past? Why?
Making me ponder about alll this stuff.
Den i chanced upon this song.
BIGBANG - HaruHaru.
Watch the MV and it really seemed like it's telling me sth..
like GOD is hinting sth to me thru thr MV.
everything seems to be sososososo... Complicated yet interlinked!
Lies by BIGBANG was next..

someone help me...

G.I. JOE (:

2009-08-11T10:00:00.000-07:00

Woke up especially early, thinking that cuz the two girls were going school.
Might as well join them, in the end, their train was 2 in front of mine.. sian.
Reached school at 8? LOL. so early!
Blast HARU HARU..
Some meaning behind it...
Now i dont know what is on my mind..
What exactly do i want in life at all?
what what what? i just dunno....
Anyways.
slacked the whole day, seriously...
Only helped in doing fmt only.
the girls like did all the work? -.-
Russ and Bryan were also playing away. Shit ass! Hahs!

Last min asked GT to watch G.I. Joe!
Eugene and Fang Qi wasnt free at all. sianz.
We went ourselves loh. LOL.
Reached dere and was late?
IDK what we missed. hahs! not miss i guess.

Oh yea oh Yea! The girl's quite hot! hahs!.
Being random! Snakehead was like cool? LOL. like some ninja. Hhas!
the whole action packed movie made my head spin.
Dunno was cuz not enough sleep or no popcorn! Haha!
After that sent GT off. Met Leong Yee to go for the P&R buffet!
They had some function! dint expect them to invite the part-timers0.0
Kat dint come though. Lazy dog at home! haha! someone scared of blag-a-lah! LOL

And I got Leong's bad side on recording^^xD. Hhas!
He tried RAPING the heck outta me to give him my fone to delete it!
GUILTY-CONSIOUS hit him! hahas!
LOL. yea. so yea reached P&R! So many people!
bryan's dad to the boss to darren, alex, louis, etc to lawyers!
Buffet was nice! and i had WHITE WINE! bitter but at least better than beer!
Beer only makes stomach very zhang! Played POOL also.
Leong won lah! left 2 balls nia! Hahs!

Den this customer come buying 900 plus worth of accessories-.-""
siao de! LOL. I wrap his accessories like mad also!
imagine alittle blood rush, yet not working time, yet so many plates to wrap!
Kampua sian man! LOL. Wrap like wont wrap finish! hahs!
And and.. Annie changed her hairstyle! not bad! haha! Elsy also! LOL.!
& bryan and his bro came at 9? LOL. Talked tgt about alot of things!
den went home at 11 plus?

Bryan dad send me home! and damn it! I almost lost my fone twice today! Walao!
just now dropped onto the patch of grass. and if bryan dint tell me.
FONE GONE CASE! LOL. lucky!..
and now.. mind alittle tired.. the white wine! DRINK DRINK DRINK!

Sweet & Simple Life Provides the MOST WARMTH..

2009-08-10T08:42:00.000-07:00

National Day Celebration this year..
Aint anything like how i celebrated every single year.
year after year.. just going to cousins house "celebrate"
Eat dinner together, then off to playing games, watch anime.
The NORM isnt what I want.. seems so boring.

This year. Simple is the NORM! Simple Became the NORM.
Went church in the morning. havent been attending due to work.
Pastor's words were always somehwo in accordance to my life.
Talking about evangelism, time management. How we have time for play and work.
Having the right "DIET" for everything.
One can have all the food he wants and once consumed, nutrients are supplied to his body.
but, if he doesnt exercise but eat all the way, one will get fat and in turn have health problems.
It is the same for the spiritual body.
And for every spiritual body; individual or as a whole convent, we need a BALANCED diet too.
one can have all the biblical knowlegde he desires and once make known, "holiness" are supplied to the body. but if he doesnt practice it, pray to GOD, do evangelism, one will not be as HOLY as he thinks he is.
it really seems meaningful to me.
Service end and refreshments were served.
Met Leon! Old time friend! Seems like he noes PIGGY too(: ..
And his mum! Still praising me as alws. LOL.
Saw Lillian. She looked... much prettier than last time; when i was with her..
Went lunch at the market den headed down to Daryl's house. LOYANG CONDO-.-
Had some survey thing about christ.. HOHOHO. Got Hospitality as my best? den some Creative communication, etc. LOL.
I went there just to do the survey den go off. Had badminton at 2.45?
LOL. Took cab down! RICH KID! xD. hahs!

Went there train 1st. some small training and I was ALREADY BEAT!! Stamina deproved like shit.
did like 5 times of 8 climbing stairs. Russell came 1st. surprsingly!
den the rest of them PIGS came at like 3,10? hahs! with the small ones also.
Had a great time dere. havent work out for quite awhile!
Though I had to CONSTANTLY lighten up the atmosphere..
due to some conflicts with butty and russ. den it was like alw dead silence even in a match.
tagged with BUTTY twice with match with russ and Shao Qing/Christina.
WON TWICE ALSO! ^^ Haha!
Single match with russ full court also WON HIM! TWICE! *kaopei* Hha!
but den. cant be to cocky, I was just alittle much better than him only.
HAD 2.4 run after that. Damn it man! Somehow leg cramp; muscle tear.
The shock to the leg muscle was like a knife stabbed to the vein!GOSH!
LOL
After that went off, dint bathe? LOL. stnks!
Went to chris hse "study". Dint really had the mood to study. IDK why.
Some other EXTERNAL thoughts were keeping my damn mind occupied..
anyway! KFC was ON THE HOUSE! woots! I ate like 3 pieces.. -.-
now exercise like never excercise like that! LOL.
delicious. was stuffed with more mash, coleslaw, popcorn chicken and 35 packets of CHILLI. that seriously ROCKS!
Even had ice-cream, mint and coffee. Hha!
sq was like teasing liz and stuff, den the go one corner and reflect thing! It was ultimate fun.
Stayed til like 9 plus? den went off cuz SQ and Liz going home also.

Just nice Chris God Ma and Pa came. All were like stunned when chris called them ma and pa.
-.- LOL. yea. somehow that alvin guy blacklist me? LOL.

Took bus 147 to cousins hse. and when wanted alight. this WEIRD woman came up.
I was just ncie standing at the entrance door of the bus. -.- damn it. suay.
bus driver's a CHINNNNAAA.. ask me translate the woman's words for him.
Apprarently, this woman came to complain that a guy kicked her as he was alighting from the bus.. and this woman came to the bus driver only 20 mins aft that, probably like aft 3 to 4 stops? -.-!! wat the hell.. Kinda lame lah.
Come and complain and want the bus driver to sth abt it, when 1stly mean already left, 2ndly, 20 mins LATER?!! IDK what's in her mind. LOL.
and cuz of her problem, the bus stopped rather long at the busstop..
so was like when they were done and I alighted, those passengers were like giving me the look.. like i was the one holding up the damn bus!!.. heck.
Went to cousin's hse aft tt. and ate DURIAN! man! Damn full! *_*
and when that's not enough to make my stomach bloated, another bowl of sweet potato soup!
Faint! LAWL!

Facebook all the way. sianness.. went home at around 2?
By that time, whole body was exhausted like shit already.
SLEPT! After one mre bath!

and just like that, celebrated national day.
The warmth of friends and enjoyment with them in such a simple outing is far better than going out on movies and splurging money after money.
the fun we had today.. cannot be compared to the fun we have for outings.. It's totally indescribable! totally. gotta miss them... when change of sem starts.. ):

Sweet & Simple Life Provides the MOST WARMTH..

2009-08-09T08:03:00.000-07:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! 9TH Aug 2009!.
Just thinking about it brings back memories.
One blink of an eye, sem1 is coming to a close.
One blink of an eye, clique in poly is going to be seperated into differnt class already.
One blink of an eye, holidays are near yet again.

But.. Do i really yearn for holidays to come? For the 1st sememster to be nearing the end? To have a class of class?
): ... it's really a bother we have to go through all this.
Thoughts like "Are we still going to be close as last time" , " Will we still go school together?" seems to whirl up in the minds of many.
Probably myself too.

Clique like Christina, Eliz, Shao Qing, Bryan, Russell.
The few of them did make a big difference in my life.
Some of them whom I am constantly trying to squeeze my brain juice just to help them.
I mean, ultimately, I want them to be happy and get what they want in their life.
Be it in relationships, in personal problems, in school work.
It has still been my dream to HELP EVERYONE WITH THEIR OWN TROUBLES.
Leong Yee's a great guy I'm really gonna miss. His character, inner style and sense of responsibility is none comparable to all the people I see. He's more than a good friend I would miss to have.
Katherine another crazy gal but overall, yea..
Shafiq! The ULTIMUM joker! Miss that too.
Celeste, one of the girls who came opening up to me about her problems, close to her i guess.
THE REST OF W15Q will not be forgotten.

Kinda childish one might say? Too impossible perhaps?
But.. with every troubled mate receiving help, there wld be one more HAPPY, CAREFREE human being.
That is what I choose to believe. And believing it, helping people esp those close to me, will be my top piriority.
Though at times the problem may drag on and on, but i do feel that once i start helping, there shouldnt be a stop to it until the problem's solved. No matter how demoralised the troubled may get, how low in confidence he/she is about some matter, I do take it as my responsibility to make sure they are happy, with true facts to prove to them so they wont think otherwise...

UT3s coming. And days passing by are like flowing water in a crystal lake. Shorter the time I have for my studies.
Am i prepared? NO, I'm not in the least. The mere thought about it scares me.
Again, I'm compelled to help others mre than i help myself.
The 2 kids are having their exams soon. the contradicting fact is.. My exams come 1st b4 them; i'm preparing them, yet leaving myself unprepared. yet, like any other tutor, difficulties faced are unavoidable.
I make their money worthwhile by spending every min teaching them, not a min of break at all.
Tanking two kids at one go. 1 guy, donavan. 1 guy, germaine. Pri 5 and 4 res.
Donavan's not smart but he is hardworking. though caught him lying and copying answers twice but still trust him.
Cause i know the feeling of not being trusted.
Germaine's smart but lazy, the complete opposite. Alittle defient.
Yet when i teach them, it is only supposed to be 2 hrs. Normal tutors would just sit there and do their own stuffs, kids duno den ask tutor, tutor den teach.
Yet I'm going the extra mile to teach them every single min every single second,
on top of that, I gave them another 1 hr free every session.
I dont mind going home late if they were willing to learn.
Yeah. yet my pay is like what? 20 bucks per session only? Not worth the money, but den. oh well.

Working? Stopped! Needa have all the time I can get. UT's mre impt. Last hotel session was western course?
All TCC people. and I was grped with this auntie. Self-centered selfish, refusing to help other servers.
I TOTALLY hate that kind of attitude!
In line of that, Gained new friends from TCC. they can see that I want to help but that auntie just always told me off.
FREAKING HATE IT!
someone told me this b4.
IF YOU CAN HELP, IT'S A MUST THAT ONE SHOULD HELP. BUT IF ONE DOESNT HELP, HE IS IN THE WRONG.
This girl. Qian Hui i think. got scolded by the auntie and i could tell..
She was close to tears. Sympatised with her. However, she look kinda cute. What am I talking.-.-
Yea. Haven seen Xue Er for some time already, after that quarrel. Back to normal I guess. My ZHUZHU still(:

yeah. Think tt's all. (: will post pics sooon!

2009-07-11T10:46:00.000-07:00

Okay.. it's probaby been a month plus i haven been posting
Really seemed like alot of things happening too.
what's up recently?
tracking back..
School stuff...

Laughs* LEO's always down during DELLA's lesson... Just sway for her.. hhas.
E Learning for one week just pretty stuck up? Almost wated to say FCUK..
tinking abt it. A friend told me that saying lesser vulgarities better..
Should really heed her advice i think.. Maybe i'm not on the right track yet..
Yea.. each day doing work of 5 individuals. That's over ridiculous.
Yet, kind of regretted not doing science. Got my 1st F from it. Who could have guessed.
... Yea. yet UT was maybe last min? Thanks to PIGGY getting most 6Ps summarized for me..
It did help too. Other than that, "hugging budda's legs" arent practical.

It was lucky for me to really scrape thru this, though cant really confirm cuz results not out yet.
But yeah..
PROCRATINATION seems to get me hooked recently.
so.. 3 UT's left to go.
Afraid of prog UT.
I dont even noe a single shit from it.
Last UT grade? a SOLID E.
1st fail in UT! ):. aint very pleasing.
Today Leong Yee met up with me, Liz and Chris. taught us prog.
Seems like it cant get into the moo of learning programming.
Sianz. Already an "E", but procrastination kept keeping me sidetrack.
): they let at 6 plus? I met Piggy on the way.

Dint really do much dere also.
Fb-ing. while she was like putting her heart and soul into her work.
Manz! feel so ashamed. Lawls.
Pouring down damn heavily that day. Thunderstorms. Yet fireworks were tested out for NDP.
Lib closing at 9 so were kana chased out.
That reminds me. Hhas!
There was this girl, who rushed towards me as i was holding on to Piggy's VIOLIN.
somehow had that feeling that i really suited violin. Lol.
Yea. So she was like? idk her. she dont know me. Yet came forward and talked to me?
I was like... zzz. HUH? err okay..
Talk and talk. She was from TP? den i came to tell her that violin was PIGGY's. den she stop talking already
..

Forgot upload this post. Been long......

2009-06-10T09:50:00.000-07:00

JIE's birthday PRESENT! For mE!

Touched! Lawls

Chanel.>>>>>>>> ME.

Sheryl's SHARINGUN.

Act CUTEss..

Met them one day my actual birthday=). Chanel was like asking whether wan K-box or sakae sushi. Ask me choose.

Meanwhile, sheryl was like dunno want to ask Ms goh go anot. lawls.

in the end, she cant make it. sad!. Hougang par tou with her BF! hahs.

So met at amk hub. Shunbian also met Rupin. she came all e way to amk hub..

Kist to pass me present! LIKED her present lots. A shirt. My 1st collar shirt from her? LOVED it. Keep wearin it til like today?

She went off after tt, den the rest of us went K! lol. sang damn good? hahs.

Met crazy gal also. Lol. sang til like...........

EHX... idk wat time we sang til also. lOl. 9 plus ten i guess.

They were like saying their 9 plus show over or wat.. LAWLS..

after tht went to met JIE KOR and her bf. Another present from them too!

A PERSONAL made cake form JIE. and an EVERLAST shirt from kor and every1.

Actually had another cake, brought from marriot hotel de..

But den lingzi cant make it. boss dont let her off. so bobian.

dint celebrate with the cake=(.

sians... went hme aft tt.

FOR YOU GUYS WHO CELEBRATED MY BDAY TODAY! THANKS A MILLION! THNKS THANKS THANKS! COULDNT HAD A BETTER BIRTHDAY W/O U ALL!

Photogenic...... FONE CAMERA!=)

Failed shot

ALL PICTURES ALL SEEM TO HAVE ONLY THEM!

ALL OF US!

CRAZY GAL!

RANDOM-NESS

ME ALONE. [CHIO-BUs BEHIND LEH!(:]

9th JUNE 2009.

A day which i initially tot wasnt impt due to sum events which happened last yr.

I dint wanna celebrate my bday aft what happened..

Indirectly causing clique to be angry cuz i told them it's not worth celebrating my bday.

Howver, they still did in the end! and THANKS for the wonderful time.

Met at bugis. Leong Yee still went to survey the place to see where we can have out spledid lunch

I've nvr seen any1 do tt b4. shocked..

went to Seoul Garden! 1st time going on my bday!.

I dint even noe what it was until i went there to eat tt day!

LOADS of BEEF!! chicken charsew. clams, lala, fishballs, sotong, sausage, fishcakes!

self-made pasta?

FREE-ADVERTISEMENT ON THIS? IT'S COOL LUH! =)

Birthday cake during my bday! though it aint anything special.. just a normal cake.

but then, it's been a year or mre since... i had a bday cake for my birthday!

I really do appreciate it... esp from my family..

sidetracking..

At times we might find.. family members are just utterly fruastrating.

Parents who always nag and scold one upside down actually just care for u deep down.

Sometimes, i myself dont see that value in them..

Until now, at times, these thinkings werent apparent to us at all..

but when u feel that they are taking an extra step to make a slight difference in ourselves.

one will feel guilty that we, during the times of heated arguements that we more or less take our close ones for granted..

This is probably where we should thank them at the very least.

one will feel that someday..(:

2009-06-08T09:13:00.001-07:00

TO Mei En!!:
PM:
Happy Birthday to Cloud Lam Jun Shen! Congrats for turning 17 =)

TO Ru Pin!!:
SMS:
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY ! My dearest korkor. Though we have drifted apart, but i'll still be there for you. Stay Cheerful and shuai always . Takecares . loveya (:

TO KATerine!! :
°°[diet]°°kάтћзяїпз `me & dar dar` ♥ it seems far.. hais.. says:
*happy birthday
SHiNiGAmI;ShhEn]]-* † BAD~EVIL~NASTY~DEVIL CLOUD N.I.N.E! DISSAPOINTMENT IN ME.. =l❤™ ・c™? says:
*thanks kat..
*u still rmbr?
°°[diet]°°kάтћзяїпз `me & dar dar` ♥ it seems far.. hais.. says:
*yes.
*9 june!
*18 year old
*oops 17
SHiNiGAmI;ShhEn]]-* † BAD~EVIL~NASTY~DEVIL CLOUD N.I.N.E! DISSAPOINTMENT IN ME.. =l❤™ ・c™? says:
*ya
*hahs
*thanks
*for rbring
*...
°°[diet]°°kάтћзяїпз `me & dar dar` ♥ it seems far.. hais.. says:
*NP>

TO eLIZabeth!!:
liz ; says:
*welcomeeee :D
*HEYYYYYYY
*HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAYYYY :D:D:D:D

TO EDDY!!:
Eddyy $taminazilla just sent you a nudge.
*
Eddyy $taminazilla says:
*HELLO HAPPY BIRTHDAYY! =DDDD
SHiNiGAmI;ShhEn]]-* † BAD~EVIL~NASTY~DEVIL CLOUD N.I.N.E! DISSAPOINTMENT IN ME.. =l❤™ ・c™? says:
*heh
*thanks
*man
Eddyy $taminazilla says:
*have a good one yeh!
SHiNiGAmI;ShhEn]]-* † BAD~EVIL~NASTY~DEVIL CLOUD N.I.N.E! DISSAPOINTMENT IN ME.. =l❤™ ・c™? says:
*it's gonna be 1
*i'll nvr forget
Eddyy $taminazilla says:
*aye sounds good
*lol have fun yo!
*its your day

TO CHRIStina!!:
Christina doesn't know what she is saying already says:
*uhm..
*happy birthday

TO SHAWN!!:
shaWn is thinking of you :-O says:
*dude
*happy birthday (^)

TO Leong Yee!!:
Nnabiscoo ???? says:
*Cloudie !
*HAPPY BDAY ~
*I LOVE U FOREVER
*so you are 18 now !?
SHiNiGAmI;ShhEn]]-* † BAD~EVIL~NASTY~DEVIL CLOUD N.I.N.E! DISSAPOINTMENT IN ME.. =l❤™ ・c™? says:
*thanks dude
*17
*ha
*=l
Nnabiscoo ???? says:
*FCK LA
*still 17
*LOL
*i tot 18 can go happy
*legally
*lol
SHiNiGAmI;ShhEn]]-* † BAD~EVIL~NASTY~DEVIL CLOUD N.I.N.E! DISSAPOINTMENT IN ME.. =l❤™ ・c™? says:
*...
*one mre yr
*legal is mine
Nnabiscoo ???? says:
*ehh then u got what event for your bday
*planning go where siol today
SHiNiGAmI;ShhEn]]-* † BAD~EVIL~NASTY~DEVIL CLOUD N.I.N.E! DISSAPOINTMENT IN ME.. =l❤™ ・c™? says:
*no where...
*=l
Nnabiscoo ???? says:
*nb ~
*how can
*im free
*lets go
*GEYLANG LA
*nvr try morning b4 rite
*LOL
SHiNiGAmI;ShhEn]]-* † BAD~EVIL~NASTY~DEVIL CLOUD N.I.N.E! DISSAPOINTMENT IN ME.. =l❤™ ・c™? says:
*...
*u really wan?
Nnabiscoo ???? says:
*fck u la bday no discout want lor
*if u want we jio pple out la
*movie eat
*anything oso can

TO Sherry!!:
Sherry- "Jai Ho" means "Victory(Jai) Hooray(Ho)" says:
*Happy birthdae!!!!!
*hahhas
*seee....
SHiNiGAmI;ShhEn]]-* † BAD~EVIL~NASTY~DEVIL CLOUD N.I.N.E! DISSAPOINTMENT IN ME.. =l❤™ ・c™? says:
*thanks
*=)
*love u
*too
Sherry- "Jai Ho" means "Victory(Jai) Hooray(Ho)" says:
*eur mei so nice
SHiNiGAmI;ShhEn]]-* † BAD~EVIL~NASTY~DEVIL CLOUD N.I.N.E! DISSAPOINTMENT IN ME.. =l❤™ ・c™? says:
*ya
*thanks alot
*=)

TO Amanda!!:
♥ Amanda.T says:
*HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLOUDY :D
SHiNiGAmI;ShhEn]]-* † BAD~EVIL~NASTY~DEVIL CLOUD N.I.N.E! DISSAPOINTMENT IN ME.. =l❤™ ・c™? says:
*heh
*hihi
*ehx
*thanks man!
*=)
♥ Amanda.T says:
*:D
SHiNiGAmI;ShhEn]]-* † BAD~EVIL~NASTY~DEVIL CLOUD N.I.N.E! DISSAPOINTMENT IN ME.. =l❤™ ・c™? says:
*no bday pressie>
*lol
♥ Amanda.T says:
*HAHAHAHA
*never buy
*=P
SHiNiGAmI;ShhEn]]-* † BAD~EVIL~NASTY~DEVIL CLOUD N.I.N.E! DISSAPOINTMENT IN ME.. =l❤™ ・c™? says:
*...
*no lahx
*just kidding
*=)
*ask for fun nia

TO Sally!!:
Sally how you thrill me says:
*happy birthday!
SHiNiGAmI;ShhEn]]-* † BAD~EVIL~NASTY~DEVIL CLOUD N.I.N.E! DISSAPOINTMENT IN ME.. =l❤™ ・c™? says:
*heh
*thanks
*how cOmE u rmbr?
Sally how you thrill me says:
*haha i do of course
SHiNiGAmI;ShhEn]]-* † BAD~EVIL~NASTY~DEVIL CLOUD N.I.N.E! DISSAPOINTMENT IN ME.. =l❤™ ・c™? says:
*hhas
*thanks man
*=)
Sally how you thrill me says:
*no problem!
SHiNiGAmI;ShhEn]]-* † BAD~EVIL~NASTY~DEVIL CLOUD N.I.N.E! DISSAPOINTMENT IN ME.. =l❤™ ・c™? says:
*hahs
*dun wan smash cake in my face?
Sally how you thrill me says:
*:D
Facebook:
Sally Chew Happy birthday!

TO Candy!!:
❤ ??xia0c4ndy; failure?? ★ -dashes- says:
*>< *happie bdae fish <3
SHiNiGAmI;ShhEn]]-* † BAD~EVIL~NASTY~DEVIL CLOUD N.I.N.E! DISSAPOINTMENT IN ME.. =l❤™ ・c™? says:
*hahas
*yaya
*thanks thanks
*=l
❤ ??xia0c4ndy; failure?? ★ -dashes- says:
*{:

TO GANGSTER BABY!!:
Shao Qing says:
*freee
*lol
*anyw, happy birthday (:

To GengTao!!:
SMS:
Happy birthday...

TO YiXian Cousin!!:
SMS:
Hey dude! Happy 17th birthday.
All the best in wadeva u do man! :D

TO ARRON~ChongLiang!!:
SMS:
Yaw cloud! Happi b'dae dude!
Finally 17 uhs! Lols.
Sry dat i cant go for ur celebration.
Hope u forgiv mi yeahs.
Wish u have a great yr ahead! Cheers! =D

TO HanLun!!:
SMS:
Happy bday!

TO KangRui!!:
SMS:
Happy Birthday to you.
Happy Birthday to you.
Happy Birthday to you~.
Happy Birthday to you!
Faster make a wish! Haha. I know im not the first to wish you,
sorry about yesterday eh.

TO Lillian!!:
{NAILLIL; ??! what can i believe in? says:
*HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

TO Melissa!!:
SMS:
Happy Belated Birthday [:

TO Katini!!::
Facebook:
Kartini Suhaimi HAPPIE BIRTHDAE!!!=D

TO Chey Yee!!:
Facebook:
Soh Cher Yee happy birthday =]

TO DEON!!:
Facebook:
Deon Chua Beng Woon Happy Birthday!!! May all your wishes come true! :)

TO EWEN!!:
Facebook:
E-wen Chan Happy Birthday dude:D
Cloud Lam Jun Shen lol. weird for u calling me dude.. LOLS.
E-wen Chan oh okay, then cloud? hahaha
Cloud Lam Jun Shen... lamer.. hahas! go prepare for yr youth camp lahx!=) LAWLS.

TO Jin Feng JIE!!:
Jasmine Hu xiao di..happi bdae..*cheers!!! ;)
Cloud Lam Jun Shen hhas. thanks. received yr sms too. Hahas. Meet u soon=)

TO Zi Hong!!:
Facebook:
Kng Zi Hong CLOUDIE!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! (:

TO CHANEL!!:
Facebook:
Chanel Kang small didi, how was your bday!! haha HAPPY BDAY DUDE. wanted to ask you whether you wanna celeb w us today, yesterday. but was abit late liaoz. i still owe you a sakae treat! lol. soonsoon.. anyways, hope you enjoyed YOUR day. and may all your wishes and dreams come truee! :D:D:DHAHA, CALL ME JIEJIE!

TO SHERYL LYNN GASPER!!:
SMS!!:
Happy Advanced Birthday to KOR!

TO BrendanLEE KOR!!:
CALL!!:
ehx. Happy Birthday Lehx.
One year older liaos.
Learn to respect ahx..

THANKS to all those who wished me for my birthday!..
Esp those who really remembered.. Thank u for that..
And the presents i received from some of u..
including the outings the others planned just for me..
THANK you from the bottom of my heart..
It was pretty memorable!
Thank YOU ALL for making this 17th bithday, a joyous one!=)

2009-06-08T09:13:00.000-07:00

A Day Once So Special..
Became Nothing in the Eyes of Mine..
Fragments and Bits of Memories..
Slowly fills my Fragile Heart with Pain..
It's Stoning It..
I can Feel It Nomore..
Slowly and Mercilessly..
Daggers after Another..
Stabbing into the Heart of Pure Soul..
As Death Grew Nearer..
Engulfing the Soul I Hold..
ONCE..
and Never Again..
EMO's the Word and the World to Thee.
Shredding the Life which Hangs DEARLY in ME..

I Hate to be fucked up....
Turning the Life i once had..
All crashing down on Me..

2009-06-07T09:11:00.000-07:00

Feeling Pretty Fucked Up LAHX!!
Idk lahx. I'm just sick of everything!!
What is WRONG with me?
WAT'S WITH MY TEMPER?
i get aggitated easily.
What the fucking hell is wrong with me??
Haiiz.. So damn fucked..
Somehw i scolded christina?
kat tt side.. HAiiz.. just feel damn fucked.. idk why..
fuck lahx. KNN.

2009-06-05T01:01:00.000-07:00

SWEET!! XD THE COUPLE OF THE YEAR!

A whole day of ice skating! Simply.. COSTLY can? Costly in $$; it's like 16.50 for a mere 2 hr skating? Lol. tt's like expensive? 1 hr.. $7.80?. lol. But overall was okay...

lol. i get the practical meaning of Falling down and Picking Oneself Up. =).

Lol. All were like better skaters than me? Only me darryl, kat and Liz. Christ couldnt make it. ..

ThInk with her would be mre fun? Dont think she noes hw to skate too. LOL. den dere will be two ppl falling all the time! lol.

I kept falling can? UN-COUNTABLE times! lols. Darryl's good at it. Learning from him n Liz.

She's wasnt tt bad at it too. Kat! HA! i dont dare learn from her sia..

3 times yet still cant skate properly. LOLs.

KFC aft tt.. Service was ULTRA-TURN OFF for me.. lol.

but long time dint eat kfc so yahx.. Lols.

Arcade while den went off alredy.

Kat went to meet her bf. Walao. Sebei DAO sia. nvm.

Den in train met some gangsters. They were like staring at liz? lol. Den they kept staring at me aft loooking at her?? zzz. 11 peeeks at her man. COUNTED them..

best thing was aft she alighted with Darryl at TPY.

Really al STARED at me. Like wtf. wan come cui daji like tt.. zzz.

Lol. but they alighted at bishan. So yahx. Nth happened. Went hme.. lol.

Pics of me & pubgal..

Si ARRON! LOLS

Before drinking...... ROFL

After drinking..... LAWLS

Random-ness..

Wednesday rox man..

Lol. I was again practically at home?

Went train on bball.. Court was full but still trained..

Lol.. stayed at home til like 7 plus. den I went out to meet DRINKING clique?

Shao Qing, Arron, Leong Yee, Russell. Kat PS sia..

plus 2 mre of Arron's friend. lool. Went LAOBASA eat.

Den walked to the pub dere.

Went to sahara. but dere is like nth to do yet no girls?

lol. Only shisah. For wat sia.. Lol. Den went to another pub.

Ordered Martell. Drank like 2 to 3 cups neat?

den aft tt alll mixer..

Nt bad lahx. And i thought i was the lousiest drinker..

3 tequila shots 1st time drink.. I DOU already..

drank neat den plus mixer n everything.. Still.

I dint get drunk? sang. played pool!

LOL talking abt POOL. Arron's friend keep jixiao russ. POKE his ass when he playing pool..

LOL. like wth... laugh like mad. Arron scared ltr russ angry sia den keep asking friend to stop.

LOL. laughs... played pool. Keep winning. won arron's friend n russ. lol.=)

yahx. Went offf at 2 plus.. cant sleep man! like wth.. 7am next day den sleep. zzz.

PEACORK.. in a terrace house...

Me and THEE dogg!! like soft toy.. REAL DOGG!!

=) NICE PIC!

tt's arron!!

the 3 ladies..

GANGSTER.. and KAT!

*TOOT* PIC OF SHAWN... lawls.

.S.S.E.N.-.M.A.L.G.N.U.

Group Pic..

Middle one me?? LEGGS so skinny.....

Monday supposed to go bryan's hse at 1.30..

and guess wat?? I was still sleeping at 1.30.

LAWLS.. kana spammed calls and smses from bryan kat to christina and liz..

LOL. i was also supposed to pei kat to sch.. in the end dint go also..

OMG.. hahas. Went to meet them at 3.30 den went to bryan's hse..

His hse is like antique can??

Plus he had a pool table?? but old de.. WOAH..

Old steroset..

And a botanical garden to start with. Peacork, hen, AND taslion dog!

Whose fur nvr stop dropping.. lol.

Played pool den basketball. .. FUN lahx..

Lol.. den went for dinner at CHOM CHOM..

ordered like stingray plus lala drink. chiken wing..

Walao..

Sit with kat same table..

U sure wont be sure during dinner.

Ppl is water cow..

She is FOOD cow!!

LOLS.. she like wat also gobble down can?? talking abt un-glamness??

lol...

Went to lan shop with the guys.. Girls went home..

And.. there was this gal in the train.. LOLs. Arron was like.. Hahs.

Think we make until tt gal feel so shy.. or embarrassed? LOL.

den lan at douby gaut dere til last train..

L4D all the way..LOl..

2009-05-31T02:27:00.000-07:00

ARRGH!!
It really pisses me off!. WTF
What am I even bothered?
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY!
What the FUCK! why??
I still dont get myself!!
I FUCKING hate the WHOLE SHIT coming back to me again..
Like a toll back to my life..
I've got thru it..
How come it just wont stop haunting the hell out of me?
Why must she mean so much to me?
That I feel fucking HURT always?
I'm dulan can?; FUCKED UP!
Venise called me tday. For some unknown reason.
Asking me whether I was still working in Fish&co..
Somehw some1 in the background was talking bad abt me too.
SMACK HIM lahx, ASS, ASS, ASS.
I just felt like shooting her. She's no better.
Aiya! Fuck lahx. I dint say it out.. I was totally caught up like shit!
FUCK! haiiz.
Why does she even mean FUCKING much to me.. until this point?
It stil wont change at all. I've been trying to live my own life?
How come i just cant get it straight?! With kat, Liz, Chris, bryan, aaron, shao qing.
The whole clique together gg out n stuff.
How come she just wont be another memory which my mind can just dump it into the "recycle bin"?
WHY WHY WHY?? I'm now back to the life with full of questions on my mind.
And thi sfreakingly sucks!!
FUCK HIS MAN!!
FUCK EVRYTHING!!.
FUCK EVERY1!
FUCK THIS EARTH!!
FUCK THIS WORLD!!
FUCK THIS WHOLE FUCKING LIFE!!
IT"S SHIT!!!

2009-05-30T11:04:00.000-07:00

People ask me to letgo, But, I refused to. X: Deb said " You love him more thn tht previous bastard right? " I said : " Of course. " ( If you understand me well, you knw wht i'm trying to say. "

This was taken from my ex blog...
I dont know..
I really dont know...
As to why.. I stil feel so hurt...
After seeing what she wrote..
I tot... I left the past at the back of me..
I did try to be a bastard to her..
ever since aft the nicholas incident..
I'm trying to make her HATE me mre..
Make her tink I'm the one trying to BREAK her relationship..
But she doesnt noes..
I;m the 1... HELPING HER..
PERSUADING nicholas..
perhaps..
I really wanted her to hate me..
to let her think this way..
but how come..
when i've achieved it..
I felt otherwise? I felt dragged down..
like gravity'spulling me FAR DOWN INTO the DEPTHS of the EARTH?
So pain so the inside...
So numb on the outside..
I dunno who I am now..
Suddenly seems to me..
that I dun even UNDERSTAND myself..
tt's scary.. Giving my ownself the creeps..
i feel like being emo already..
How come does this have so much EFFECT on me??
WHY WHY WHY??
I simply dont get it..
just feeling..

FUCKED!! haiiz.

emo world.. I wanna step into it.. let me...llllllllll

2009-05-28T09:45:00.000-07:00

OOvOO.. Cool!

Insisting on taking pic Part 1

Insisting on taking pic Part 2

SLACKER! lol

Insisting on taking pic Part 3. TOOT-ness!

Insisting on taking pic Part 4

Insisting on taking pic Part 5

PROGRAMMING UT really die! lol, SIANZ.

NO MOOD? haiiz..

Wahx. I was surprisedmy own bday i dint even rmbr it was coming, whereas fwens still rmbred.

Zai sia.. lol.

Pics all damn retarded lahx. Lame sia. KangRui.

....

...

LOL

2009-05-20T00:01:00.000-07:00

WE..

ARE..

JUST...

BEING...

SO....

VERY....

ULTRA....

LAME!!!!!

CAN??????

Innocent ME and russ. LOl

Katherine N Meanie Liz=)

ENTERPRISE GRP! GANGSTER sq, SOK KUAN, BRYAN, KOGILA, ME!

OHX.. THE SWEET COUPLE!=)

LIZ SO EXTRA RITE? {BET SHE'S GONNA CALL ME MEANIE BOSS IF SHE SEES THIS!}

GODLIKE!

Been a good week overall! I loved my class! lots man

Really rocked my life around.

clique inc eLIZabeth, KATerine, CHRIStina, RUSSell, BYR-BRYan(lol),

and new member DARYL! lol.

Apparently sth fishy with him n HER ahx. lhhas.

lolx. had dinner with Christina's family a couple of times.

I just loved the really warm feeling! It's just un-describable.

Studied with liz Siao qing and gang at nebo just last sunday.

Lol. class ppl totallly rocks! I SWEAR i really dont wanna change class man. like wth lahx

every sem change class. sianz.

I like it the way it is.

I guess it was the 1st time i had a clique so strong like this. nvr b4. sec sch was like.. fwens were

merely fwens nia.

Poly different somehow. =) lots of things happened.

good, bad, happy, sad, angry, calm. of all sorts! but I'm sill cool.

CLOUD's cool man.

Looking fro part time job too.

Heard daryl MIGHT have a space for me at his wrkplace.

Hope so. Leong Yee also helping me find FM for macs. I dont mind seriously.

Plus Kang Xin tt side. waiting for training as hotel waiters.

Kor helping me find too yahx.

Dinner! just thought abt it,. Went chom chom! FOOD realy taste like heaven man!

Not to mention eating with clique and christ's family.

really looking froward for mre opportunities to dine in as a "FAMILY"

UT's apparently started! COOL MAN!

currently having most confidence in Maths! sure get A, if moderate, if not at least B.

Cognitive and enterprise still okay i guess. 2mre's

programming, which i totally suck at it! and friday's scienc. Got confidence too. Hope so.!=)

aft sch. sia lahx! Damn tired sia. Slept den the rest of the class!

WENT BONGUS MAN! sia la. ALL CS OUT-WAR! was like wth..

Lol. den aft tt guys basket ball sio!

Win all 3 rounds my team! hhas.. Not bad. I still had my touch!=)

Damn man! kana blister like damn big? bigger than any regular size coin? Pain sia

but worth it lahx.

so Long dint exercise liaoz. LOL.

Went for magic. Kat pangsei lahx. den saw eric with other girls... 0.0. KAt sad sia

Haiiz. Nth to say. Learnt trick. dint really remember all of them though.

KANGRUI was like fooling around with my stuff can? lol. take my fone, my wallet, my jacket. LOL. think got her photo. Will publish! hA! lol.

den kana lost fone. old de. lucky they found n return! so damn honest!

PPL who have intergrity sia! Guess what KR took my atm card w/o me knowing.. zzz.

RP told me she bought bday present. touched sia. I keep telling ppl not to buy things for me or spend money on me cuz it isnt worth it yet ppl stil buy. =) but was touched lahx.

Will keep it de..

At night talked to KangRui online.. Lol. Seems like a nice girl.=) Crappy and fun-loving. lol.

BOTTOM

PROGRAMMING UT die!!

2009-05-17T10:47:00.000-07:00

mei en~cloud: i...am sorry cloud! like i said in the msg i sent u,it's yr choice also
17 May 09, 02:04
cloud: it's okay. nvm. forget it.. That CK is rite? I'm sarcastic okay? I'm not who I am.
17 May 09, 02:04
cloud: you dont have 2 worry. I WONT anymre. since u and tt guy considere it as being sarcastic den so be it. I was so busy. yet i still went to tagg yr blog. Hoping u werent so bored. and this was wat i gt
17 May 09, 01:59
mei en~cloud: nth matters anymore..if u don wan tag.. i wont force u
17 May 09, 01:55
cloud - Ck: If this is how u treat a gal. YOU TOTALLY ARE A BASTARD! U are not even worth being compared to a beast.
17 May 09, 01:48
mei en~ck: it's yr choice,i wont bother u anymore
17 May 09, 01:46
CK to mei en: im sry but your life is none of my business....
17 May 09, 01:41
mei en: i seriously wil go back to how i am after all these. I am tired,real tired,just let me go into a dark trap and never wake up.
17 May 09, 01:34
mei en~ck: dont make things worse
17 May 09, 01:33
CK to cloud: so? im out man.... U TOTALLY SUCKS... LAST POST....
17 May 09, 01:33
mei en~cloud: cloud,i..
17 May 09, 01:32
mei en~ck: ck,msg me
17 May 09, 01:32
cloud - CK: TT'S ALL. I'M DONE
17 May 09, 01:32
mei en~ck: i really tired of...blah
17 May 09, 01:32
CK to cloud: i didn't say anything abt that? so u r saying that alot of ppl don't like u?
17 May 09, 01:32
cloud - CK: dont let me catch u saying anything abt me again. one mre time.. YOU BETTER EAT Yr wORDS AND COME RP!
17 May 09, 01:32
mei en~ck: i am back to my old self..i wil not go msn for three mths. This time i break my promise,nxt time i wont
17 May 09, 01:31
cloud - ALL: Lsiten up.. if u all dont like me.. SAY!! come on!! dont be such hussy and criticise behind ppl's back!
17 May 09, 01:30
mei en to ck: ...
17 May 09, 01:30
CK to cloud: im so sorry.... but r u trying to be sarcastic again? ^^
17 May 09, 01:30
mei en to cloud: *also
17 May 09, 01:30
mei en to cloud: sorry alos
17 May 09, 01:30
mei en to ck: *ck
17 May 09, 01:30
cloud - CK: i'm out of this.. for her sake
17 May 09, 01:30
mei en to ck: sorry sk
17 May 09, 01:27
CK to mei en: oooooooh.... i don't like that...
17 May 09, 01:27
mei en to both: done?
17 May 09, 01:27
mei en to both: i am getting my pen knife ready
cloud - CK: AMAZINGLY
17 May 09, 01:27
cloud - CK: LOOK WHO;S TLAKING RITE NOW?
17 May 09, 01:27
cloud - CK: WOW.
17 May 09, 01:27
cloud - CK: COME LAHX. DONT HAMJI
17 May 09, 01:27
CK to cloud: who started the critising? wow....
17 May 09, 01:27
mei en to ck: haix...u al hor..want to see me die?
17 May 09, 01:26
CK to cloud: oops that for cloud
17 May 09, 01:26
mei en to cloud: i am taking out tag board after u al done
17 May 09, 01:26
cloud - CK: NO BALLS DONT COME CRITICISE PPL.. WATCH YR MOUTH!!! SMALL BOY!!17 May 09, 01:26
CK to mei en: haha... caps lock isn't gonna help u
17 May 09, 01:26
CK to mei en: i make peace n i don't break it unless it goes overboard
17 May 09, 01:26
mei en to cloud: don caps lock every word
17 May 09, 01:26
cloud - CK: DONT ACT SISSY AND CHICKEN OUT OKAY?
17 May 09, 01:25
cloud - CK: AIYA.. TALK KOK ONLY LAHX. IF NO GUTS JUST BE A MAN AND SAY!
17 May 09, 01:25
mei en to ck: ...i realli don noe wad to say
17 May 09, 01:25
cloud - CK: U THINK I SCARED OF U AHX! COME! WAN JIO FIGHT RITE COME!! U THINK U BIG AHX.
17 May 09, 01:25
CK to cloud: haha... u noe what? U suck... y would i wanna go find u? waste of time only sia.... haha
17 May 09, 01:24
mei en to cloud: pls..onegai! don scold vulgar on my blog
17 May 09, 01:24
mei en to ck: tag yr blog later
17 May 09, 01:24
mei en to ck: and u don noe i went rp now right?
17 May 09, 01:24
cloud - CK: NO BALLS DONT COME TALK KOK. CB
17 May 09, 01:23
mei en to cloud: don get angry
17 May 09, 01:23
cloud - CK: YOU GOT GUTS U COME! I'M GONNA GET IT RITE? YOU SIAD IT YRSELF WAT? WAT? NOW NO BALLS COME RP AHX!
17 May 09, 01:23
mei en to ck: hmm..u hor...
17 May 09, 01:23
CK to cloud: no one has dared to wanna fight me if they noe me... come la
17 May 09, 01:23
mei en to both: stop it!!!!!!!!!!!!
17 May 09, 01:23
CK to cloud: TP at 1pm on Mon.... i bet u cant even make it
17 May 09, 01:22
mei en to chan kang: hey..ck
17 May 09, 01:22
CK to cloud: u r really very welcome to find me
17 May 09, 01:22
CK: np
17 May 09, 01:22
mei en to chan kang: ck,don like tat
17 May 09, 01:22
mei en to chan kang: sorry
17 May 09, 01:22
CK: haha npnp come find me ba i see what will really nhappen
17 May 09, 01:22
mei en to chan kang: i am so sorry
17 May 09, 01:21
mei en to chan kang: sorry to the max
17 May 09, 01:21
mei en to chan kang: sorry
17 May 09, 01:21
mei en to chan kang: i am sorry
17 May 09, 01:20
mei en: i taking outb tag board
17 May 09, 01:20
cloud - CK: wat kbkp so much. IF U DARE!! COME FIND ME IN RP IF U HAVE THE GUTS TOO! say what I:M GONNA GET IT! come!! cb.
17 May 09, 01:20
mei en~cloud: i am gonna kill you
17 May 09, 01:20
mei en~ck: u mean who sarcastic? oh yamaha flute is not good
17 May 09, 01:19
cloud - CK: ehx CK come on lahx. U think u very good? **** OFF lahx. not happy come lahx. walan ehx. COME COME RP COME! U step fot into RP, u see what u get frm me.
17 May 09, 01:19
CK: lucky i alrd used to it
17 May 09, 01:18
CK: ok lor... another sarcastic person...
17 May 09, 01:18
CK: eh... yamaha
17 May 09, 01:17
mei en~ck: de tag is always like tat
17 May 09, 01:17
mei en~ck: and i think cloud
17 May 09, 01:17
mei en~ck: anyway,yr flute is wich brand? forget le
17 May 09, 01:16
CK: lol so good i not in band
17 May 09, 01:16
CK: really sia... wtf...
17 May 09, 01:15
mei en~ck: anyway,i nxt tues start band prac le
17 May 09, 01:15
mei en~ck: OMG! u serious?
17 May 09, 01:15
mei en~ck: u making me laugh
17 May 09, 01:15
CK: if i noe him he's gonna get it
17 May 09, 01:14
mei en~ck: hey..u chill out
17 May 09, 01:14
CK: im getting pissed more everytime i see that tag
17 May 09, 01:14
mei en~ck: why u wtf?
17 May 09, 01:13
mei en~ck: why is this sentence sarcastic?
17 May 09, 01:13
CK: wtf...
17 May 09, 01:13
mei en~ck: change blog skin
17 May 09, 01:13
CK: "Keep it up!=) enjoy yrself mre!!!=)" i shall say the truth
17 May 09, 01:11
mei en~ck: but why? i felt abit..in wad way?
17 May 09, 01:10
CK: i got the "feel" of sarcasm in that whole sentenc srzly
17 May 09, 01:09
mei en~ck: and u don stress up..i oso felt so. He tag til like very de..um..
17 May 09, 01:08
CK: eh... i propose not to say...
17 May 09, 01:08
mei en~ck: ****! tat is for ck
17 May 09, 01:08
mei en~cloud: oh..in wad way?
17 May 09, 01:07
CK: ps got too much ppl beside me always being sarcastic so i got some feeling to this
17 May 09, 01:06
CK: nvm... just got the feeling that cloud's sentence is quite sarcastic... lol...
17 May 09, 01:06
mei en~ck: and wad thing busy resting?
17 May 09, 01:06
mei en~ck: i catch no ball..
17 May 09, 01:04
CK: they were busy resting ar... lol
17 May 09, 01:04
CK: kind of have the sarcastic tone...
17 May 09, 01:03
CK: i shall not interfere but tht doesn't sound nice....
17 May 09, 00:48
mei en~cloud: i was thinkin bout what would u tag? Haix..
17 May 09, 00:47
cloud: heh. glad u enjoyed today! it was good. Seemed u had the courage to tell them after all. Keep it up!=) enjoy yrself mre!!!=)

What the hell man.. after everything i have done for her. this was what i got in return. Unexpected. Idk wat's gg on in this world. It seems tt kindness does nt beget kindness. Like wtf?
I mean I do not expect any thanks or watsoever from her. but how she sided him.. made me boil with anger..
How can she not see tt CK was in the wrond. fucking wrong? The wasy she took it out on me. Come on. ppl have eyes to see. When i rebutted CK, she said she's gonna kill me. When CK shot me back HARD!, what did she say? HEY CK, dont like tt. And like apologised to him 5 times? for FUCK?! okay lahx. it's seems like my fault lahx. I CANNOT SHOOT YR CK LAHX> YR CK CAN SHOOT ME LAHX. fine.
Why I bui song? WHY?? it's not cuz he commented on me being sarcastic. Tt dint really made me hot yet! The one which made me boil was he saying that I WILL GET IT FROM HIM IF HE KNEW ME!!
Come lahx. cb kia. knn. kpkb so much for wat? Wan Guailan rite? come lahx. Since u say want get it from you, COME RP FIND ME!! I'm in W15Q. COME! You wan guailan rite? i PEI u xialan! come lahx. CB. humji say dont wan waste time on me.
No guts dont come act big lahx. say wat ppl noe him also dont dare jio him one on one. COME! I be the 1st to jio him 1 on 1 lahx! wat?! now say "I dont break peace unless out of control!"
Dont come talk sai with me lahx. If He dint wanna break peace den in the 1st place already apologise abt saying behind my back. then everything ho liao wat?
He want chua daji den dont HUMJI. CB. wan GUAILAN but HUMJI. Go be sissy lahx.
Dui NAN REN DE LIAN!
Come on lahx. At last wat? tell gal such words, yr life isnt my business..
Such a BASTARD when MN's covering for him all this while.

I'm busy; she asked me tagged. Fine. i tagged. even went to read her blog. nvm. tagg already someone bo liao wan chui daji. nvm. I xialan with him. what i get from her? She scolding me off, in front of him. but to him, keep apologising. WTF okay? WTF!! What?? Dare to say sorry to him in our convo. dont sare say to me in tt convo also? Must say in msn? If she genuinely wanted to apologise, she shld have apologised to me in front of him too. WAT? behind closed doors apologise? What's the use? It's true u apologise lahx. I give u tt. but overall the whole picture. It makes me seem like the bad guy.
Fine, i be that bad guy. just noe long reconciling with her. and this happened.
b4 reconciling with her. I asked dennis; a church mate whom has been helping me out all these while. i told him abt my helping MN n stuff. and somehow she hated me. He told me not to care, tt girl got attitude problem. I chose to difer. still went back to talk to her. Nicely explain to her everything. Chose to seive out time to help her.. aft all this things... THIS IS WHAT I GOT FROM HER..
tt nite, i couldnt sleep until i had to blast music to keep me sleeping. I had never done it b4. I had never needed loud music to sleep. Tt nite was the only nite. One feels so hurt inside..
Was it a wrong choice to help her?? GOD hasnt told me.
Right now. good. If she really can see thru me so much, she should have seen thru CK long ago.
Let me tell u this, YOU have alrready been blinded by CK, always thinking CK's right, and I'm wrong, Even in arguement, CK's wrong, but you dint even try to stop him at all.
it's like for eg. you are wacked by some gals and you cannot defend yrself. Instead of me helping to stop those gals, I tell you not to wack back, not to defend yrself, let them wack u mre.
It's like tt. Come on. I had it already. YOU are blinded. tt now CK's trying to be tt hypocrite, u still remain clueless. I've nth to say, If u have so much negative tots abt me. Then fine, I wont bother u anymre. Cuz it's not gonna help with you constantly being blinded tt I'm the bad guy while yr CK is the bad guy yet his bad side totally remains invisible to u. Let me tell u why i say this.
U go n reflect. What he said yts. YR LIFE ISNT MY BUSINESS. and he doesnt reply anymre.
Yet aft suck a long time. He starts concerning abt u alraedy. "EXPLAINING' to u abt his harsh words. twisting n turning it. FINE. tt's even better, making me the most prominent bad guy here. What a crafty mindset. It's okay.
But to u. Let me just remind u. YOU be wary of him. You can dont trust my words, it's all up to you. Someday u'll noe; HE will play u out. U just await for tt day. I'll watch and see too.
Since tt is what u wan, I leave it to u. maybe our not being close can make u see truth in other ppl like yr CK. Again, sarcasm isnt what i'll do. esp to ppl i care for! this means u dont noe me well. At all. WTH!! I'm FUCKED, AGAIN!!

LATEST UPDATE!!

2009-05-15T09:50:00.000-07:00

CLASS ROX MAN!! W15Q

THE SMARTIES!!

ME and DEISI.

AMANDA'S BIRTHDAY!

GAY PARTNER! LOL. RAYSON!

... LOL. UT mock was like a killer??

Every1 tot was easy?? Hhas. Somehow my UT client got prob.So no need do.

but see the questions i can die alreday..LOL.

Lazy post ahx.Hmm.. wat's impt to post..Oh yahx..

I lost SOMEthing damn precious to me? In the past??

SIANZ only..but everything gotta pass on someday..

so guess. It was time to leave it..

Hm. what i did? JUBEAT?

lol.Lessons was ok.. oh yahx. wont forget tt F***-ing D enterprise lady gave me.

Stupid. Submitted Rj den she dint recieve. Prove to her. still say not her prob.

Den what she do? just said sorry to me.

What yr sorry represent A ahx..

anyway. yahx.

Russell still as competitve as ever.

present 13As, rest B

Me? 6A, 6B, 1C, 1D(fuck), 2X.Lol.

I pon once.

den sick just ytd..

Sianz whole class like sick one by one.

Siao Qing, Shima, today liesa..Me too.

duno who brought the flu in..

Zzz. Took a couple of class photos.

yahx..Den.. hmm., okay Bejewling? 109,600.. lol.

6th place sia..hahas. Katherine cant seem to beat my core..

Noob. Yet i cant beat Siao Qing's score..Sianz..

Lol. plus MAPLING!!..Damn CHIONG.

use 3X exp from 37 to 50! hahs. SEBEI zai!

lol.Still got wat??

.. hmm.. oh yahx.. Sort of settled some things with MeiEn.Now she's fine?

good Good. at least tt's better. GOD guide me thru.

yahx. SO UT's next week.

And I'm like gg to POTONG PASIR??@!!!!

to study?

lol. Kat, Liz, CRAZY CHRISTINA, Aaron, me.
LOL. crap alot with Kat n Christ ytd. WALAO. WE all 3 DAMN funny.
HAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!
LOl. Abt Eric. Den abt my "threat". den abt Brian. .. lol. List goes on.

WHOLE WEEK OF EVENTS!!

2009-04-26T09:32:00.000-07:00

Man! a whole full week dint POST!! Let me see!! It's like 9 DAYS! not posting!!
So you can really see how busy i am..
LOL. I guessed i alredy touched on orientation? YAHX! FUN!!.
uploading photos in awhile. NOT to worry!.
As yahx.
Just a SLIGHT breakdown! I'm tired sia..
Monday~~~~...
Meet new classmates. new grp mates. new FACCI!? lol.
I totally pawned the whole class can?? TOTALLY!! Man i felt great sia. lol. Really.
Cuz Facci was touching on a subject called BLOOD! And i totally spilled all the ANONYMOUS words out. Agglutination. .. blah blah blah.. and the like. with all the conceptual knowledge.!
it was totally cool lahx. Like ppl staring at you! like some kind of KNOW-IT-ALL guy..
MAN! totally rock. And i felt so great. esily mingling with the whole class. But every class has a rival. Mine's russel! He's good as well! A whole NEW competition! Love it!. Aft sch. went out with PUSSY, SHAWN, ZH, EDDY, RAYSON, SALLY, MEI EN, plus other gals. went to amk! LOLs.last min some had to leave.. yahx. den just went arcade.played dere. supposed to watch movie de. end up dint. lol.-.-'''. think sally was angry? idk. lol. yahx. den met JiaWen n Dennis. Had some talk. Ate ASTONS!. lol. aft tt went to join Brendan. With his jie i think. K-box til like 11.45 i zao. -.-''. diaoz. rush all the way to mac to hand in my reflections lahx. guess wat. i handed in at 11.58? close!! phew.. and i got an A!! Facci loves me. hahas.
Tuesday~~~~.....
Had maths. Facci wasnt bad. quite okay.. was msning in his class. cuz buttsex was like keep opening mass chat room. diaoz. den say all those rubbish? lol. Make me laugh too. Having them around also relieve stress i guess. kept having lunch at TRCC. told them if everyday i eat here. will POKKAI sia. Not kidding. lol. i Kinda forgot what we did during tuesday.. but did go out too. Just cant seem to remember sia. Sad! Had Dinner at pastamania lol. too bad fwen wasnt working on tt day. hahas no 30% discount. lol. Den went arcade. ZH n eddy left. -.-'' so left me shawn Jen n Huss. yahx. watched Knowing? Nice Show, but crappy ending. Adam N Eve..
Went home aft tt. cab home. lol. late hand in RJ. but. phew,. was able to=)
Wednesday~~~~....
Had some programming class. Initially i tot was some crap. like some stupid things like Java n watever. but seems fun. the turtle thing! Yet again russell's team wasnt tt bad at it too!. A sure competetive rival sia. lol. den was too lazy stayed in class. lol. lessons ended pretty early like 2.50? when it's supposed to be 3.30 den end? ll. den i stayed in class til like 4? nth to do. very lazy lahx. den Gen N Shawn came to meet me. hahs. ZH too. Den went down to Iluim. beside bugis street. yahx. Went to Manhattan Fish Market. Wanted go interview but dint go in the end. lol. Too late. Only me n ZH ate dere. rest ate at LJS? yahx. Alot of crap happened lahx. split bill n stuff. lol. MUD-PIE was nice! lol. not bad!=). den aft tt went shisak! lol. So dere was the man(s) to man(s) talk(s)! HAHS. wat a laugh. so got to know. world's so small. Gen knew Leon. lol. den i noe rochell which was Gen's ex. lol.den Leon's my best friend. lol. Complicated. Anyway. went home aft tt.
Thursday~~~~....
Had some stupid cognitive processes n learning thing. Dont really like the FACCI though. but anw new lesson i'm touching on. though quite tired! Wanted doze off! lol. so yahx.. RJ wasnt long heck care. Lol. Went out aft school again. LOL. Feel like i’m kinda not following school life.. lol. Stil in the HOLIDAY LIFESTYLE.. So went TRCC wait for shawn. In the end went to mac. Slack sia.. lol. Den this stupid thing abt msn btwn me n shawn. ...lol. den eventually ZH n shawn went home so left Pussy me n Gen. Watched “FRIDAY THE 13TH!”wth. Freaking cool! Den we made a bet. Saying tt if some gal inside the show were killed. Jason will pay me a visit tonite! In the end. The gal really DIE! OMG! Den i went home.. lol. Kinda forgot abt the JASON thingy. So just slept. Hahas. Lucky it dint come true. Though had some stupid nightmare but not abt jason. Lol. Helped Mei En with some stuffs..
Friday~~~~....
Wahx! I find this lesson freaking boring yrt no link. Enterprise. Yet isnt talking abt business. However, it’s like referring to some definition of a person’s character. And HOLY!! Throughout the whole lesson, i wasnt listening the FACCI at all. Was kinda sucky though. Tired too. Last day of the week. Energy really all drained. Anw. Lunch time dint go with Buttsex to TRCC. But joined Mei en n Deisi for lunch. Cuz Mei En’s not eating yet her gastric’s always happening. Deisi’s fwen were eating somehwere so asked her join us. Ate at KouFu. Den this egg tart thing. Lol. So okay. Was late for halping out in my grp’s presentation too. Was talking to Mei En. Hope the time sarcrificed was worth it. Anw. RP came to RP? Lol. For some bible study thing. Yahx. Met her in library. Yahx. Den Deisi came over. Went to find those buttsex guys. They were like watching?? POWER RANGERS.. the 1st acient power ranger movie. GOSH!
Really reminds of the past. Yahx. Anw. Went back to library. Den some stupid guy. Idk who. Either shawn which is most probably or eddy keep asking if i n Deisi were together in library. I told them not when we actually were. I mean they were again make up some stupid stories lahx.. lol. Den make Deisi really paiseh. We were dere doing RJ n Financial schemes thing. With facebook n everything. Ll. Den true enough the whole buttsex grp found us.. damn.. started their teasing esp eddy!!
I feel like slapping him. Though sometimes he’s really joking. “ehx u use his comp, and he use yours for wat ahx? Booking hotel ahx... ehx wrong.. restaruant ahx?” stupid sia! Walao. Make me n her super PS lahx. Lucky Deisi dint mind much. Told me she ignored them. Phew. Relieved . Aft tt went to eat at pastamania with her. Still ask me eat her share? I’m like full le lohx. Lol. Eating 1 ½ share of pasta.. sianz. Lol. Den talked abt orientation we dint talk to one another den she keep looking over. Den someone ask her wat she looking at.. lol . tt’s funny! Hahas. Cant believe it. N she actually admired my face. Lol. Cuz very smooth. Yahx. Lol. Tt aft tt send her to mrt. Went back find the guys. Foolsball area. Den helped Mei En with her changing of pw cuz of her sis. Haiiz. Pity her. So many problems. Hope she hangs in there=) aft tt. Went home lohx. Yahx.

2009-04-18T22:06:00.000-07:00

SIANZ. Thousand and 1 things to post!! ahx..
Where to start..
Went botanical garden just the other sunday..
Had some picnic aft Dennis's baptism.
Went to novena's coldstorage to buy food stuff.
Saw QingLin. Haven seen her in awhile.
LOL. so yahx. had picnic dere.
took a few pics. played some DUMB games.. shit man.. have pics to PROVE!!
anw. went off aft tt. went home..
Hmm. LIFE's just full of surprises n unexpectances..

Went for RP's orientation! REPUBLIC POLY!!
Day 1! still rmbr I was like freaking late somehow? so took cab down.
Thinking every1 will reach on time..
Damn it. waste my cab money sia..
Like wtf. lol. even at 9.45 ppl are still strolling into the hall?
And guess wat? OUR SIT hall's like not air-conned. but the hall beside..
Is like freaking filled with air-cons lahx. the SAS ppl.
It was like so hot dere. sat dere an hr waiting for e registration to end.. ll.
dere next was some GRP gathering.. I was in grp 20..
somehow.. SOMEHOW!! it was named BUTTSEX! wtf rite? i was like huh.... okay.....
initially was buttsocks.. how the names popped out i also dunno..

anw. yahx. played some presidents challenge.
like 40 plus game stations.
1st was abt some game abt preventing egg to crack when dropped frm a high storey..
lol. den some other games, lunch was "MOSTLY--provided"cuz they gave us some 3 dollar coupon for the day.. but like wth.. the food was all priced at minimum 3.50. -.-'''..
was like wth.. diaoz... couldnt they give like 3.50 coupon?
anyways. games continued tiil 4 plus. team soccer, some ball games some spiderman web thing.etc. went off aft tt. met brendan n RP. den went off to his chalet. Passed mervyn e stitch anyway.

Chalet was like soso.. lol. only those few ppl went. not much bahx.
I was like playing with the dogg! tt's the only thing i enjoyed doing. lol.
den went home around 1 plus..
2nd day! came to noe abt ROASTED!! whom became my pal for the orietation..
good pal aft all. lol. den got to noe someone called sally. den another emo girl who always wore black. plus Alfro dude. JJ. plus the WHO AM I! guy! tt's gotta be a laugh!
Mus plus PUSSY! plus shawn plus Jen plus ZI HONG plus some ACTCOOL guy..
Forgot his name. PLus some other ppl. hmm oh yahx, tigress n small girl.. lol.
tt's abt it. I couldnt forget the "4WAYS thing" damn funny!
Roasted was like screaming every1's name whoever passed by.. like wth..
den day 2 comes all the pervert-ness. who's HOT who's not.. Saw quite a few chio de.. only for see-ing. lol.

Our grp was also some slacker's yet kiasu grp. Hahs. not bad. 1st 1 to rush to eat. but when pricipal give talks, our whole grp decided to skip!
Damn pro. den played foolsball lohx.. Spelled this way? not sure..
yahx.. tt's for foolsball. lol. Den almost kana caught but dint. Lol. den some other tug of was thing? lol. SIT lost also.
While this grp 20 just have fun on their own. throwing things here n there. lol. Damn fun grp.

Oh yahx. dint mention Xiaotong was like admiring jen n Zi Hong already? lol.
Her actractiveness tt power mehx? lol.
den these 2 buggers keep bugging me help them cuz i noe her.. schoolmate. -.-''
Diaoz. n ZCONGRATS to roasted man! HE"S the MAN! lol
Had the courage to go up to the girl he likes n ask for her email n number..
All tt shit! i really give it to him! Man!
Den aft tt was like kinda sad.. for some reason for emo--ed offf.. lol.
Went to breandan's chalet stay overnite!
JX was like preparing 20! disgusting drinks for him! the Billy bombers wine plus martel!
FUCK sia they force like a couple if sips down my throat!
My ears were already getting super RED!!
i cannot hold liquor!
Brendan was like drunk in a few cups lahx! good GOD!
guess wat? He was so drunk he PUKE too!
THANKS man! THE WHOLE place smell like shit! really. stinks..

Anw. Wei Xiong n Wen shen was like teaching me MahJong..
Great! now at least i noe the basics lol.
Slept at 3am..

2009-04-14T08:49:00.000-07:00

Today really digg myself up for work..
lol. It's really DIGG can?
bobian playde l4d til so shuang! LOL!
played til 4 den sleep. lol.
Johnny n Kor ton with e 2 girls mahx.
SIAO de ton til 6. ll. work at 12. Sebei tired ahx..
Den today Fucking supervisor also gl me. Piang.
early at work scold liaoz. Dulan her back lahx.
Give her tt chou lian. ZZZ..
sianz lahx.
make me serve customers also no mood serve.
Face so black yet cant force tt smiile on myself.
Lizzy als told me not to care abt her.. stupid supervisor.

Break time met RP. Lol she came all e way down frm wd.. =)
hahas. passed her some stuffs den walked lohx.
Did some buying. for tt bday guy.
End up searching things for myself too.
Jeans. 69 bucks from spade.. aiya. just buy..
Saw Pris n Venise just now.
talked rather long. Lol.
Break ended. den RP left le.

Nite was even mre POWER! Piang. Put me 3 stations!
Station C, D, Bar Runner! Wahx.
Pam thinks i'm superman ahx?
Siao ehx. Like mad dogg sia.
Customers one after another. Waving hands. Attending to them. Breathless.
Cleared tables like siao too.
Totally sick lahx. ...

Here's the fun part!!
Jun xiang already prepared out birthday HOLY water for e birthday boy!
gave me an inside-peek...
The water is fucking DISGUSTING can?
Stingray Black Pepper mix, Mussels Calamari Prawn MIX, Chlli crab Sauce!!
tt's wat i call WTF!
Pam n Leye was involved too.
GREAT SIA!
lol ME JUN XIANG N BRENDAN all Half-Naked!
lol fucking disgusting.
the smell already turn me off. piang.
worst than SHIT smell sia.. so u all can imagine. lol.
Plus they put ICE! sianz no pics!!
I kana like mre than bday boy!!
wth.. i tot bday boy supposed to be saboed most.. ll.
tt was his celebration bahx. den off for home!

2009-04-11T11:01:00.000-07:00

3 PICS OF SOME NEW HAIRSTYLE I TRIED TO CREATE...

HOT-FUDGE SMILEY PANNA COTTA! HOLY!

2AM le. still blogging. lol. today went to Great World City work.. BOH need staffs..

1 person. ME! running all fryer station! Sambal Fish, Swordfish Collar. Fish&Chip, Newyork, Captain Hook, Fish Tales, Fried cala, Mussels garlic, Chips.

Wahx! can do until i die ahx. plus orders not 1 by 1 come de lehx.

All 1 shot yet lots of orders at diff timings. 0.0!!!

But their food hatch is super big can?! can see all the customers lahx! plus it's even cooling than AMK fish&co outlet. Ours if were to compare like SAUNA!

bad thing is. here de pantry is BOH do de. whax. good seh! all we do. die lahx. lol.

Met new fwens, Vi Ting(name so special), ah tan(kitchen supervisor), Xiao Hui(pro kia), n lots mre lahx.

Lol. like some orientation.. noe so many ppl. hahas.

Went home woth VT n kor. VT lives in sem, we amk. lol.

anw. something happened to RP..

something sort of wat i've gone thru in the past. gonna pray for her!

Hope situations gets better. Hope so..

Haiiz. had arguements with aunt just noe also. dont wanna mention abt it too.

Haiiz. feel very bad for Rp. Cant seem to help her out.

though i clearly noe wat she's going thru i've already gone thru b4.

but seems dere isnt any solution to it. Sianz.=( i'll just pray to GOD.

Lillian's side. just sms her today.. act she smsed me 1st.

talk n talk. here n dere. good things bad things.. tt sort..

2mre's dennis baptism day. must attend! force myself wake up again..

den some picnic which i last min knew?!..

so can forget abt badminton session with kor.. -.-''

Hope to go out 2mre n not work. i got schedule lehx. but dont feel like working.. sianz..

HAIIZ!!!

PICTURES OF ME ALONE!!=)

2009-04-09T20:25:00.000-07:00

RECENT SENTOSA PIC

TT'S AT MAC. WITH TONGUE STICKING OUT..

K-BOX?=)

WAHx! OSCAR AWARD WINNING PICS!=0

2ND HAIR DYE COLOUR!

JIE SAID SO "MAN!" -.-''''

1ST HAIR COLOUR! AH BENG..? LOANSHARK.. BUT FRAKING NICE!

BLEACHING PROCESS.. LOL

TT'S ME IN SCHOOL UNI. RANDOM PIC..

Finally had some freaking time to upload all my pics.

More on the way lahx!. sianz Today's good Friday!

I forgot everything sia. dere's this ester day thing at my church too.

held at expo. plus some other church's invitation to their ester celebration.

Forgot all abt it! damn. Freaking old le. lol. And RP also cant go out.

Relatives at her hse. sianz. Kor working at great world city today!

GOOD FRIDAY! 1.5x pay sia! i also working. but somesort dun wanna work tt kind of feeling lehx lol.

only work 5 hrs today. sianz so little=(. lol.

2mre another 4 hrs nia at great world city. sianz lahx! lol.

damn pay slip gone missing sia! dunno who take.

SHITTY! got freaking lots of things to do! ARRGH!

Kor's present i also haven buy yet dunno buy wat for him sia.

haiiz,. sianz....

lol anw.

HAPPY ESTER DAY!!!

2009-04-06T12:38:00.000-07:00

Read someonne's blog? Dint feel like sleeping though knowingly very well i gotta wake up freaking early 2mre.
anw. moodless? tt's the word for it.
alot of things are still memories in my mind.
However one would like to forget, it just cant be done. somehow.
0.0'' she dint tell me she had an ex b4.
Tt's interesting. seems like i know even lesser abt her than Kor. lol
...
hmm.. dint have much to post thoug.
OH YAHX!! PAY DAY'S IN!!!
Have been waiting for this day. lol
700 bucks? not bad ahx.
though their still owe me quite a lump sum of hours not credited yet into tis month's pay.
N Kian Min came to dine at F&C today...
lol. dint expect to see him.
=) saw alot of ppl today. n some demanding customers.
overall not bad.. hahas..=).

haiiz
moodless...

2009-04-05T11:46:00.000-07:00

FORCED myself to wake up can?
I was like so not ready to wake up at all luhx.
But Bobian. Church come 1st.
Laptop's finally ready! Can finally use le..
Which also means i'll have alot of admin stuffs to be done!!!
GOSH!! heck of things to do!!
Went church til 11!
Celebrated birthday's for APRIL babies! lol.
Louisa - 3 april. -.-'' hahas
Leon - 5th april! today!
Yong Jie - 10th april
Lol. Had come cake which i thought was homemade. turned out to be bought from some market stall.
LOL>!
Went off to meet jie n her NEW bf. lol. den brendan den lin zi!
Good lohx. suan me whole day. say my knife how come not sharp enough. lol.
Reached Harbourfront station, brendan n Deon bought chicken rice. ate at mrt stairs dere.
SUPER suei! Piang! Security guard caught them den took their IC.
he said he was gg to pass their names to the station manager. Up to him whether they wanna fine them anot.
LOL. $500 bucks each if really tio fine sia.
Lucky dont have. just verbal warning.
And stupid rain whole day. Took train down to sentosa's siloso beach.
Played volleyball n frisbee. Lol. Was mainly their photographer. hahas.
Went inside the sea too. F*ing salty can? LOL. brendan keep wanting to "Catch" fish.
Hahas. FUN though. but tiring too. left e beach at arnd 6 plus den went to market eat.
Quite rundown infact. took 166 back to amk.
Every1 was like freaking shak! me n linzi slept lahx! whole way through. Den the rest went home.
only left me n linzi. Went to watch SHINJUKU INCIDENT. She bought damn lot of food can? Hello Panda, Potato chips, Durian puffs, durian pancake, n drinks just for 1 movie.
Hahas
Wasnt very nice though, no ending. ... tongpang linzi's Cab hom=)
anw. will post pics soon!

2009-04-05T11:26:00.000-07:00

Just gonna post for these 2 days!!
Maybe i should sicktrack alittle too.
LOL!. Let me see. Will just type anything my brain's thinking instanteously.
Hmm. Oh yahx. Damn@! this mths fone bill SHOT TO!!.. 82 bucks! F***.
There goes my $$$..
Haiiz.. Hmm Sheryl's side. I think everythings's fine?
GT's side. i wouldnt wanna say tt much either.
Mel's side. hope she's fine with her life.
MY LIFE?! crappy as ever. met up with dennis just the other day. a week ago?
Poured everything out. ll. Praying Does Help After All!!
Elena's helping me out too.
Still have loads of things not done. When can i really rest man...
Study loan. tuition loan. Gov Loan. Loan Loan Loan..
Piang! As usual stil looking for secong job.Lol. Chocolate promotors called me.
sadly i rejected them??
hahas. Ytd went out with RP n kor. Went woodlands n saw this performance.
N SAW OUR SCHOOL"S CIO INSTRUCTOR as well.. woah.
Performance was by SCO.
Hmm. Met her. She was like wearing so formal.. ?? same as kor. very pei
I was like only wearing a plain t shirt n jeans? lol.
Went bugis. Ate at MANHATTEN FISH MARKET!
The counterfeits of Fish&Co.
Not kidding. stole receipe n all. Improvise.. Anw. Food was soso. except for their Flamming sauce which i was quite impressed.
Ordered quite alot can? Sambal Fish, Fish&Chips, Platter for 1, all shared with 3 ppl.
Rp dint eat much. eat here n there.
Dont think she had e mood too. Know why..
Kinda guilty she reached home tt late.
her parents are bound to screw her up.
Sianz.. Haiz. Hope she will just be fine bahx..=(
watched "SECRET" later at home. watched til 4?
It reminds me of many stuffs.. Haiiz.. including lillian. cuz they look alike?
SLEEP!!! anw. pictures will soon be uploaded bahx.. =)

2009-03-20T21:18:00.000-07:00

The 1st thing i wanna say is!!
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!
Dunno why. but i just felt like saying tt. outburst of anger? maybe.. Damn
1mth no postings at all.
I'm damn busy..
Day in day out.
-WORK
-OUTINGS
-TONNING..
lol. cant really remember wat i did for the past whole mth..
ll. Had midnite stock count? til like 2am? den had steamb0at aft tt.
Tt was like 3 weeks ago? or more than tt? Lol.
... hmm.. went dye hair?0.0''
LOL. short term memory getting worse n worse lol.
MOVIES!
Watched alot!
Marley n me,
My Bloody Valentine,
Curious Case of Benjamin Buttons
PUSH,
Dragonball Evolution,
Race to Witch Mountain.
many others too
Oh yahx. Dyed hair twice.
Went back NP camp. With 1st hair dye.
GOSH!
Like ah long like tt. lol. but actually quite nice lahx. lol
Went back sch for speech day too.
Went work.
Went to Cathay Cineleisure a couple of times. Went out with Jie Kor n Lingzhi too!
Plus wei Sing. went his chalet dint do anything.
Kor Rented car frm fri to monday. 210 bucks.
Went to Wei Sing's chalet, Cathay Cine. Bishan J8, amk. ll
Sat drove Hua Jie to CD shop. den went bishan with GT. den went sembawang to talk to manager dere. den went to woodlands to see kor's grandma. den went back amk to eat fish&co.
lol
Ate with Vivian n GT. Hahas Wan was dere. He was aming at Vivian? lol.
Kor also but cuz she too small so he dint wan play. Sunday Went Cine with Jie n Jiawang. Watch Race to Witch mountain. Den they went clark quay drink dint wan. so went home.
Ytd "CAMPED" at home like fuck.
today just talked with JIE! her bf 4 yrs with her le lehx. lol.
tt's long. JIE told me some private things. =(. should listen to her. i guess.

2009-02-21T22:21:00.000-08:00

Saturday!!
Tina's PERSONAL Birthday Cake!!

Tina's MANGO cake!!

Clark Quey River! NICEEE... serenity..

CELL GRP Gathering.. i can be photographer.lol.

Boat Taxi!

Damn.. Slept at 4am! N VOMITTED 3 TIMES?!! Try tt in the middle of the night..
Lol. Put up at Kor's hse.. Was like TOO DRUNK! Head was like freaking pain..
Bobian. Slept on floor. With 2 pillows.. Slept on Kor's bed. was better lahx.
At least pain was relieved. Lol. Kasiao. watched SMILING pasta! Super CUTE!!! =)
KOR also super kasiao. frm say watch til 1st album end til watch til eps 11. lol.
den he went swiming. din wan to. anw. headed down to clark quey. Siu Kim's leaving youth ministry. So she wanted buy us dinner. ate at some italian restruant. wasnt tt nice. potion yet small n expensive. wasnt worth it.. but.. Siu Kim's paying so no choice. cant say a thing. anw. just gathered at the lake n talked.
Every1 went home aft tt. i went back amk. remembered abt Tina's birthday. Lol. No1 bought cake for her. 9 Plus went to look for cakes. Lucky haven close. Bought two cakes for her. Cuz tot there will be alot of ppl. so might nt be enough. lol. den only left cherry n leonard. tina n me. lol. celebrate in MAC? hahas fish&co ppl celebrate in MAC. lol. Den went home.=)

Friday! Double O PUB!
KOR and ME.. DBL O!

Me And Kor.. DBL O!

ME, KOR, JIE, Jie's Darling..

Same.. --.''

Nice ahx?! hhas

Clique!

LOL. tt's me.. n JIE! CHIO right? lol

KOR n JIE.. With HErR darling...

CHIO JIE=)...

Dazzled...

LES? lol

Both very pei??

ok....

Kor.. LingZhi..

Tons of her pics

Kor n Jie

...

same...

Gosh.. dere's alot...

sianz... hahas

Jonathan.. unkwown friend..

OMG! Jie hate him. lol

DBL O PUB!!

Centre stage..

Okay.. Friday.. Met dennis at mac. Talked to him for a while. ARCADE. lol. went Kor's hse later. Started watching WEIXIAO pasta.. Smiling Pasta. Lol. went to Jie's hse later. had dinner dere.! Her mum was such great COOK lahx! her dinner super nice!! Went to cur hair! cuz kor wanted to. den followed him to cut hair. Jie followed also. Lol. 24 bucks just for some lousy haircut. Really lousy lik hell... zzz.. nvm.. So they were like deciding whether or not to go DBL O or ZOUK. Sianz. both was like need 21 yrs of age den can. ZOUK was cuz free entry cuz friday. so 21 yrs old. DBL O's also 21. cuz friday. SOOOOOOO....... they decided on DBL O.. miracly got INTO DBL O.. they dint check IC?!? I was like stunned? lol. entrance fee was like 25 bucks? but i GOT IN!. lol. Kor also haven reach age limit. but still older than me lohx. LOL. 20 yrs old nia. Hahas. JIE 21! cannot believe rite?! hahas.so old yet look so young. -.-''' anw. inside realy lots of CHIOBU lahx. wth. It's like 80% of them all freaking chio! Gosh. never see so many in my life. LOL. bought martel n tequila. Damn. 1st time drinking such HEAVY liquor. And 3 of them!. Drinking all those.. with all the loud jukebox.. though it was hard to drink.. it reminded me... of somethings i had long put down in my life.. How Come Things Just Cant Be Forgotten when i just wana forget them? It took so long.. It took months.. It took so much outta me to reallly put something which i knew i cant really shove it out of my life.. and now when i had finally slowly let it go.. why do things always come back to me? why do even dreams have u as a part of it?.... KOR already told me to put it down. Encouraged me n all.

anw. getting drunk n drunker as time pass. Left at 2am. Went to some nearby coffee-shop eat bakuteh. Took taxi home. Send LingZhi home 1st. den Ah Jie home. Just dunno why.. somehow needed to letoff some steam.. either i'm drunk or sth else.. Wanted to spar with Kor. First to hit wins. At tt time, i just had no feelings at all. I dint care whether i was gonna get hit. i Dint care whether i was gg to bleed, I was going to be injured. I was going to feel pain. I just wana fight. I dint care if he was my KOR. i dint held back. n KOR knows what's on my mind. KOR knows i wan this. So it was a fight we both dint held back. He was a good fighter. NOW is. I just barely managed to punch his stomach while his fist swings towards my nose. BLED. but who cares. i Dint care abt anything else at tt time. bleed den bleed. bones break den leave it broken. Why has some1 made such great impact on my life? I just dont get it. ANw. Went to KOR's hse to put up for the night. kept vomitting. slept at 4. dint had enough rest i guess. middle of the nite still went to vomit. but was okay the next day.....

Thursday!

Signed up with Fitness 1st? went work out. was quite good.. nth else..

Went to Bugis with GT. She wanted to see wallet. Went dere. Bought ice-cream. went work..

Dont feel like writing anything at all.

Wednesday!

Slept at 7am to 10am. 3 hours At least i hope it helped brandon study lol. worked whole day aft tt.

Tuesday!
Brendan @ Mac studying.. Unbelievable-.-''

Worked den went to pei KOR. 11pm. all the way til 7 am, Dint sleep. Unbelievable he was so keen on studying.. Never seen him tt into studying before...

TRY wearing tt walking in orchard road..

SOmeday i saw this.. try doing tt in public...

Valentines's Day..

Alot of couples, alot of ppl. Yet i still agreed to work. Whole day. Either way, my heart still breaks.. i still remembered.. the chocolates she gave... in a purple hand-made wrapper.. done with so much sincerity. With a note. Silvered. i rememeber.. A box of chocolates. a box of expensive chocolates.. she bought.. I'll never forget tt.. it's been 1 year.. ever since valentines day.. Even the initial wrapper of tt chocolates wasnt even opened..

somehow i kept it.. was it far to precious to be touched, to be unwrapped, to be eaten. ..

16th..

I saw her. I really dint expect to see her. I was working..

I was working. I was focused on working all tt while.

Venise was dere. Pris was dere.

But my eyes just came in sight of her. at 1st sight. I only saw her.

but as..

my eyes scanned for ppl arnd her..

i Saw.. Her new lover...

NT..

perhaps he suit her better.

take care of her better.

LOVE her.. better.. than what i have..

goodbye.. to her..

NT. thanks for takiing care of her..

Wish you all the best., long-lasting reationship..

Please take care of her properly frm now on..

She loves you.. You know it.

Treasure her love, NT

2009-02-15T20:10:00.000-08:00

... haven been online...
Tt's long. Probably thw whole week wasnt free..
Lots n Lots to post..
LOTS!! ok..

Just 1st post frm mon to fri..

Guess tt's good enough? lol..

Monday was just working all the way.. so nth much happened.. Some RM thing..

Tuesday.. went down to Ritz Calton but den dint have IC so was asked to come back another day..

Think i went to Fish&Co and kinda helped them out with kitchen.

Free Labour.. Lol. 7 HRS!! MIND YOU!!

Wednesday went out with ALL 3 kors! brendan, Jun Xiang n Wei Xiong.. lol.

I'm youngest in F&C. so yahx. they are my kors. lol.

Went to watch M18 Underworld.. -.-''. =). nth much also. jus plain fighting n fighting.

for once i commented tt show wasnt interesting. Lol. Den WX went home.

Actually had plans for Kbox. but WX ps. lol.so went Pool. played a few rounds.

They started playing billard.

I watch til i fell asleep can?! lol

very like super tired..-.-''

Brendan left at 8 for some fwens party. drinking and all. so only left me n JX. talk crap n all.

lol. just had dinner at KFC den went home..

PAY CAME IN!! lol. but kinda short of cash.. yahx.

Thursday! went GT's hse. lol. stil remembered she left her key at the gate lock. dangling..

Dint even lock it? lol. lucky no1 realised.. -.-''.. den went off to meet Brendan Kor at his hse. watch some videos abt CHI martial arts... Kung Fu...

Kbox with him!! hahas. pictures all on top. we eat like crazy?! the tidbits person also shocked we ate so much. hahas. free flow mahx.. lol. sang arnd nite time went aljunied den went home..

Friday........................... i Forgot!!. will post again, lol.

Rushing for time.. hahas. so short post 1st.. gotta work.. =l...

2009-02-08T00:42:00.000-08:00

Pri Sch 6B Class Gathering.. EXTRA Jun Chai 6A.=)

Plus the GIRLS...

COMPLIMENT FORM!! For me!!=)

Super Straight Hair.now..

MY HAIR!!!! the best..

.. haven been very keen on posting these day. dont noe why.. any.. just noe i've bee spending alot these few days.. lol. ytd. 1st day working in Fish&Co Novena FOH.. guess what? lol... i've got like 2 compliments in just tt short shift of 4hrs!!.. lol.. so impressed by myself too.. hahas. Forgot to post quite a few pics.. & gotta get a style for my hair.. Sianz. now just cut so hair short.. nt nice yet.. Have to like wait for 2 mths before the actual hairstyle gets it's shape. tt's long. miss my long hair. lol. anw.. today went expo nike sale. went day for the last 2 days. 1st day was like closed when i went dere? 7pm close. 2nd day went earlier. like 4 plus? but was long super long queue. Gave up. today esp woke up early just to go. lol!! it's like worth it? Bought like 2 shoes? for just 120 total!! nice!! pity those ppl who missed this warehouse sale.. Hahas.. yahx. tt's all..

Okay.. just gt off frm work.. sianz..
Almost got another compliment. Hahas.
ALMOST.. Today ended quite early? yahx..
Boght swordfish collar for fam mems.
anw. yahx. train thing,
duno why. when board train dere's this girl.
think she looked kinda familiar..
but somehow cant regconise her.
She looked damn chio can?
I was like looking at her reflection at the train window.
She keep looking back..
I was like thinking.. Do I really noe this girl..
Cuz it's like when i look at the reflection, her eyes was always meeting mine as soon as I looked..
wth..
lol..
even when left train. also same stop. AMK..
purposely walk infront of me.
...-.-'''
den came out of station. coincidentally met Ke Jun..
lol. was talking to her den turned to look. she looked back..
wat the.. zzz.. okay.,, tt's strange. but anw. left to other exit..
lol.

2009-02-05T07:21:00.000-08:00

WhEn LiFe GeTs HaRd.. SCREW IT!!
yupps. tt's some inspiration i gt frm sme1=)..
Even KOR aslo told me.. abt his past n all..
How sme ppl fang ta fei ji.. how he brokedown..
everything.. but anw. I have really given up.
It's been so long already..
deceiving oneself isnt gg to get me any further in LIFE.
In down times, i keep procrastinating. keep lying to myself. Keep every troubled matters with me.
I'm foolish.. tt's how i find myself..
& i just thought back, in 10 years time when i look back upon myself on this matter..
I would find myself so foolish.. to have let such a thing distract my life. affect my mood.
Maybe it was GOD's will. GOD's doing for a greater purpose for me in life.
Who would have thought tt?
Thanks for those ppl who really brought joy to me. thanks. inc RP!! hahas. thanks. small sis.
Went to work today. Have been hacing those sudden dizziness. like 1 sec black out.
think it's the 3rd time already.just suddenly body shut down for a sec. kind of thing
hope nth's wrong with me. lol.
Went to cut hair!! at Novena. last haircut was like $36? Hair mechanics? Today was frm another saloon.. Hair Monsoon! woah.
they had like a range of hairstylist!! dint noe..
stylist. $24
leading stylist. $34
Stylist manager. $49
Designer manager. $89
... Director or wat.
and tt's like $204 for just haircut!!
wth.. mine was stylist manager.
Lol. Girls hairstylists was even mre ex..!!-.-''..
Did some treatment. Relaxer. tt was wat cost me a bomb.. $198!!! 0.0~~..
plsu shampoo $33.
hair they did ironing, cut. wash. blow..
yahx.. total was like $252. ..
Hair now super straight.
totally diff. but cant say whether nice anot. sianz.
lol
.. yahx. tt's all..

2009-02-02T19:28:00.000-08:00

heh. every1! Was lazy to post. Lol. Had gathering just the other day. Sunday? 6B gathering.
went on quite smoothly though alot of ppl backed out last min.
Lol, HL was like pissed? hahas. But okay.. nth seemed wrong. Hahas.
Guess everybody was like shocked? cuz every1 changed so much.
Except for the girls of course. lOL. Guys were like so much diff frm pri sch. HAHAS.
TT's wat the girls told us. Lol. was late.. -.-'' cuz went visiting at church fwens's hse.
Whole cell grp went. Joshua's hse. FOOD!! was yummy! esp curry with bread!
should have taken photo.. they bought like 10!!!! loafs of those longish bread! lol.
displayed my culinary skills!! HAHAS!! kidding. Yongjie was better than me. =)
Plus their turtles! were like UBER big n loads can? played some game "Uranium"? i think..
aft tt was class gathering. ate at F&C! ahhas. abt 11 ppl. mainly guys. lol. i paid like 50? .. total was like 175 plus plus..
Went to watch movie.. "All Well Ends Well" i think. nice show. lol. but never believe in unexpected things .. some things anw.
aft tt went to sports link? bernard searching for dumbbells. lol. all so ex. think aft tt everybody left. yahx.. 2 weeks ltr another gathering. Have to start planning already.. Sianz..

2009-01-31T08:31:00.001-08:00

Today was liked so packed with events gg out here n dere..
It's PROBABLY been so soso..... long since i had tt much fun..
I hadnt laugh as much as today ever since.. 93 days ago? Today was 1 of those rare days..RARE..
Went out in the morning.. to PS Reef & Suft. bought new shirt frm City link de R&F.. nice=)
Went all the way to Louisa's hse.. It was like Jurong?!? tt's freaking far. hahas..
though alot of pl also late..=) inc Me & leon.. lol.
Coincidentally met him alighting frm train.. hahas. when i was alighting as well.
Gt another HongBao frm Louisa's mum.. smiles.. hahas..

Plus Maricar's leaving soon.. sianz.. bought her this card. dint had time to write.

so wrote in Louisa's hse. cant find the other pic. played some cards den went home with leon.

Rest awhile den left to meet him.. 4J's class gathering. Lol. Wanli changed alot. haha. MeiHua no change. Laidi dyed her hair RED!! gosh. girls dint change much. guys also. lol. Had BBQ at weeyang's place. Rode bike n some card game! tt requires drinking lots n lots n lots of water.. til i PUKED!!. wth... "A" to 4 black cards is u drink yrself. 1 representing 1/4 cup of water to 4/4. full cup. 5 is True or dare. 6 is "I havent..." . 7 is 7-up. 8 is Chai-chuan. 9 is rule game. Jack is All guys drink. Queen is all girls drink. King is Thumb game. really puked. others too.

Okay. so went to bishan park to play too. Human tick-tack-toe cum dog n bone! super innovative. plus bang game! cum catching! Damn fun lol. esp WH was like retard!! walao.. lol. lmao.. too bad no pics.. hahas,. came back home.. cousinz all playing shopping mall. =)

POSTING RESULTS OUT!! 0.0'''...

2009-01-29T19:05:00.001-08:00

FISH BODY ----> ALL EGGS!!

ShaShiMI!!=)

SAKE

SAKE.. With Cousin's retarded Hand...

JAP setting

King Calptron Jap Cuisine Res.

PLace

lololololol... dint post ytd.. was too tired. HAHS.. Went to Jap restruant to celebrate cousin's distinctions for O levels.. -.-'' i"m thrilled.. lol.

Food was okay. but thinking of the day before.. lol. day before dined at IChiban Shshui. Now again another Jap meal.. okay. Tempura was nice. had alot of food as well. Esp when the servers were like giving us mre tha wat we ordered? Lol. Had tempanyaki chicken, salmon, and the like..

Yahx. yy's abt it. working was as usual. just tt we ran out of US cakes. lucky my customer was like damn nice. She said " though we came all the way here just to eat yr cakes n It's finished, I TRUST YOU, get us anything u recommend.."

Lol. tt wa good to hear..

Hahas. kana pulled back by BOH too. So i'm like running to sides? FOH & BOH.. woah.. lol. practically, they dint have enough staff. Plus tina was sick as well. Sianz. Stu[id company cut cost! Cut lan lahx. idoit sia. make like dunno how many sauces for the whole day until i gave up. let Junxiang do. Covered fryer. Again. Kelvin was F***ing slow. always has been. but cant blame him. Even MYO was angry with him..

actually every1's hot with him. Sianz... Make me pissed as well when throwing rubbish.. -.-'' aft work was still damn early. arnd 11? so went S11 eat with JX. lol. satay n Lala. Lala was like 8 bucks but meat was UBERLY small??.. yahx. den he cabbed me home.. as usual..

=) smiles!! & today. posting results announced at 6? in the morning? wth.. 5th choice.. dint get into NYP though.. lol..

2009-01-28T08:08:00.000-08:00

FACE-less? Or SHAMELESS?=)X

Sianz......

Okay.. Today last min had to work. Sub brandon!!! .. i really dint had the mood 4 working today??...

Stil the CNY mood.. lol.. Sianz. talking abt CNy. had very little HongBaos. Did I mention it already?

Anw. Better thn nth. HAHS=). yahx..

So whole day was like BLEACH-ing.. =)D .. Watched til 190 plus.. lol. cant remember,.. Watched too fast. Currently bleach only sub til 204? must restrain myself frm Chiong-ing bleach. Hahas..

So 6 went to work. Before tt Met Joyy jie for dinner. Lol. Long time dint see her le. Hahas. Plus she in JC n JC started sch already. So.. kinda as busy as me as well.

Lol.. Today was so lucky she ended her class "early" like 4pm? tt's already considered early. Really dunno wat's late will be like in JC life. Lol. But heck JV. I aint gg dere anw. hahas. POLY's kinda better? Oh yahx. N my Cousin's gg TP!! Gosh! Design sch. thnk she will meet Nevin. Lol.

Yahx. so met Jie den went dinner with her at Ichiban Sushi! lol. wanted to get my crumpler bag but was too far for her. So went just to eat dinner. Yahx. I PAID EVERYTHING!! =-)D.. lol

Ordered alot of stufs. Hahas. UPloaded pics. lol. den next month's her turn to treat me! muahahahas..

tt's abt it.. except for working wise. Kinda got jammed. lol with coordinator's postion. Nt easy seh. Even JunXiang was JAMMED!! hahas. Orders keep comming in like F*** can? Like hell. wont stop de. To add on F&C's cutting so many staff resources.. like wth sia today. Staff so little. Out of Rice, Chips, Even flour for Frying Fish Chips n prawns. Until had to use Batter mix as sub for flour. Lol. Yahx. tt's abt it. Hahas. Came home. Tired!-.-''llll

BLEACH Opening.. My Source Of Inspiraton..

2009-01-27T19:52:00.000-08:00

Onaji dorama wo nandomo miteru
Kyou mo naa, sonna ki ga shiteta zutto
Kimi ga waratte kureta shunkan ni
atarashii sutori ga hajimatta

Chuuburarin na aseta hibi ga
iruzuitziku no ga wakattan da

Saa, mabuta o akete
kodoku ni surigaeteta
Nakushiteta yuuki wo kono te ni kakageyo
Koraeteta namida ima omoidashita kara
Kimi no te wo nigitte monogatari wa hajimaru

I’ve watched the same drama unfold so many times
Today…kinda feels like I’m watching it again
The instant you started smiling
was when the new story began
But I know the days will still Be full of uncertainty and apprehension

So open up your eyes
and replace your loneliness with something more
Find your lost bravery, and hold it up high!
I’ve finally remembered all the tears you’ve had to endure
So we’ll join hands, and a new story will unfold