Monday, August 2, 2010
Firstly , here to inform your , i'm not the owner , i'm just here to help this LAZY boy here posting .
WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO POST ? ._.
Gonna crap here a little ,
It's been sucha long time that we've talk/meet/h2h etc etc . Miss you this bestie aye :) .
Ok , shall stop here .
Lastly ,
LAST LONG WITH KAILING :) .
the choices we make...
Monday, May 10, 2010
To all mothers out dere:D
This is definitely a day to commemorate ALL that you have done for us so far.
From...
Suffering/Enjoying.. the pleasure/pain when our 1st cell starts to develope and fuse.
Enduring 9 months of our birth that awaits.
Sacrificing so much for us that we are sometimes unaware of it.
and all the GREAT stuffs u did as a mum, that made us who we are today.
That alone already made u AWESOME:D
But the truth is..
I never had a mum.
Or maybe i did.. but only til 2 yrs old and after,
I'm officially listed as.. MUM-less.
Maybe I had never experienced <3 from a mother.
& could never understand it when you just hear others blabber so much about their mum and how good their mum are...
When deep down, you just had nothing else to say about ur own.
You are afraid that friends will in turn ask you, "How great is your mum?/ U dint celebrate Mother's day with her?"..
All you can do was try to avoid the topic or be as brave and stupid as claim urself as motherless to make a joke out of it to let everyone change topic and forget what they wanted to ask.
LOls. to think abt it now...
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WHY SO SENTIMENTAL? :D:D:D:D:D
Just get this FUCKING day on and over with. and every other day will just seem normal-.-
But yesterday, was a day, the 1st year that i actually celebrated mother's day for somebody(:
and that somebody's my GANMA(: <3
Though we dint get to know each other long enough to fully build a loving bond between each other, the least I got out of yesterday was that I indeed wished GANMA to really enjoy this mother's day.
She was damn sweet enough of her to treat me and LOUBO dinner after work. Idk whether telling us not going down orchard cuz she was lazy; an excuse.. but I could feel that she was really enjoying herself throughout the whole dinner and after that(:
Even though she paid like 100 just for the 3 of us having dinner at around bishan prawning area.. She was still happy:D
<3 her TTM(: still wanted treat me for prawning. if i really accept den really BPS already sia-.-
LALA.
KANGKONG.
STINGRAY.
CRAB.
MANTOU.
like that cost 100 liao._. pua sia.
Plus mother's day still need her pay money cuz she wanna treat-.-
That's what makes her a <3-able GANMA:D
the choices we make...
Sunday, April 25, 2010
~~~~ P L A Y + L I K E + Y O U R + L I F E + D E P E N D S + O N + IT ~~~~ I have improved, that’s what SOH told me; but still not up to his standard yet. It was nice to hear.. Nice to hear that he can see the improvement in me; whether or not it was just to spite me or if it was truly real, I felt good but still unsatisfied. Cause deep down I do know, I’m far from being a pro yet; I may be an advanced player, but to truly win everyone, to win my ultimate rival, to win even just soh or kang; it takes more than just those skills I possess now, far more to win them flat down, although LUCK do play a big part too. I can now do breaking which I failed in the past, I can see myself playing better in today’s 2nd internal FHD match against KANG and DAVIN; but those mistakes I commit, those chances I let lose and how rush and uncalm I was during the came brought down my very own failure. I can’t put the blame on Kelvin too, and He did somewhat play better than our last match competing against ROBERT and SOH; however, we still lost. The lost wasn’t great, that I’m aware. We lost by 8 points, having mostly drawed in most maps, but that 8 points could have been saved; had I not been rash and play like my common style. Like what I say. LUCK plays a part too. Having lost on our side and KANG and DAVIN not being able to win us by 28points that KAISHEN set for them, ALL our FHD cars had to be confiscated for a week before we can get them back again. What KAISHEN told me rang in my mind until now. “Go Home Reflect On It.” I was hot-tempered, I was angry we lost, I wasn’t in the least happy that we drawed though I dint expect ourselves to lose by so little only too. A little contradicting, but those who know what I mean will know. Imagine having me and KELVIN thrashed by 26 plus points for our last match with SOH and ROBERT but now, our defeat was 8 points. Can say improvement by 18 though opponents are different then and now. AND I thought about all this on the way home, I still do not understand enough by what it mean to PLAYLIKEYOURLIFEDEPENDSONIT. I have not truly found the true meaning behind those string of common words. I’ll train, I’ll be better, I’ll NOW aim; not for the 2nd or 3rd , but for the 1st. To think back how I aced everyone in primary school, was exactly having the exact same thinking, I AM THE 1ST AND WILL BE. NOW AND FOREVER. That serves as my motto; and it does, starting from today. MAYBE next week’s internal training/match again, most probably against ENGHOK and CHEEWEH will be a better one. Not MAYBE, but DEFINITELY. Confidence will boost one’s morale and strength, but never over-confidence. It will be match I look forward to, a match that I will work my ass of to be a better WMMT3DX+ driver of FHD. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ END ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ . M@f7A . With BIRD._. NEA Court Case END. Heng for them-.-. FHD BROTHERS! (LOLs. I look pregnant-.-) Labels: BROTHERSHIP ALWAYS THE PRIORITY.
the choices we make...
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Among these group of brothers, there is this ONE and ONLY clan of sworn brothers.
And Among these Sworned Brothers, are the 3 i treat as my very own brothers, not afraid to go thru thick and thin with them, not bothered abt money nor other stuffs like game credits.
However today, Is yet another test of brothership i find.
I myself failing at it.
I YEARN so much to be one of the swored brothers, cuz I can see. that 3 of them are really the kind of brothers I might have longed to have for life.
Though I'm still not one of them and probably not yet to be, I dont have the need to have a ceremony over this just to really prove to oneself and others tht we are all swored bothers.
"It's Not By Word That One Says, But By One's Actions That One Proves"
& amongst these three brothers,
S is whom I respect the most, due to be it seniority, Leadership, And team advisor. He is one with brains and never fails to consider all aspects of things before taking action. He is one who "led" us well til today, One who will never ever fail to let me look up to as an OLDER brother of brains.
K is one whom we exchanged out thoughts and views on almost every life issue. Helping one another as we can, in Friendship, Relationship, Family, Brothers, etc. yet K is also somehow the understanding individual who possess the same mindset as me, and always showing care somehow. He is a talking buddy who makes me realise alot of things during my very own life journey, one whom i will always consult in when i need advice. Taking care of me always.
W wont ever have any of our close brothers be hurt or taken advantage of. That is something worth mentioning abt him, our funny yet standing up for righteousness brother. With him around, we feel protected.
but today..
Their personality did change, yet mine changed the MOST.
S and I have thoughts abt K's gf but we sort it all out, not intending to tell K about it; and chose to put all trust on her instead.
I have my own personal thoughts which was shared with K, including those of S; this somehow became a stressful issue for K himself.
On the other hand, just a simple DONUT; can actually bring us all down.
Just a donut i mistook from the fridge; indirectly got the whole family to be mad at K.
Just for THAT donut; K's gf got banned from staying over anymore.
Just 1 $1++ of more donut got K to be damn fruastrated and all angry.
Partly because of this, partly cuz of his gf side of story.
In the end,
He got stressed abt it, angry with me because of one donut; but i cant blame him.
It was my fault afterall.
BUT it really sucks to see one's own brother got so fucked up with evrything.
making myself just as fucked up and indirectly,
S got scolded by me.
A got scolded by me.
Rest of the brothers just got another black face cuz of my own temper.
I never meant to scold S for not returning my fone.
I know that if this happened when i'm not stressed out, I wouldnt have shouted at S.
Moreover, I would NEVER shout at A for it has nothing to do with her.
End to end, i walked off, self-reflecting. Walked off even when i clearly heard W shouting for me.
What the fuck am i doing.
What the fuck is wrong. with me. with everything.
Just a DONUT. and aside for K's gf.
Everything just seemed so screwed.
If anyone was in my shoes,
I could bet my life all of them will wish to turn back time.
Though this might not be anything big to them,
but to me...
THIS MEANS ALOT.
THIS MEANS. The bond for my brothership's not sturdy.
THIS MEANS. Any other minor issues or mistakes can cause us to drift apart again.
SORRY.
& This sorries applies to.
K. for the donut. for the scolding u received just because of it. for HER being banned.
S. for having to endure my shoutings on the fone, for the bad temperedness.
A. for everything u were not involved, but i scolded u too.
W. for walking away
rest of my brothers. for us not being bonded strong together.
Just one wish.
A wish that these 7 brothers, wll never have to fall apart.
A wish that seems so impossible to come real.
A wish that for once will never change.
the choices we make...
Monday, April 5, 2010
Labels: LOVE
WHO WANNA HAVE A LUNCH/DINNER DATE WITH ME FOR FRESH & CHEAP FISH&CHIPS(:
the choices we make...
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
So he gave me he got me (Lol) to come in here to entertain you guys a little.
Actually, I am Ailin. Lol. Who am I? Hmmm long story but I shall cut it short. I am a friend of Cloud :) Lmao, I got to know him at causeway point arcade? ._. Through Maximum Tune (-__-)
Hmm. I love ba chor mee :) Cloud loves it a lot as well. It's really damn nice you know? I can like eat it everyday and never get sick of it. Omg, I just can't describe how much I love those meatballs (Although Ikea sells better ones which I heard from many people) and the kuaytiao/guotiao (or however you spell it). Omg. Ba chor mee for life.
What else? Lately, Cloud's been playing quite a lot of Maximum Tune as well. (I think) He clocked a timing of 3'29"___ for Fukuoka Expressway. Damn it lor, you're like 0'0"500+ faster than me. Sian. It's okay, I'll work hard.
I don't know what else to entertain you guys already. But if you're too bored, you can read my blog as well. Ciaossss~~
the choices we make...
Saturday, March 20, 2010
LACKING.
the choices we make...
