Sunday, November 30, 2008

today.. was another tiring day.. woke up at 11. Still tired.. got ready n went for church.. got there arnd 11.45? Knew i was late. oh well.. having poor time management these days.. -.-''.. cant help it.. Alot of things gg through my mind.. found out thr wasnt CG today.. nobody informed.. But CG changed to games instead. Netball n Archery.. cool. I was like "HUH"? lol. okay.. dint wanna play first. cuz i was like wearing formal clothes!? Lol. den yongjie n dennis keep asking me change n play. Bobian lohx change into sports attire. Lucky i've got extra clothes. Cuz evening got Cheryl's bbq party She invited anyway. so bought some extra clothes in case wet or wat. SO played netball, learnt some rules n archrey! Gosh. wanted to try tt out so much wen i was still studying in MF. NP had archery for cadets tt time, but was during our O levels, so had to give it a miss! Today finally can get a feel of what it is like! Lol. It was super fun can? Stretching arrow to as close as 1's lens or eyes den release! Darn Cool! Went off same time with yongjie. He had to meet his fwen. while i had to meet nigel! Lol. Going to IT fair with him! Last day already! held at expo. met him at 2 n set off. reached there arnd 2.45? AMK all e way to tanahmerah den to expo! Lol. was still raining too. SIanz. Plus ther were also TONS of ppl!! Wahx! Had to squeeze like shit lahx! Dunno why but a few things i was planning to look for in the IT fair had this green T77 Sony Camera in my list of things.. Just suddely popped up in my head. n of course, MY CREATIVE ZEN X-FI 8GB N 16GB! plus CREATIVE PORTABLE SPEAKERS N HEADPHONES! Sianz. Lol. walked around the IT fair n looked for Nigels CREATIVE X-FI TOO! copy lahx!! i tell him i wanted buy this den he follow also. LOl. so but i dint buy. Only nigel did, cuz no $$$!! haven payday yet!! sianz!! n need wait for payday! by then too late le. Next IT fair will be March! will wait for tt den i buy X-FI! hahas. bought creative headpiece. though wasnt e 1 i wanted. But cheap so bought. $19 bucks. okay lahx. creative brand lehx.. got phillips brand supberb sound system earphones $44. too ex. SONY had on also. damn nice. But $63.20! no $$ lahx! sianz.. nvm.. cuz IT fair de price for SONY items n phillips all is nett price. So no differnce gtting them frm retail outlets anytime. Yahx. Bought 8GB M2 memory card too!! Lol. standby for my CREATIVE ZEN X-FI! cuz there's a compartment for external SD card! Hahas. Mean time can also use it for fone storage! Double usuage! Rock on! Lol. Went back to amk hub later cuz nigel need leave his things at nevin's hse! Oh another bad news! Lol. Nevin had chicken pox. Kana quarantine for 10 days.. aka h cant go CI course with nigel! ahas. Sad lahx. Lol. But nevin gg during june de. Sianz. if he goes in, de i'll have verylittle chances of getting in too! zzz. =( hope not. Anyways. JW wantd meet me too. so went back lohx. Met JW at amk hub. She gave me christmas present n grad present! I dint ask for it, n dint expect any presents frm her or any1 at all. mreover it's like still early for christmas! thanks!! but i told her i couldnt give her a present cuz short of cash. so nt planning to spend on anything else already. Yahx. de went pop. she wnated get books. den went meizhenxiang bought rougan! Craving for it lahx!! gosh! N ass! when to xiangwei! their rougan was so much cheaper!Drop!! met yong! lol. talked den Jw wnet off. Me n Nigel took cab down. Cab uncle also lost! Lol. Good lahx. Taxi fare became so high. Haiiz. reached bbq pit at like 8? food also running out le. thre were another bunch of ppl. students i think. with their lecturer. They couldnt finish they food so gave us. Woah.. kind of them. talking abt generousity. Lol. satays, chicken wings, hotdogs, stingrays, otahs. best 2 were mashmallows n bacon!! nicest food lahx. Lol. Loads of sec 5s were dere. but cheryl wanted me to come so came for her sake lohx. so far so good. lol. nth. dint really rode bike much. did bbqing of mashmallows! lol nice oky?! gave Eileen eat! ginea pig. LOL . good food okay! Lol. Cut cake! 2kg doreamon can! Hahas. cute! Plus got dog dere! took a pic with it! in eileen's camera. Will post asap. dog seems to like my fingers! lol. Kept licking thme! hahas! LOVE dogs.. tt's 1 thing i can love.. at least.. tongpang nigels dad's van home! Gosh! 7 ppl in 1 van! tokong! initially was only 3 lohx! Den anot. den another 4 came. Shawn n his gf. Eugene n his gf. there were.. some emotions.. stirring inside me? N i can clearly say it's loniless, but nt jealousy. wats the diff? some might ask. Loneliness is just feeling alone, one self, self dejected, but nt desperate or eager to hunt for what's laking. whreas, Jealousy takes place.. when 1 feels so leftout, outcast. indiferent. like how come they are couples yet 1 is single? tt's th diff.. n mine.. is plain loneliness. nt jealousy..

16.. saw this number mre often this days.. what is GOD hinting to me? ANother 16..
MELISSA is Confused sent 29/11/2008 16:03
MELISSA is Confused sent 29/11/2008 16:04:
what's GOD trying to reveal to me..? Should i strive for this relationship? Even if i wanted. Would the other perty want? Would SHE want?..

the choices we make...

the IMPERFECTIONist trying to make THIS world PERFECT.

Friday, November 28, 2008

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

heh

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

?

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

u arent feeling like yrself these days issit

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

sad

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

Why you ask?

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

* why you suddenly ask

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

everything states so

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

What thing?

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

eg yr pm n nick

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

tt's 1 of them

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

no need to hide any longer

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

i noe

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

maybe u reeally dont wan this relationship anymre

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

anymre*

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

How you know? i din tell you anything.

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

though we both loved each other

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

i think

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

i sensed it

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

so i'm right

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

Maybe what you sensed is right.

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

okay den

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

Then what ?

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

i guess u want me to let it go too

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

okay

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

Maybe you can find someone much more better than me. Since your ex, still loves you i guess, Than maybe you should ry to get back w. her again. After all, She's your longest. And i bet its your happiest. And you guys quarrelled lesser than this relationship.

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

are u teeling me this..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

because u really wan me to let go..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

or u wan to let it go yrself

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

I dun want you to suffer because of me.

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

ask u sth

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

can i choose

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

as in make a choice

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

Make a choice in?

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

like any thing or any decision

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

Its your decision. Its you. Not me. Dun have to ask me.

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

you said it

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

yrself

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

i choose my own decision

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

nt any1

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

n i choose you

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

no hesistation

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

no change

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

cuz i noe i'm nt suffering when i'm with u

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

only time i'm suffering..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

is when..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

i'm nt with you at all

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

just answer me

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

do u still have feelings for me

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

?

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

I told you before. I dun know. But, I dunno how to see if i really still love you.

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

are u just messed up or what

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

Maybe just messed up, Confused? Troubled or something

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

That i cant make up my own mind.

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

all abt

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

At time i had this thinking, I dun want another relationship at this age.

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

But when talking to sheryl, I changed mythinking. But after that, I came back to the same thinking,

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

Maybe cause i'm not ready for everything yet

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

maybe..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

u see

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

almost everything u said

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

all have maybe

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

u just aint sure or confirmed of anything

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

What does that show?

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

u dunno anything

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

u dunno what u really want

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

Yes, I dunno what i really want.

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

i noe

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

..

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

How you know?

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

anyways.

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

stop every depression u're gg through

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

for you maybe this wont wrk out yet

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

for now..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

only way maybe to see if u still have feelings for me.

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

is when i totally get outta yr life..

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

What you mean?

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

Get out of my life?

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

if u still could live just as happily, just as troubled free, just as happy go lucky..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

tt means u succeeded in saying.

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

u dont feel anything for me anymre

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

tt's the only way to make u clear

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:

Just stop saying can?

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

okay

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

i wont

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

4 just 1 last time.. i just wanna help u..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

to be sure of sth

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

n nt everything so unsured of

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

so...

MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears.

auto-message: Having lunch

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

i'm sorry

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

bye n..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

everytng just doesnt seem to work out

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

no matter what i tried..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

tell me..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

what ways have i nt tried

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

sometimes u t nk tt u arent ready..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

sometimes, u hint to me.. u still love me n wanna get back with me

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

even i myself feels confused

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

tt i cant seem to make up of what ure thinking.

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

cuz u yrself,

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

u arent sure

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

how can i be sure of what u wan..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

when i was like.. being cold to u. trying nt to t nk abt u.. trying nt to be in touch with u.. trying to aviod u..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

u seemed so sure tt time u still.. had feelings for me.

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

wanted me to tell u my own..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

wanted me to say tt i still love you

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

yet aft tt, whn i finally let my cold self down,, n still thought maybe..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

i could start trusting in love.

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

n you

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

yr thinking just changed..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

n now when i ask u..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

do u still hav feelings for me..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

urent sure

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

what is the real reason behind.. you telling me to go back to my ex

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

do u really think i'll be happy

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

if i had been...

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

would i have chosen u..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

instead for her

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

even before..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

16th jan

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

she had already asked once

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

for patch

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?

™? says:

you should noe what i tell her

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

n i decided to go for you

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

because i can feel tt u're the right person i was always longing for

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

though u r just sec1

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

3yrs younger n might nt be able to comprehend some stuff..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

but i told myself it was okay..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

i was still williing to put in all i have into our relationship instead of mine with my ex

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

cuz i ultimately it was worth it

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

was the reason u want me to go back with her

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

is it really..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

to make me happy

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

or is it for yrself..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

cuz u dun wan this relationship any longer

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

you n i noe..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

the feeling of being lovesick really sucks

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

unbearable..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

i dont u to have to go through this too.

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

everything's just unclear to u

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

i'm just going to help u this last time.

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

before i really get out of yr life

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

to be sure of sth..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

to at least be sure whe r anot, u still have feelings for me..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

or even for any1 else in future..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

is leaving u the best option to help u in this way

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

if it's a YES.

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

tell me it is..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

i really want so much to leave you..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

so tt at least it can help u make up yr mind abt somethings..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

but if u still think tt by me leaving u.. you also wont be happy..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

den tell me..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

what i can do to let u have a clear answer'

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

just to let u noe.

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

it's really okay if u dun wan this relationship any longr

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

u're happy tt way..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

den stay tt way it is..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

i'm serious..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

for yr happiness,

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

i'll just do anything

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

but i just wanna help u as a fwen..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

as your ex bf..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

to realise your true feelings for me..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

or next time, some1 else..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

guess i've said mr than enough..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

think u'll see this offline msg sooner or later..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

3days..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

i hope u can gimme an answer on how to help u..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

if by 3 days..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

i dont receive anything frm u..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

i'll just do it my way..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

anyways. anything..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

do take care..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

decisions is yours to make

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

nt me

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

right

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

so .. looking forward for yr reply..

?[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*??ClOuD?™.[?][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]?™? says:

bye
MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. sent 29/11/2008 14:50:
I can be sure that i still have feelings for you. But i'm not sure if i want to get back w. you. Cause debby told me, To think if i patch back w. you and dun patch back. What are the good and bad things? She asked me to compare than choose.
c[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*ClOuD❤™.[][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]? says:
do it yr way.. anyway tt u feel happy with
MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:
But, Seriously, Dun get affected. Not patching is better than patching. Cause if patch, Me and you, Will be happy together. But also will have unhappy times. If never patch, Will be more happy. But, Will miss you. But i'd rather miss you than to be hurt again. I know you also dun want to be hurt again. I've seen your blog. I know everything. Both of us have the same thinking, Afraid of being hurt again. Afraid to love again....
MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. sent 29/11/2008 14:56:
I know what i say now is hurting you, But its the fact. Dun tell me you're not afraid of loving again? Not afraid of getting hurt?
MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. sent 29/11/2008 14:57:
Nvm. Just takecare. Maybe when you feel like, You may contact me anytime. Dun worry. I'm fine.... Hope you are.... Though what i say will affect you much. Sorry
c[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*ClOuD❤™.[][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]? says:
what's mre impt? afraid of getting hurt or our love?
c[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*ClOuD❤™.[][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]? says:
think abt it..
MELISSA says I'm drowning in my own tears. says:
Both?
c[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*ClOuD❤™.[][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]? says:
i chose this path og thinking to patch up.. i'm alrady prepared to be hurt.. but i noe it wont be like last time.. cuz it's all history.. i noe.. we changed.. for the better.. at least i noe.. i can handle our relationship once again.. if nt would i have asked for patch?
c[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*ClOuD❤™.[][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]? says:
i noe wont be like last time.. cuz time had made us both mre understanding
c[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*ClOuD❤™.[][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]? says:
tt's what i feel..
c[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*ClOuD❤™.[][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]? says:
u may feel otherwise
c[ShImIgAmI];ShhEn]]-*ClOuD❤™.[][LOVE]? [tHe 'NoT-sO-nOrMaL' LIfE][day29]? says:
i dunno..

I'll Always Love Her. Til The Depths Of The Sea..我哭了

the choices we make...

the IMPERFECTIONist trying to make THIS world PERFECT.

你的回话凌乱着　在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽　甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯　我还爱你呢
而断断续续唱着歌　假装没事了

时间过了　走了　爱情面临选择
你冷了　倦了　我哭了
一开始的不快乐　你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这真的懂了

怎么了　你累了　说好的　幸福呢
我懂得　不说了　爱淡了　梦远了
开心与不开心　一一细数着　你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻　我都还记得

你不等了　说好的　幸福呢
我错了　泪干了　放手了　后悔了
只是回忆的八音盒还旋转着　要怎么停呢?

This song i felt. Really mentions us. I regret letting her go. 放手了后悔了,后悔了.. I dreamt too far of a perfect relationship.. i was wrong..我梦远了..我错了. Yet, I still LOVE her.. 我还爱你呢.. Does SHE noe? The LOVE we had all these while.. Has gone too deep.. to forget it all..那些爱过的感觉都太深刻　我都还记得. 但你会先放手吗？不等我了吗？。。我永远等着你，爱着你, 一生一世把我们的爱情记在心里。我会一直等你，你会出现吗？再次握着你的手, ''我爱你''..

Day 28. Everything seems to be normal. but yet nt my love life.. I LOVE HER. n my feelings for her will nvr deminish at all.. day 2 yet i haven recive her answer.. But i'm waiting. Always waiting for HER.. Whether she comes anot. I'll wait.. COngrats to Nigel, whom had successfully been with Caier. I felt happy for him n her cuz.. i felt the internal happiness tt dere is another couple again.. Yet mine,.. I cant even help myself. but watevr it is, i'll do watevr it takes to b with HER.. cause. I love HER..

the choices we make...

the IMPERFECTIONist trying to make THIS world PERFECT.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

[Pictures Of FISH N CO!!]

[Maraciah's Son! Cute Little DUDE!]

[Kangaroo-cum-mouse little DUDE!]

Another Injury.. getting used to it. soon thre will be like uncountable cuts and oil burns? Stupid. Cut on left thumb by some heavy metal. Now inflammed.. Pain.. watevr.. Today at naval base work! Stupid! Dman hate there de environment, Got this lady ask m top up books on shelf de no space mahx. I tell her say, " you help me find space lahx." Her reply was" You dont come n TiKi horx." WTF. Like tt also tio shoot! WTF lahx. Bui shong lahx. nt like me saying these things rite? Damn lots of things in my head these days though. ALot og things to do too. Worked at naval base til 2 den ZAO already. DUn wan see their disgusting face. Fish n CO work was as normal lohx. Just another cut nia. N Maraciah brought her son!! to Fish N Co!! He was super cute can? lol. Pictures posting later.. She came today to take pic of our restruant.. Lol.
If you think tt u dun wan to chance upon another new relationship with me, It's okay. Cuz i'm already mentally prepared le. I'll automatically now wat to do when i get yr answer. Both a YES n a NO. Guess til this moment, yr decesion's still wavering. Dont rush into decisions which u haven fully decide wat u really want for yrslef. You're nt doing this for me, but yr own happiness.. Just take note n reminding you. ANyway. Take care. Looking forward to yr answer if it's a good one..

the choices we make...

the IMPERFECTIONist trying to make THIS world PERFECT.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

David Cook - Always Be My Baby..

We were as one babe For a moment in time And it seemed everlasting That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free So I'm letting you fly Cause I know in my heart babe Our love will never die No!

You'll always be a part of me I'm a part of you indefinitely Girl don't you know you can't escape me Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby And we'll linger on Time can't erase a feeling this strong No way you're never gonna shake me Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no And I won't beg you to stay If you're determined to leave girl I will not stand in your way But inevitably you'll be back again Cause ya know in your heart babe Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me I'm part of you indefinitely Girl don't you know you can't escape me Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby And we'll linger on Time can't erase a feeling this strong No way you're never gonna shake me Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh I know that, you'll be right back, babe Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be apart of me I'm part of you indefinitely Girl don't you know you can't escape me Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby And we'll linger on Time can't erase a feeling this strong No way you're never gonna shake me Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be apart of me (you will always be) I'm part of you indefinitely Girl don't you know you can't escape me Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby And we'll linger on (we will linger on....) Time can't erase a feeling this strong No way you're never gonna shake me Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby

[This is 1 song which some words really amaze me. Bold n Italic only..]

Miley Cyrus - 7 Things

I probably shouldn't say this But at times I get so scared When I think about the previous Relationship we shared It was awesome but we lost it It's not possible for me not to care

And now we're standing in the rain But nothings ever gonna change Until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you The 7 things I hate about you, oh you

You're vain Your games You're insecure You love me you like her You made me laugh, you made me cry I don't know which side to buy Your friends they're jerks when you act like them Just know it hurts I want to be with the one I know And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do You make me love you

It's awkward and silent as I wait for you to say What I need to hear now is your sincere apology When you mean it I'll believe it If you text it I'll delete it Let's be clear Oh I'm not coming back Your taking seven steps here

The 7 things I hate about you You're vain Your games You're insecure You love me you like her You made me laugh, you made me cry I don't know which side to buy Your friends they're jerks when you act like them Just know it hurts I want to be with the one I know And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do You make me love you

Compared to all the great things That would take too long to write I probably should mention the 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you Your hair Your eyes Your old Levi's When we kiss I'm hypnotized You make me laugh, you make me cry But I guess that's both I'll have to buy Your hands in mine when we're intertwined Everything's alright I want to be with the one I know

And the 7th thing I like the most that you do You make me love you
You do, ohOohhhh oooooooooohhh...

[Words in bold n Italic? Words tt revolve HER probable feelings n emotions...]

Was SHE feeling tt way all along? .. Chinese songs up next time..

the choices we make...

the IMPERFECTIONist trying to make THIS world PERFECT.

DAY 26! 26 days of solem, loneliness, emptiness, .. Lacking the very basic necessity of Life.. That's LOVE. and it's missing right frm the every start of this holiday. Got worst during the 1st of this month.. Should I be thankful tt my brain's maybe degenerating? or should i be thankful tt dere were somethings in my book of life history tt wasnt able to forget? For it becamee a memory, an eternal one which sticks to my heart? Like a brick sticking to cement to brick. Will my heart have the honour to stick with HERs, HER heart, with our happy moments being our cement which clamps us both together again? Being an invisible bridge tt locks us n our love together? I get what is LOVE now. See how complicated, complex it is? Will we bong back together? or will or cement turn to water which just slides off both bricks ever so easily, with tt water drifting both of us apart frm 1 another? Frm then on, the brick will have the phobia of water, cuz the experience is far to great to overcome, to move on, n even if the brick did move on, it's soul, emotions, will all b left bhind unconsiously, perhaps nt being able to retrive back again... I'll be waiting.. for the last time.. for the last time.. for my brick is already too weak to take another fall. but it wants to try n bond with your break for the very last time..
Life is a game, once fallen,game over, the end.
SIanz! Today was boring! Damn boring. i dunno why. N gosh! I was like stupidly late for work today! SUPER LATE CAN?! i dint have enough sleep, that's why! Darn! I "regained consciousness" at like 11?! When work was supposed to start at 9?! 2hrs late! i lost $10 worth of pay? Lol. Lucky jean dint probe further into my lateness. Phew. Heard Lady boss was there too today. Surprisingly, she overlooked my abscence? Were I tt unnoticable! lol. okay. reached RI at like near 12.20!? okay. tt's $17.50 worth of pay!! =(. Will have to make up for it somehow. Work longer hrs at Fish n CO?! lol.-.-''.. Work was as usual. Had to pack alot of stuffs! N alot of ppl asking me whether there was vacancy for jobs. 4 17yr old gals? lol. Looking out for them anw. LiTing left at 2? band prac i guess. I left at 4 plus for sec job at Fish n CO. Kana another injury at Ri POP. Scotchtape dispenser left a pretty nice deep cut in my left thumb? Downright pain! dah. but anws.. who cares? Just an injury. Working always holds a higher risk to injuries too. Heard some old songs which was like shocked me out? Hadnt heard those songs quite awhile, Dint noe it was like depicting maybe wat WE feel? maybe. anyway job at fish n co was as normal. Ahbu dint come anymre. Wat a giveupper. Lol. Shawn still came. but only to finish his OJE n planning to leave F&C. =/. okay. today.. did i learn any new dish? Hmm. just learn how to make seafood feast. Ehx. come to think of it. Maybe it's good thing tt shawn's leaving! Lol. I can tak over as FRYMASTER again! woots. that's my forte? Lol. today had some ... costomers! We were doing closing n clean uo already yet so many orders last min came in! wtf. Lol. Went back home le lohx. This Sundays Cheryl's bday. She invited me? lol. I was like e only sec 4 invited. wth. undecided whether to go. Will be awkard? okay. nth much. oh yahx. last min sec 1 had some NP gathering. too bad i cant turn up. was working though. but nvm. Gave it miss. That's ALL. Okay. needa sleep. 1am already. becoming mre n mre like a night bird? sleeping so late everytime.. 26 days.. i worked this long wasnt to forget her. All i wanted was to provide for her.make her happy. Okay. I'm crappy again.. Nt trusing my gut feeling anymre.. But deep down, this time, my heart's nt sensing a rejection nor an acception but.. a DUNT NOE.

the choices we make...

the IMPERFECTIONist trying to make THIS world PERFECT.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

the choices we make...

the IMPERFECTIONist trying to make THIS world PERFECT.