Friday, August 14, 2009
Finally had this video up and running!
Totally into this song. hope you guys enjoy it!.
Like 3 in 1? All subtitles!
Remiscience of the past
the choices we make...
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
I dont know if I'm doing things right now..
It seems ever so confusing now..
I was very sure about something..
But now kind of doubt it..
What is wrong with me?
i dont know if showing her the convo.. is right or wrong..
Showing her cause her to be sad, to be emo like today.. to be totally not herself.
It really hurts to see her this way.
As in, she's my close friend. BUTTY.
I want to help her. Cause i seriously feel that she and DT are compatible with one another.
And that she really deserves his love.
Likewise It's obvious that DT likes her too. but why somehow.. he deny it when questioned? Why? making my feel so unsure about my assumptions now.
Making me feel like all this while, whatevr I told BUTTY.. was all CRAP.. All shitty talk and no facts.. and today.. she was NOT herself at all.
Making me become damn demoralised also..
I hope this continues to be the way i expect it to be..
Aside from that.. somehow.. everything seems to be interwined with one another..
Mervyn came asking me. "cloud korkor, how come yr mum dont care when you are out so late de.." i stunned on the spot that time. Chris was smart enough to noe. BGF thanks.
And.. somehow, somehwere, Rascal Flets song - What Hurts the Most popped out in my mind.. that song.. HER.. me.. and.. one night. I dreamt of HER even.
What is this man.
Why the random dream of HER?
What is GOD having panned for me in my life journey?
Recollecting all my past? Why?
Making me ponder about alll this stuff.
Den i chanced upon this song.
BIGBANG - HaruHaru.
Watch the MV and it really seemed like it's telling me sth..
like GOD is hinting sth to me thru thr MV.
everything seems to be sososososo... Complicated yet interlinked!
Lies by BIGBANG was next..
someone help me...
the choices we make...
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Might as well join them, in the end, their train was 2 in front of mine.. sian.
Reached school at 8? LOL. so early!
Blast HARU HARU..
Some meaning behind it...
Now i dont know what is on my mind..
What exactly do i want in life at all?
what what what? i just dunno....
Anyways.
slacked the whole day, seriously...
Only helped in doing fmt only.
the girls like did all the work? -.-
Russ and Bryan were also playing away. Shit ass! Hahs!
Last min asked GT to watch G.I. Joe!
Eugene and Fang Qi wasnt free at all. sianz.
We went ourselves loh. LOL.
Reached dere and was late?
IDK what we missed. hahs! not miss i guess.
Oh yea oh Yea! The girl's quite hot! hahs!.
Being random! Snakehead was like cool? LOL. like some ninja. Hhas!
the whole action packed movie made my head spin.
Dunno was cuz not enough sleep or no popcorn! Haha!
After that sent GT off. Met Leong Yee to go for the P&R buffet!
They had some function! dint expect them to invite the part-timers0.0
Kat dint come though. Lazy dog at home! haha! someone scared of blag-a-lah! LOL
And I got Leong's bad side on recording^^xD. Hhas!
He tried RAPING the heck outta me to give him my fone to delete it!
GUILTY-CONSIOUS hit him! hahas!
LOL. yea. so yea reached P&R! So many people!
bryan's dad to the boss to darren, alex, louis, etc to lawyers!
Buffet was nice! and i had WHITE WINE! bitter but at least better than beer!
Beer only makes stomach very zhang! Played POOL also.
Leong won lah! left 2 balls nia! Hahs!
Den this customer come buying 900 plus worth of accessories-.-""
siao de! LOL. I wrap his accessories like mad also!
imagine alittle blood rush, yet not working time, yet so many plates to wrap!
Kampua sian man! LOL. Wrap like wont wrap finish! hahs!
And and.. Annie changed her hairstyle! not bad! haha! Elsy also! LOL.!
& bryan and his bro came at 9? LOL. Talked tgt about alot of things!
den went home at 11 plus?
Bryan dad send me home! and damn it! I almost lost my fone twice today! Walao!
just now dropped onto the patch of grass. and if bryan dint tell me.
FONE GONE CASE! LOL. lucky!..
and now.. mind alittle tired.. the white wine! DRINK DRINK DRINK!
the choices we make...
Monday, August 10, 2009
Aint anything like how i celebrated every single year.
year after year.. just going to cousins house "celebrate"
Eat dinner together, then off to playing games, watch anime.
The NORM isnt what I want.. seems so boring.
This year. Simple is the NORM! Simple Became the NORM.
Went church in the morning. havent been attending due to work.
Pastor's words were always somehwo in accordance to my life.
Talking about evangelism, time management. How we have time for play and work.
Having the right "DIET" for everything.
One can have all the food he wants and once consumed, nutrients are supplied to his body.
but, if he doesnt exercise but eat all the way, one will get fat and in turn have health problems.
It is the same for the spiritual body.
And for every spiritual body; individual or as a whole convent, we need a BALANCED diet too.
one can have all the biblical knowlegde he desires and once make known, "holiness" are supplied to the body. but if he doesnt practice it, pray to GOD, do evangelism, one will not be as HOLY as he thinks he is.
it really seems meaningful to me.
Service end and refreshments were served.
Met Leon! Old time friend! Seems like he noes PIGGY too(: ..
And his mum! Still praising me as alws. LOL.
Saw Lillian. She looked... much prettier than last time; when i was with her..
Went lunch at the market den headed down to Daryl's house. LOYANG CONDO-.-
Had some survey thing about christ.. HOHOHO. Got Hospitality as my best? den some Creative communication, etc. LOL.
I went there just to do the survey den go off. Had badminton at 2.45?
LOL. Took cab down! RICH KID! xD. hahs!
Went there train 1st. some small training and I was ALREADY BEAT!! Stamina deproved like shit.
did like 5 times of 8 climbing stairs. Russell came 1st. surprsingly!
den the rest of them PIGS came at like 3,10? hahs! with the small ones also.
Had a great time dere. havent work out for quite awhile!
Though I had to CONSTANTLY lighten up the atmosphere..
due to some conflicts with butty and russ. den it was like alw dead silence even in a match.
tagged with BUTTY twice with match with russ and Shao Qing/Christina.
WON TWICE ALSO! ^^ Haha!
Single match with russ full court also WON HIM! TWICE! *kaopei* Hha!
but den. cant be to cocky, I was just alittle much better than him only.
HAD 2.4 run after that. Damn it man! Somehow leg cramp; muscle tear.
The shock to the leg muscle was like a knife stabbed to the vein!GOSH!
LOL
After that went off, dint bathe? LOL. stnks!
Went to chris hse "study". Dint really had the mood to study. IDK why.
Some other EXTERNAL thoughts were keeping my damn mind occupied..
anyway! KFC was ON THE HOUSE! woots! I ate like 3 pieces.. -.-
now exercise like never excercise like that! LOL.
delicious. was stuffed with more mash, coleslaw, popcorn chicken and 35 packets of CHILLI. that seriously ROCKS!
Even had ice-cream, mint and coffee. Hha!
sq was like teasing liz and stuff, den the go one corner and reflect thing! It was ultimate fun.
Stayed til like 9 plus? den went off cuz SQ and Liz going home also.
Just nice Chris God Ma and Pa came. All were like stunned when chris called them ma and pa.
-.- LOL. yea. somehow that alvin guy blacklist me? LOL.
Took bus 147 to cousins hse. and when wanted alight. this WEIRD woman came up.
I was just ncie standing at the entrance door of the bus. -.- damn it. suay.
bus driver's a CHINNNNAAA.. ask me translate the woman's words for him.
Apprarently, this woman came to complain that a guy kicked her as he was alighting from the bus.. and this woman came to the bus driver only 20 mins aft that, probably like aft 3 to 4 stops? -.-!! wat the hell.. Kinda lame lah.
Come and complain and want the bus driver to sth abt it, when 1stly mean already left, 2ndly, 20 mins LATER?!! IDK what's in her mind. LOL.
and cuz of her problem, the bus stopped rather long at the busstop..
so was like when they were done and I alighted, those passengers were like giving me the look.. like i was the one holding up the damn bus!!.. heck.
Went to cousin's hse aft tt. and ate DURIAN! man! Damn full! *_*
and when that's not enough to make my stomach bloated, another bowl of sweet potato soup!
Faint! LAWL!
Facebook all the way. sianness.. went home at around 2?
By that time, whole body was exhausted like shit already.
SLEPT! After one mre bath!
and just like that, celebrated national day.
The warmth of friends and enjoyment with them in such a simple outing is far better than going out on movies and splurging money after money.
the fun we had today.. cannot be compared to the fun we have for outings.. It's totally indescribable! totally. gotta miss them... when change of sem starts.. ):
the choices we make...
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Just thinking about it brings back memories.
One blink of an eye, sem1 is coming to a close.
One blink of an eye, clique in poly is going to be seperated into differnt class already.
One blink of an eye, holidays are near yet again.
But.. Do i really yearn for holidays to come? For the 1st sememster to be nearing the end? To have a class of class?
): ... it's really a bother we have to go through all this.
Thoughts like "Are we still going to be close as last time" , " Will we still go school together?" seems to whirl up in the minds of many.
Probably myself too.
Clique like Christina, Eliz, Shao Qing, Bryan, Russell.
The few of them did make a big difference in my life.
Some of them whom I am constantly trying to squeeze my brain juice just to help them.
I mean, ultimately, I want them to be happy and get what they want in their life.
Be it in relationships, in personal problems, in school work.
It has still been my dream to HELP EVERYONE WITH THEIR OWN TROUBLES.
Leong Yee's a great guy I'm really gonna miss. His character, inner style and sense of responsibility is none comparable to all the people I see. He's more than a good friend I would miss to have.
Katherine another crazy gal but overall, yea..
Shafiq! The ULTIMUM joker! Miss that too.
Celeste, one of the girls who came opening up to me about her problems, close to her i guess.
THE REST OF W15Q will not be forgotten.
Kinda childish one might say? Too impossible perhaps?
But.. with every troubled mate receiving help, there wld be one more HAPPY, CAREFREE human being.
That is what I choose to believe. And believing it, helping people esp those close to me, will be my top piriority.
Though at times the problem may drag on and on, but i do feel that once i start helping, there shouldnt be a stop to it until the problem's solved. No matter how demoralised the troubled may get, how low in confidence he/she is about some matter, I do take it as my responsibility to make sure they are happy, with true facts to prove to them so they wont think otherwise...
UT3s coming. And days passing by are like flowing water in a crystal lake. Shorter the time I have for my studies.
Am i prepared? NO, I'm not in the least. The mere thought about it scares me.
Again, I'm compelled to help others mre than i help myself.
The 2 kids are having their exams soon. the contradicting fact is.. My exams come 1st b4 them; i'm preparing them, yet leaving myself unprepared. yet, like any other tutor, difficulties faced are unavoidable.
I make their money worthwhile by spending every min teaching them, not a min of break at all.
Tanking two kids at one go. 1 guy, donavan. 1 guy, germaine. Pri 5 and 4 res.
Donavan's not smart but he is hardworking. though caught him lying and copying answers twice but still trust him.
Cause i know the feeling of not being trusted.
Germaine's smart but lazy, the complete opposite. Alittle defient.
Yet when i teach them, it is only supposed to be 2 hrs. Normal tutors would just sit there and do their own stuffs, kids duno den ask tutor, tutor den teach.
Yet I'm going the extra mile to teach them every single min every single second,
on top of that, I gave them another 1 hr free every session.
I dont mind going home late if they were willing to learn.
Yeah. yet my pay is like what? 20 bucks per session only? Not worth the money, but den. oh well.
Working? Stopped! Needa have all the time I can get. UT's mre impt. Last hotel session was western course?
All TCC people. and I was grped with this auntie. Self-centered selfish, refusing to help other servers.
I TOTALLY hate that kind of attitude!
In line of that, Gained new friends from TCC. they can see that I want to help but that auntie just always told me off.
FREAKING HATE IT!
someone told me this b4.
IF YOU CAN HELP, IT'S A MUST THAT ONE SHOULD HELP. BUT IF ONE DOESNT HELP, HE IS IN THE WRONG.
This girl. Qian Hui i think. got scolded by the auntie and i could tell..
She was close to tears. Sympatised with her. However, she look kinda cute. What am I talking.-.-
Yea. Haven seen Xue Er for some time already, after that quarrel. Back to normal I guess. My ZHUZHU still(:
yeah. Think tt's all. (: will post pics sooon!
the choices we make...
