Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Drowning in the world of music.
The life i'm trying to hang on to / too.

the choices we make...

the IMPERFECTIONist trying to make THIS world PERFECT.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

IDK what's with me today..
I'm somehow me. but the real me seems to be drifting away...
I just feel so shit.. just so shit..

Today went to meet GT.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GENGTAO!
went to Fish&Co to eat.
And she brought like so many friends?
Bill was abt 60 plus. 0.0 money fly again.
But i do owe her a bday present after all.
FOOD was great. Not regretting on the food expenditure.

Left to find HER.
Waited and waited.
Dere was this small gal who really cheered me up. Indirectly.
Watching her skate so freely..
Reminds us of who we all were when we were young.
No troubles, no worries, no sadness.
ALl we ever do is.
EAT.
PLAY.
SLEEP.
Akin to some pig. but tht's the life of us being young. Once.
2 hours dere and i saw CY. She cant do anything too..

Went off. BUGIS. ALONE.
Dint wanna call anyone. but just needed to chill.
Bought like 100 plus worth of clothes?
Wanted to find some specs from the other time.
SOLD out already. ._. total shit. Haiiz.
1 RED POLO TEE.
2 TEE SHIRTS.
1 CARDIGAN/HOODIE.
2 SHORTS.
=
$100bucks.

Lucked out today. so many things happening.
Just need a break from it somehow.

~SOMEHOW. I just cnt feel tht I'm myself now..
It's fearful to see how one isnt oneself.
How I'm not myself at all...
IDK how this is all affecting me.

Labels: WHO AM I?

the choices we make...

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Monday, September 28, 2009

Tonned at Leong's hse last Wed.
This whether woke me up can?!?
Strong winds.. Hearing the howling of it, crashing on the window panes.
Somehow the winds resembled the ones i felt in Korea? 0.0
Pity it was raining so had to close those windows and cant even feel the breeze. );

Day before tonned at Chris house.
Me, Leong, Kat, Sq and chris herself.
End up watching HOUSE OF WAX throughout the nite.
All 5 of us crampping into one single size bed. ._.
About 4am cabbed to Boon Keng Mac and bryan was dere too.
Ate some heavy breakfast!! MEGA macspicy set w/ bryan's order of hotcakes!
LOL. all i eat! Muahaha!
Walked all the way back to potong pasir and obviously slept with tht full stomach of mine!
Apparently, tht chris just dont wanna sleep.
Non-stop disturbance from her luh. Shake me, tickle me, slap me, take away blanket, pillow. EVERYTHING!
hetic night tht was.... LOL.

~ Heh. idk when you are gonna read this.. but i'm posting it just after the call we had at noon.

Whatever difficulty u are facing now, you are not alone..

Whatever the outcome may be, you are not facing it oneself..

but with me by your side. I just want u to know THAT and only THAT.

I noe tht this "obstacle" is a big one tht you have to go through.

& it's just a matter of time when this obstacle approaches in yr life, and probably in mine.

Dont have to cry alright. Save those tears okay?

What you dont wan out of it, I dont wan it a thousand times worse.

What you want out of this whole issue, I want it even mre.

So much that the WANT will soon become a NEED.

I will be with you.. All the way. ILY.

~and you know.. You still owe me loads and loads of homemade food.

how can i let you go tht easily? (:

Dont ever tink of running away when u haven yet repaid yr debt uh ^^.

SMILES! (:

Labels: Staying By YOU..

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SLEEPING/AWAKE?

For the 1st time.
My body clock wasnt in sync with me, even with fone alarm by my side.
0.0 Was supposed to meet Lillian for her job interview today. PEI her to go P&R.
In the end. 11.20 i was still in bed! xP yet 11.30 was our meeting time. WOO!
Rushed like mad, dint even wanted to style hair.... cabbed down to mandai estate and
still had soyabean she bought for me for breakfast. LOL.
Reached and waited for Jansen while we talked alot also. NP stuffs and the like.
Interview was successful but. somehow just now sth on her side cropped up._.
I was in the job already. COOL! $7 per hr yet still negotiable. With tips and commision.
GREAT PAY! but like everyday needa work. Like be damn Xiong luh.

Went to mac to eat with Lillian before meeting up with HER.
Damn it xP. Lillian got me to treat her 20 piece nugget set ._.
her 1st payroll will be her treat den!! Aiming for IT!! Hees!
Sent her off to mrt den just nice went to the other mac at concourse.
SHE brought CY over. 1st reaction was stunned to see CY's real self and dp. 0.o
teached her alittle and CY went off at 5?

1st time having such a long chat with HER luh.
From 5 til like 9 plus talking all the way.
HER life, My life. Friends, Relationships, Family.
and another 1st time where i felt comfortable talking to someone, tht long too!
^^ and for some UNKNOWN reason, her palms were always wet. Hahas!
Told her quite alot of stuffs, some bad memories and stuffs.
HER side, heard alot from her too. Sad, Happy, Joyous, Funny. (:

Went off cuz she had her fwen to send her back.
Went arcade aft tht. Tuned up my car? LOL.
YEA! I'm gonna save more money for driving license and definitely getting a motorbike!(:

~ Hehs. Stay strong alright? Glad you opened up alot to me today! So damn thankful!
Pity tht FOOD couldnt be in my tummy right now. YUMS^^.
and EOY! Pass that! Dont fail alright? JIAYOUS!!!!!~

NEW YORK! NEW YORK!

F1! Zooooooooooooooommm!.

Went out with clique just the other day!

Wasnt a really well planned trip luh.

Met up at cityhall, having the intentions to go to Singapore Flyer.

Just so nice tht day was the start of F1 race.

JUST...

SO...

GREAT...

tht they cordoned off the path to the singapore flyer.

What the shit man.. Haiiz.

Slacked at starbucks, thinking of what to do next.

Was lazy to suggest and somehow, those girls took tht photo with sunglass on. ._.

Whatever PEI YONG JUN they were saying i look like him

Dont even know who he is. 0.o

Finally settle to go to some steamboat resturant, WEI YAN NA @ novena.

And again, changed to NEW YORK NEW YORk last min cuz convenient.

1st time eating dere. and i thought food was expensive.

Seems like FISH&CO pricing also. Standard.

Ate til like 9 plus.

Rushed down to meet HER.

SHE prepared soemthing for me can? 1 day Just before her actual practical.

Keep asking me throw away._.

LOL. Just took the food from HER and left.

JUST SO TIRED NOW.......

Labels: How long can this body of mine endure the strain?

the choices we make...

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Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Found this in Compass Point Lib.

Yet again, been long since i ever came to library to search for books 00.!

hmm.

~ALL YOU NEED TO KNOW ABOUT APPLE TARTS!~

CLOUD's RECIPE FOR APPLE TART - IMPROVED VERSION!! (:

Obviously cant be mine. I will fail making food.

Took it out from some cookery book!

For those chefs out dere! Here's one u should try xD!

~RECIPE here for you already! JIAYOUS! All the best (: &.. you owe me one more homemade bread. Will nvr forget it~

the choices we make...

the IMPERFECTIONist trying to make THIS world PERFECT.

Monday, September 21, 2009

EGGGGGGGG W/HAM? Plus Mayo! ^^ (Bigger than an SBS bus 0.0)

PRESENTING the.... HOMEMADE APPLETART! xD

12.27 in the afternoon...

Should have woken up early in the morning to meet leong..

overslept until now..-.-

Hmm. Yesterday stayed at home to accompany family members?

Thnking back.. it's been long since i had ever spend a day at home with them..

WORK.

PLAY.

OUTING w/ FRIENDS.

But never a day out with family..

Hmm. this holiday probably makes me experience things like this which i haven been doing,

Which i should? >.<

Maybe sleeping at 5am the day before and me not being able to wake up for work cuz of some other matters prove to be a day where i can actually spend time with them..

Blessing in disguise? who ever thought about tht...

And not to say, i even had dinner with them.

Even i myself cant rmbr when was the last dinner i had with them at home.. KFC 0.0

Just think how long tht is....

Went out to meet HER and XW (: and obviously paid the price of being her genie pig XD.

Even overshot XW busstop where i was supposed to alight? den took another bus back..

Saw HER after she BOOed me ._. nver stop being abnormal huh..

After tht went off for last min tuition at CompassPoint. taught til like 10.30 and bus home.

Oh yea.. Saw this pair of sneakers at some shop in ION complex.

Signboard was cool enough to make me wowed.

DARK PINK standies and lumminated with a BLACK background.

Never seen one b4 0.0.

Sneakers priced at $78 bucks! Just so shit dont have my size. damn..

One in a million sneakers this is uh.... Gonna try and find it someday!

~ Thanking her for the FOOD! (: It just seems like i dont even bear to eat them at all^^.

the choices we make...

the IMPERFECTIONist trying to make THIS world PERFECT.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

00000000.....

Haven been posting. cuz all work and work til like midnight?

TIRED at last! Wanna have mre sleep :P

~ tonned at leong's hse on wed night.

DID only SOME webcamming XD. not much. and dere are the screen shots!!
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~ thoughts of her never fails to make me laugh^^. ALWAYS so ... abnormal! :P with tht pekceh ... language(:

Labels: WEBCAM and alien language?

the choices we make...

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Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Sleepless nights..

However I force myself to sleep, to take a nap..

I just cant fall into tht slumber, no matter how hard i tried.

1am,

2am,

3am,

4am,

5am,

5.55am...

6am,

7am,

Forced asleep from 7 to 9am. ..

Labels: Wearing me down..

the choices we make...

the IMPERFECTIONist trying to make THIS world PERFECT.

The Outing..

~ I dont know what is happening..
That's how i'm gonna start this..
For once, or should i say..
It's been a long time since.. I am going thru something tht came abt so unexpectedly.
Yet It's been only a short span of time...
but i dint anticipate such things to come about..

For the whole day.. I was worrying. Part of me was anxious, the other part of me patiently waiting..
Until. night time.. when dusk was about to turn to early dawn..
I made the last call.. No1 picks up..
I wonder...
If you were okay..
I wonder...
If you were safe..
I wonder..
If it was ur parents who found out abt us..
I wonder..
If you are sick and just needed rest..
I wonder..
If you were just maybe sleeping through and ur fone was spoiled..
I wonder.. Just too much perhaps?

I couldnt stop thinking about you.. It just probably came too sudden. No word from you.
Until I reached home. and everything was realised.
Thanks for telling me u were okay after that..
Thanks for telling me what u had to say..
For now.. I just feel so useless.

The two tings on my mind right now..
Are the songs you are hearing to..
and.. just what would i do if i lose you.. the thought of tht, brought a tear out from corner of the eye.
the thought of tht, made my heart ache even mre. I realised the pain was real..

All i can think of now is..
I will wait for u.. For just everything to be over..
Whether or not this fairytale of ours is going to end.. Or may it just be the beginning of this wonderful journey tgt, I choose not to be the scripwriter, not to be the author.. but the reader.
A reader which want all the mre nothing but to give any support he can..
A reader whom just want to do all he can to make HER happy.. once again..

Labels: Hoping You to Know..

the choices we make...

the IMPERFECTIONist trying to make THIS world PERFECT.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Had badminton game beforehand! ~ Was a GREAT game overall.

Compete with other people too? ._. kena trashed! But it's the FUN that counts(:

planning another badminton session maybe next Tues?

Same batch of people coming to play with us too^^. Can learn mre from those adults!

N yea.. Slept til like 1? Some PIG i am. ._.

Tink she just ended sch. Den bored den smsed me. Just nice i woke up luh.

Bluff her tht i was at her sch dere.. Den kena found out i online..

-.- she smart luh. OFFLINE!! so cheater!

Talked halfway and her mum kept coming in? come and go til i had to go liao.

Met Leong and Kat @Bishan Stadium. and yea BADMINTON!~~

Bryan came along also. Had dinner at MANHATTAN FISH MARKET!!

Took tht photo but was kinda of blurrish. This time no editting. Natural Blur!!^^

Eat le. Went arcade. AGAIN. gotta stop the craze for it.

Went tunning and the new GUNDAM POD game.. 0.0

Went home after tht loh..

~Missing her lots..~

~ Hehs Mei, i dint mean to keep it from you. so please dont need sad okays?

I just maybe dont wan u to feel hurt. Do understand alrights? talk to you soon okays? (: ~

Labels: Loving YOU was the right choice i made..

the choices we make...

the IMPERFECTIONist trying to make THIS world PERFECT.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Leong and Me! [最帥男主角s] XD

Me, Shirley and Xuewen!

Group Photo!(:

Monkey-faced?

11/09/09.

The 1st day..

For visit to singapore flyer?

For a date with Shirley?

For knowing Shirley in person(:

Started off watching M18 movie 0.0. I guess Shirley isnt really very good with M18 movies, so is Xuewen.

on the other hand. Was my fault too. Choose such a movie with leong! GAMER.

Loads of sick and gore stuffs. I even feel paiseh can?

Movie was kinda short and.. yea. dint understand it at all ._. missed like half the movie.

Went off to the singapore flyer next!

It was.. Hilarious! We macham like foreigners 1st time coming to singapore.

Looking for places of interest - Singapore flyer0.0.

Best yet, we still had the intention to snatch a map from the angmohs. ._.

Hahs! Called youshen and he sort of gave me some screwed up directions.

Me and leong just kept asking for the way..

making things worst. They had the F1 fence put up already, Blocking so much access to the flyer!! LOL.

Reached dere and had POPEYES for dinner?

Was kinda tired already. dint sleep the day b4 cuz was preparing some presents.. :X

plus explomo and all. just felt so beat down after all the work; Double Tuition, Explomo, P&C.

Time all like allocated to work, so last min rushed thru those presents.

Last min work arent always nice also.. =

anways. Shirley and Xuewen like shared.. one large mash potato for dinner..

Like some slimming promotors.. eat so little.

Rest of us like ate alot? At least Kat ate and CRAPPED alot?

Her ATTITUDE uh.. really make ppl laugh.. LOLs.

Sat the flyer after that. Thought we had personal cabins to ourselves.

>.<

Nothing will ever be good considering it's a ticket of $10 per pax.

Shared with 1 indian family.

No disturbance was was fine(:

the MOOD was just perfect..

and the perfect time to do our plan.

I went 1st den Leong yee next.

LOLs. Kinda screwed it up. :$ sians..

but everything went on smoothly?

The flight up and down was short. Dont even think was half and hr like they said it was-.-

But it was a fantastic view up dere. It was worth it though! I really dun mind going once mre someday..

After that, waited for bus and went off in train to home.

Leong went back with kat. I pei-ed Xuewen and Shirley home.

End up send them off at busstop only.

Said what i wanna say and i was off. Phew. At least everything's been said(:

Waited for Leong to come back den chat awhile at mac 1st before going home.

ALL IN ALL! It was WORTHWHILE! xD

~~ Though u told me everything was enough, I still find tht i wanna give you mre than just tht(: Just take time to get used to things^^. I'm sure it will be alrights.

ILY.

the choices we make...

the IMPERFECTIONist trying to make THIS world PERFECT.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Everything's not the same anymre.
"Same Shit, Different Smell".. Probably only now, I agree with celeste's words..
IDK if something that's bothering me now.. is what i think it is..
It seems like it, yet it seems like not..
...
...
...
but for one thing i'm sure.
Confusions.. and things will nvr be the same..

Labels: Somethings are just UNDEFINED..

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