I dint post for very long le. Understandable. Sth's bee gg on recently. Maybe i just need time to take things off my mind already. Dint have the mood for anything probably. tyring to work hard still. Work n Work n Work. Tt's probably became my 1st piroity now. Maybe in the past it wasnt. Now it had. Work n Work. Just trying to be specialised in sth. At least let me ace in sth. let me be good in sth. Let me suceed in being the best. I had already failed. in 1 thing or another. I dont wish to fail.. Again. Even things like i felt i had confidence in. confidence in suceeeding, wat turns out in the end wasnt even wat i least expected. Far worst than tt. far worst than anything. I'm asking myself. How come cant i just put everything at the back of me. why cant i just let it go. let my failure past like any other. How come this failure continues to linger inside of me. Wat for? why? There are far mre other chances out dere. which i cna always just grab hold n probably suceed. Why cant i just pull myself together to stand again?

These few days.. moodless probably. Helped Ric out with SBW's opening. New area. Everything was new. HQ ppl were down quite a no of times. Chai Enqi Susan. Even Dicky. all great ppl. but ppl nt of my status perhaps? HQ ppl. gotta bear tt in mind. Fwen was also working in F&C now. Intro her. Met other NEW friends to at SBW. Candice was nice. PeiLing n Jenson plsu IVy. Jenson was a great guy too. Probably can work out with him some time. RUNNNING. hacne been running for ages. Gotta start some day. Haircut? still finding a good one. natural would be the best. some1 told me tt b4. will load some pics asap. meeting fwen for platter meal. lol. til next time.. hope my mind can be of clear state..