Wednesday, August 12, 2009
I dont know if I'm doing things right now..
It seems ever so confusing now..
I was very sure about something..
But now kind of doubt it..
What is wrong with me?
i dont know if showing her the convo.. is right or wrong..
Showing her cause her to be sad, to be emo like today.. to be totally not herself.
It really hurts to see her this way.
As in, she's my close friend. BUTTY.
I want to help her. Cause i seriously feel that she and DT are compatible with one another.
And that she really deserves his love.
Likewise It's obvious that DT likes her too. but why somehow.. he deny it when questioned? Why? making my feel so unsure about my assumptions now.
Making me feel like all this while, whatevr I told BUTTY.. was all CRAP.. All shitty talk and no facts.. and today.. she was NOT herself at all.
Making me become damn demoralised also..
I hope this continues to be the way i expect it to be..
Aside from that.. somehow.. everything seems to be interwined with one another..
Mervyn came asking me. "cloud korkor, how come yr mum dont care when you are out so late de.." i stunned on the spot that time. Chris was smart enough to noe. BGF thanks.
And.. somehow, somehwere, Rascal Flets song - What Hurts the Most popped out in my mind.. that song.. HER.. me.. and.. one night. I dreamt of HER even.
What is this man.
Why the random dream of HER?
What is GOD having panned for me in my life journey?
Recollecting all my past? Why?
Making me ponder about alll this stuff.
Den i chanced upon this song.
BIGBANG - HaruHaru.
Watch the MV and it really seemed like it's telling me sth..
like GOD is hinting sth to me thru thr MV.
everything seems to be sososososo... Complicated yet interlinked!
Lies by BIGBANG was next..
someone help me...
the choices we make...
